High Life
Toothpick Lyrics

I remember when I lived for candy and cartoons
In my childhood, I was only concerned about simple pleasures like candy and cartoons.

I also remember the first time I ate shrooms
I remember my first experience with hallucinogenic drugs.

Joe told me in slow motion it feels so good
Joe described the psychedelic experience as being euphoric and slow.

Then he turned into Peter Pan and ran into the woods
Joe's drug-induced hallucination caused him to believe he was Peter Pan and he ran off into the woods.

I found a VW bus with the keys inside
I discovered a Volkswagen bus with the keys left inside and decided to take it for a joyride.

And I could see just enough to take it for a joy ride
Despite being under the influence, I was still able to operate the vehicle.

I started in New York, ended up in LA
I drove from New York City to Los Angeles, California while under the influence of drugs.

Thought it took ten minutes but it took ten days
My perception of time was distorted while under the influence.

I stayed for two weeks made love with two freaks
During my trip, I had sexual encounters with two unconventional partners.

When they found out I was seventeen they made me leave
When they discovered I was underaged, I was asked to leave.

That's the high life I got no regrets
Living recklessly while under the influence of drugs was my idea of living the high life.

I do fucked up shit get high and forget
I engaged in destructive behavior while intoxicated and would later forget about it.

It's so out of control it's all disrespect
My behavior was so extreme and out of control that it was disrespectful to myself and others.

I might say sorry then I do it again
I would apologize for my actions but then repeat them again in the future.

Well I used to steel lollipops, candy and gum
In my youth, I would steal small items to sell to others for profit.

Sold 'em two for fifty cents in the back of the bus
I would sell the stolen items to my peers at a markup price in the school bus.

I was an entrepreneur went from Blow Pops to blow
I had a natural inclination for entrepreneurship and was able to scale up from selling small items to selling drugs.

Choppin' down trees 'til someone pays me to leave
I would perform manual labor until I was incentivized to stop.

I dare you to keep kid off drugs 'cause life sucks
I challenge anyone to keep a child away from drugs because life can be so bleak.

And the smart kids go to college to change the world
Academically successful students typically go to college with the goal of making a positive impact on the world.

Then all they want to do is come home and fuck high school girls
However, many of these successful students simply end up chasing after younger, immature romantic partners.

Throw the little ticket in the back of the drawer
After receiving a ticket or fine, I would discard it and forget about it.

Tell the judge don't pay me no mind
I would disregard any legal consequences for my actions and not take them seriously.

Well I realized when I get high I don't make any progress
After a period of drug use, I realized that I was no longer making any constructive progress in my life.

I quit smokin' for six days and I wanted to run for Congress
After stopping drug use for a short period, I was motivated to make real changes and even run for political office.

To advance legislation for the legalization
I was passionate about enacting laws to legalize marijuana.

But I got stoned and lost my motivation
However, after relapsing and getting high again, I lost the motivation to pursue change.

It's the same sad story every time I apply for a job
Despite being sober and attempting to make positive changes in my life, I struggle to find employment due to past drug use.

A piss test to see if I get high
Many potential employers would require me to take a drug test to determine if I am currently using drugs.

Where white kids trick out Hondas and drive around
I live in a suburban area where young people focus on superficial things like modifying their cars.

And everyone I know wants to be Eminem
The people in my social circle idolize Eminem and strive to emulate him.

I just want to do my own shit and be his best friend
Despite my surroundings, I have my own unique perspective and identity and would rather befriend Eminem than emulate him.

But years of substance abuse got me lost and confussed
However, my long history with drug use has caused me to feel lost and uncertain about my identity and future.

I see my toes through my shoes now I'm singing the blues
Due to my addiction, I have hit rock bottom and am now experiencing deep feelings of sadness and regret.

That's the high life now its all regret
Looking back on my drug use, I now realize that it was not worth the temporary pleasure and I regret my past decisions.

I did fucked up shit now I'll never forget
I acknowledge and take ownership of my past destructive behavior and will not forget the negative impact it had on my life and others.

It's so out of control I had no respect
My former drug use was so extreme that it showed a profound lack of self-respect and disregard for others.

Now I'm sorry and I swear I'll never do it again
I am taking steps to make amends for my past behavior and am committed to never relapsing into drug use again.