God is a Dancer
Topic & A7S Lyrics

Blindly,
Walking without awareness or direction.

Across the sea,
Miles away, symbolizing distance and separation.

Your love
The deep affection and support someone provides.

Lit my way through storm and shade
Guided me through difficult and dark times.

For a thousand years.
An eternal sense of guidance that feels timeless.

Today, and every day,
In the present moment and consistently in the future.

Let me be your light,
I want to be the source of positivity and guidance for you.

Let me be your light Always.
I wish to be your unwavering support indefinitely.

Another battle, another day
Facing ongoing struggles and challenges each day.

To face the light and pull away from the embrace
Striving to find positivity while resisting negativity.

Of the shadows where I survive
Living in a place of darkness yet managing to exist.

The agony reminds me I'm alive.
Pain serves as a reminder of my existence and humanity.

Oh mother, I wonder if you knew.
Reflecting on the relationship with my mother and her awareness.

Oh father, if only I could speak with you.
Longing for communication and connection with my father.

Did you love my smoke and mirrors?
Questioning whether my struggles and façades were understood and accepted.

That would be enough, that would be enough
Just knowing you cared would bring fulfillment.

I know you found it, that dream you chased.
Acknowledging that you achieved your aspirations.

Don't ever think that what you love is a mistake.
Reassuring that passions should not be considered errors.

Despite the demons that rule your mind,
Even in the struggle with negative thoughts and feelings.

Stay the course, everything will be alright.
Persevere, as things will ultimately improve.

Your mother, she watches over you.
A comforting reminder of maternal love from beyond.

My daughter, just know that we are proud of you.
Expressing pride and support from parents.

From the beyond, you'll never hear us,
Acknowledging that communication across realms is impossible.

But you have our love, you have our love.
Affirming the enduring love that transcends death.

Can't afford to die, and can't afford to lose.
Feeling a pressing urgency to stay alive and succeed.

Sweet angel, wish I had been enough for you.
Regretting not being adequate for someone cherished.

All I am is smoke and mirrors.
Feeling insubstantial and deceptive, hiding true self.

Would you love me if you knew?
Questioning whether love would persist with the truth revealed.

Could you love me if you knew?
Doubting feelings of affection based on personal unworthiness.

What happened to me?
Inquiring about the changes that have affected identity.

I never saw these bones.
Feeling disconnected from my physical being and self.

I wear this skin like someone else's clothes.
Experiencing a sense of alienation from one's own body.

These scraps of childhood scenes are roughly sewn.
Memories of childhood feel fragmented and poorly integrated.

There's no tomorrow,
Living in a state where the future feels bleak or uncertain.

Just a day that started lifetimes ago.
Perceiving time as stagnant due to ongoing struggles.

Back and forth,
Experiencing a continuous cycle of emotions and thoughts.

Mania and nothing.
Alternating between intense emotions and emptiness.

Nothing at all.
Feeling a profound sense of void and lack of purpose.

What happened to me?
Questioning the transformation of identity and self.

Who am I?
Struggling with feelings of personal identity and self-worth.

Everything I've been feels like it's a lie.
Feeling disillusioned by past experiences and identities.

Food makes me sick and drink makes me fade.
Reactions to basic necessities feel negative and unfulfilling.

Are these my memories?
Doubting the authenticity of past experiences.

Am I even awake?
Questioning if life is real or just a dream.

Back and forth,
Continuing to oscillate between emotional extremes.

Mania and nothing.
Experiencing a cycle of intense highs and deep lows.

Nothing at all.
Feeling an overwhelming absence of meaning in life.

Earth, give me strength
Seeking grounding and support from the planet.

Skies, lend your range
Hoping for expansive freedom and possibilities.

Moon, lend your light
Looking for guidance during dark times.

Stars, guide my way
Requesting direction and clarity from distant sources.

Bow before the majesty,
Show reverence for the profound beauty and power around.

This loathsome demon reborn.
Acknowledging the resurgence of troubling feelings or thoughts.

Life with new purpose.
Finding renewed meaning and direction in existence.

See the earth through young eyes.
Gaining fresh perspective and wonder towards life.

Feel the universe through an ancient soul.
Experiencing a deep, timeless connection to the cosmos.

I have known all and nothing.
Navigating experiences that feel complete yet empty.

I have stared into the void until it haunted my dreams.
Confronted overwhelming emptiness to the point of obsession.

Screamed and smiled beneath the morning star,
Experiencing a mix of despair and joy under a new day’s light.

And conducted the chorus of grim constellations.
Interpreting the sorrowful aspects of existence.

Their lights lied, I died a thousand times.
Feeling betrayed by false hopes that led to repeated suffering.

Floating frozen past their majesties,
Drifting aimlessly through grand but hollow experiences.

I wandered too far into the black.
Venturing too deeply into darkness, losing sight of self.

Non est otium
There is no leisure or respite.

Tibi putesce mari aeterno
You would become accustomed to the eternal sea.

Abhorremus te
We reject you or detest what you represent.

Endless nights awake in vain
Sleeplessness leads to unproductive contemplation.

My imploding brain
The overwhelming mind is collapsing under pressure.

Torturing my psyche, there was no escaping myself
Constant mental anguish without a way out.

My hatred, my failures, my losses, my loathing
A detailed list of personal struggles and resentments.

There was no hollow peace
A genuine sense of calmness eludes me.

This has been my final death, finally accept
Coming to terms with my past and psychological demise.

All that I am, and all that I'm meant to be
Embracing my identity and purpose.

Perhaps eternally
Accepting this truth as an everlasting reality.

Blindly, across the sea
Continuing to traverse uncertain paths, far from clarity.

Your love...
The powerful and guiding influence of affection.

Lit your way through storm and shade
Illuminated your path through tumultuous and bleak times.

For a thousand years.
For an immeasurable duration of support and care.

Today, and every day
In the present and into the future.

I will be your light,
I will consistently provide support and guidance.

Let me be your light, Always
I wish to remain a constant source of illumination in your life.

Guide of the lost,
A beacon for those who feel directionless.

Guardian of the broken,
Protector for those who have endured pain and suffering.

Bringer of peace in final hours.
Delivering solace during the last moments of life.

Happiness is a choice,
Finding joy is determined by personal decisions.

And purpose, a charted course.
Having a clear sense of direction and intention.

I am but a soul-keeper,
A caretaker of spirits and emotional well-being.

And this god is dead.
Recognizing the loss of faith in traditional beliefs or higher powers.