Originally from Brooklyn, New York, Miller moved with his mother to New Jer… Read Full Bio ↴Originally from Brooklyn, New York, Miller moved with his mother to New Jersey after a brief separation of his parents, although his school was still located in the city. To counter the boredom during the long drive, Miller’s mother gave him albums to listen during the commute, including David Bowie, Elton John and Fleetwood Mac, which sparked his interest in music. "Ziggy Stardust, Elton John’s Greatest Hits, and Rumors by Fleetwood Mac, so I just listened to those non-stop, back and forth, all the time."

He started to play piano after his parents set up a lesson with a piano teacher who he said to be "a laid-back New Jersey wedding singer". From there, Miller started to develop singing and writing songs. During his high school, he started a pop-punk band. When he was 18 years old, Tor Miller went to New York University, specifically Clive Davis School of Recorded Music. He also spent his weekends playing piano at places such as Rockwood Music Hall, The Bitter End, and the burlesque bar, Slipper Room in the East Village.

Miller was signed to the independent label, Glassnote Records in early 2014 and subsequently dropped out from NYU due to scheduling problems (especially since he played music in a number of NYC venues). His first debut EP, Headlights EP, containing four songs that includes the positively reviewed "Midnight" was released in February 2015.

Now And Again
Tor Miller Lyrics

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Now and again
I'll be thinkin about you.
It will cross through my head.
There's nothin' I can do.
And I wonder if you're going out
or if you're staying home instead.
Am I just being paranoid?
Or is it all in my head?

Now I'm tellin myself I should give it up.
Get off before the end of line.
Am I kidding myself I will live it up,
If I could only get you out of my mind.
I'd make the calls with it all if I really wanted you.
And you'd throw your pride to the side
if that's what you gotta do.
And we could have it all
if we really wanted to,
if we really wanted to.
Every day I'm livin' in this deja vu.
Feels the pain
of punchin in and then punching through.
I'm tired of this shit I gotta do.
I'd rather stay home instead.
Just the 9 to 5 to be with you
and I'd be sleepin in my bed.
I'd make the calls with it all if I really wanted you.
And you'd throw your pride to the side
if that's what you gotta do.
And we could have it all
if we really wanted to,
if we really wanted to.
I can't stop.
Get you outta of my head.
and I am wishing there were times I would have said
that I think about you and I want you so bad.
Oh I think about you.
I can't stop.
Get you outta of my head.
and I am wishing there were times I would have said
that I think about you and I want you so bad.
Oh I think about you.
I'd make the calls with it all if I really wanted you.
And you'd throw your pride to the side
if that's what you gotta do.
And we could have it all

if we really wanted to,
if we really wanted to.

Overall Meaning

Tor Miller's song "Now and Again" is a lamentation about the singer's feelings for someone he used to be with. The first verse sets the stage for the rest of the song, as the singer describes how thoughts of this person come to him "now and again," against his will. He wonders whether they're going out or staying in tonight, then questions whether he's just being paranoid or if these thoughts are all in his head. As the verse ends, the singer resolves to "give it up," to get off at the end of the line and move on.

The second verse takes a darker turn, as the singer describes the "deja vu" of living day to day, punching in and out of work, feeling tired and unfulfilled. He'd rather be home with the person he's still in love with, but can't find a way to make it happen. He can't stop thinking about this person, wishing he'd said something in the past, now regretting his silence.

The chorus then repeats the message that despite all of these obstacles, the two of them could have it all "if we really wanted to." The singer imagines himself making calls, and this other person throwing their pride to the side to be with him. It's a dreamy, unrealistic scenario, but one that he can't help but fantasize about.

Overall, "Now and Again" is a song about the power of memory and regret, and how thoughts of the past can haunt a person, even if they're actively trying to move on. The chorus's repeated refrain of "if we really wanted to" adds a sense of helplessness to the song; the singer knows that it's unlikely that he'll be able to make things work with this person, but he can't stop dreaming about it anyway.

Line by Line Meaning

Now and again
Occasionally

I'll be thinkin about you.
I can't help but think of you

It will cross through my head.
You pop up in my mind

There's nothin' I can do.
I can't control my thoughts about you

And I wonder if you're going out
I am curious if you are going out

or if you're staying home instead.
Or if you're opting to stay in

Am I just being paranoid?
I am questioning if I am overthinking

Or is it all in my head?
Or if my thoughts are just imagination

Now I'm tellin myself I should give it up.
I am convincing myself to let go

Get off before the end of line.
To stop before it's too late

Am I kidding myself I will live it up,
I am doubting my ability to move on

If I could only get you out of my mind.
If only I could stop thinking of you

I'd make the calls with it all if I really wanted you.
I would go the extra mile if I truly desired you

And you'd throw your pride to the side
And you'd be willing to compromise

if that's what you gotta do.
If that's what it takes to make it work

And we could have it all
We could have everything we wanted

if we really wanted to,
If we both desired the same thing

Every day I'm livin' in this deja vu.
Every day feels like a repeat

Feels the pain
It's a painful experience

of punchin in and then punching through.
Working hard every day and then powering through

I'm tired of this shit I gotta do.
I am exhausted from doing these things

I'd rather stay home instead.
I'd rather be at home than doing this

Just the 9 to 5 to be with you
Just working a regular job to be with you

and I'd be sleepin in my bed.
And I could finally get some rest

I can't stop.
I can't control myself

Get you outta of my head.
To stop thinking about you

and I am wishing there were times I would have said
I regret not expressing my feelings before

that I think about you and I want you so bad.
That I can't stop thinking about you and desiring you

Oh I think about you.
Oh, how much I think about you

Writer(s): Jimmy Hogarth, Tor Miller

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Comments from YouTube:

Craggy Explores

Amazin vocals and song. Fist pump for tor miller

m a

8y↑5

just simply melt my rocker heart.
i love his music and style

Jess Rose

8y↑3

Favourite song 💜 he's amazing :)

StopBlackDeer

9y↑2

great voice and lovely song!

Corey Grace

8y↑8

I'm in love with someone who is probably never coming back. This song couldn't have come at a better moment in my life. Weird how that always seems to happen...

Drywall Services

8y↑11

1830 days ago My ex took my daughter away from me. I have seen my 10 year old 46 times in the last 5 years.
I wait now till shes 18 to let her know I didnt stay away , her mother just made things difficult. Music like this Tor will carry me through man , thanks. Jim