Alpha Omega
Trash Boat Lyrics

Fuck it, here we go again
Regardless of the circumstances, I am ready to face the same problems once more.

Problems no one can explain
I am dealing with issues that are difficult for anyone to understand or comprehend.

A new day but nothing's changed
Even though a new day has begun, nothing in my life has improved or transformed.

I need something for the pain
I require something to alleviate the emotional or physical pain that I am experiencing.

Doctor, please, I need a friend
I am so desperate for support that I am reaching out to a doctor, hoping they can provide companionship.

Shut up, take your medicine
Stop complaining and simply consume your prescribed medication.

Oxy makes me itch
Taking oxycodone causes uncomfortable itching as a side effect.

Can't complain when it feels like this
Despite the negative effects, it is difficult to express dissatisfaction when it provides some relief or distraction.

You can take it or leave
You have the choice to either accept or reject this recurring cycle of events.

Alpha, Omega, the cycle repeats
The pattern of events, symbolized by the beginning and end, continues to repeat itself.

I got time, or does it have me?
I am uncertain whether I control my own time or if it controls me instead.

Idiot, you fucking idiot
I am criticizing and belittling myself for my foolish actions or decisions.

Out of options, nothing left
I have exhausted all possibilities and am left with no viable alternatives.

Open up that shit again
I am reopening and exposing myself to the same challenges or difficulties.

Whole life in disarray
My entire existence is chaotic and in a state of confusion or disorder.

My 20's pissed away
I feel like I wasted my twenties without achieving significant progress or fulfillment.

Re-evaluate my life
I need to reconsider and examine my life choices and decisions.

Follow, fuck, have a vice
I find myself engaging in destructive or addictive behaviors to cope or distract myself.

God, that must be nice
I envy those who seem to have a carefree and enjoyable life.

I just roll the dice
I take chances or risks without knowing the potential outcomes.

This is not okay, so go ahead and tell me another lie
I am aware that the current situation is not acceptable, so feel free to deceive me with more falsehoods.

Goes around, comes around just to fuck me over one more time
The consequences of my actions or the circumstances I find myself in always come back to harm me once again.

So what depends? If I left, it'd be a meaningless death
I contemplate the consequences and significance of my existence, questioning whether my departure from this world would be insignificant or purposeless.

Bullet carve a hole in my head and shit as real as it gets
A symbolic bullet penetrating my skull represents the harsh reality of life and its brutal nature.

(Shut down) Hallucinating, so sedated, I'm gonna
I am experiencing hallucinations and feeling heavily tranquilized, leading me to believe that I will...

(Drop down) Trying to fight, I really do not give up
Although struggling, I refuse to surrender and continue to battle against my hardships.

(Not now) Ready for hell, call for the reaper, tell him
I am prepared for a difficult or painful experience and metaphorically beckoning death itself to...

(Come down) All of my meetings be with my demons at the
I find myself constantly facing and interacting with my inner demons during my moments of despair.

(Front now) Alpha, Omega, I'm on the front line
Taking a prominent position, I am bravely confronting the challenges and adversities in my life.

I got the pills in my system that help me unwind
To ease my stress and tension, I rely on medication that relaxes me.

Drama, passion, lil' baby, you know I'm not fine
Despite the outward appearance of being fine, I am actually overwhelmed by intense emotions and personal problems.

Lifestyle Alpha Omega, baby, we don't die
Embracing a lifestyle where there are both highs and lows, we refuse to succumb to defeat or despair.

Now watch me resurrect, ah
Observe as I metaphorically rise again or find strength after experiencing difficulties.

Yeah, if I resurrect, ah
Indeed, in the event that I manage to regain strength or overcome my challenges...

What would you do? What would you do? (Oh)
I pose the question of how others would respond or react to my revival or recovery.

You're a fucking muppet, mate
I insultingly refer to someone as a foolish or gullible person, my friend.