The band was formed in 1995 and all the songs on the debut album, Her handwriting (the title is a quote from Part company by The Go-Betweens) were recorded in Mitcham, south London, in December '95/ January '96, with long-time The Field Mice/Northern Picture Library producer Ian Catt, also known for his work as producer/arranger/co-songwriter for Saint Etienne. Released on Shinkansen Records (the label launched by Matt from Sarah Records) the album, which intimately details the break-up of a relationship, received universally good reviews.
Subsequent albums, Lips that taste of tears (1998) and Broken by whispers (2000), showed a band constantly improving their skills, combining their usual melancholy with transparent pop.
In 2001 the fourth album Alive to every smile appeared featuring a new line-up with many ex-Sarah Records band members in its ranks: Keris Howard from Brighter/Harper Lee, Beth Arzy from Aberdeen and Harvey Williams from Another Sunny Day/The Field Mice. Annemari Davies (ex-The Field Mice) also collaborated with the band. The album was very well received in Spain due to a release on Elefant Records (eventually TBS' main label) and in February 2002 the band visited Spain for the first time.
In 2003 A certain evening light was released, a compilation of singles and B-sides.
In 2004 the band left Shinkansen; The seven autumn flowers was released by Elefant Records worldwide.
In September 2005 Bobby Wratten announced that the band would no longer appear live. He had been uneasy about performing for some time, and had decided to concentrate on studio recordings instead. April 2007 saw the release of The Last Holy Writer.
2010 is expected to see the release of their new album, titled "Fast Trains And Telegraph Wires".
Deserve
Trembling Blue Stars Lyrics
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I've been so dumb, I have been so dumb
How I must have hurt you
How you must have felt so alone
Everything's clear again
I'm not in love, I am not in love
I only want to be held by one pair of arms
What I make her into, it has so little to do with her
You're everything I've ever thought you were
And I don't deserve you
Today made her real again
And I'm not proud, I am not proud
Proud of what's now ended
The feelings I have messed with
Everything's clear again
I got so lost, this time I really lost my way
I'd think of you today
And feel my heart slowly break
The opening lines to Trembling Blue Stars' song "Deserve" sets the tone for the rest of the song: a reflection on a past relationship and the regret and guilt that comes with it. The singer in the song realizes that he has been foolish and hurt his former partner, making her feel neglected and alone. He also understands that he was misguided in his pursuit of love, focusing more on the idea of love rather than the person he was with. This realization comes to him on the day when he sees his ex-partner with someone new, making her "real again" and bringing up emotions that he had been suppressing.
As the song continues, the singer acknowledges that he doesn't deserve the love and attention of his former partner, and that she deserves better. He describes how he was not proud of how he treated her and how he "messed with" her feelings. He feels lost and unsure about his own emotions, realizing that he was looking for comfort and affection in the wrong person. The final lines of the song express the heartbreak and sorrow the singer feels when thinking about his former partner and the relationship that he lost.
Overall, "Deserve" is a poignant and emotive song that explores themes of regret, guilt, and lost love. Through the lyrics, the songwriter expresses the complicated emotions that come with the end of a relationship and the pain of realizing that someone you once loved has moved on.
Line by Line Meaning
Today made her real again
Today, I was reminded of her existence and presence in my life.
I've been so dumb, I have been so dumb
I have made mistakes and have not acted intelligently or thoughtfully.
How I must have hurt you
I now realize that my actions may have caused pain for you.
How you must have felt so alone
I understand that you may have felt isolated or neglected due to my actions.
Everything's clear again
I have gained clarity and understanding after reflecting on my mistakes.
I'm not in love, I am not in love
I do not have romantic feelings toward the person I mention.
I only want to be held by one pair of arms
I desire physical comfort and support from someone specific.
What I make her into, it has so little to do with her
I have created an image or perception of her that is not entirely accurate.
But as for you, as for you
In contrast to the person I previously mentioned,
You're everything I've ever thought you were
You are exactly as I have imagined or perceived you to be.
And I don't deserve you
I recognize that I have not treated you well and do not deserve your love or respect.
And I'm not proud, I am not proud
I feel ashamed and regretful about my past behavior.
Proud of what's now ended
I do not feel a sense of accomplishment or pride in regards to the situation I caused.
The feelings I have messed with
I have manipulated and played with emotions that I should not have toyed with.
I got so lost, this time I really lost my way
I became very confused and uncertain, more than ever before.
I'd think of you today
You were on my mind earlier today.
And feel my heart slowly break
My heart aches with sadness and regret when I think of my mistakes that have hurt you.
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