Coward
Troy Lyrics

I suppose i should let you go,
I feel like I should end this relationship because I'm afraid of getting hurt.

Fear is all i've ever known
I have been living in a constant state of fear for as long as I can remember.

A fever of a hidden man.
I am fighting an internal battle within myself that no one else knows about.

Can you tell i'm a hurting man?
Can you see that I am in pain?

Can't you see I wanna be your man?
I really want to be with you, but I am afraid to take the risk.

This is all unfair.
I don't think it's fair that I have to deal with these emotions.

Oh, this is my call,
This is my moment.

I know that you know,
I am aware that you understand my feelings.

Because you've seen my soul.
You have seen the deepest parts of me that I hide from the world.

I was a lonely one,
I have always felt alone.

the shadows
I have been living in the shadows for too long.

So, I put it all in this song,
I am expressing myself through this song.

So you'll know once and for all,
I want you to understand how I feel once and for all.

I was never home
I never felt like I belonged anywhere before I met you.

Before you
Until I met you.

Courage, I need it,
I need to be brave.

And guilt, I feel it,
I am weighed down by guilt.

With my hands
I am ready to take action.

And heart
And with all of my emotions.

I'm not a coward, but I did not fight.
I am not a coward, but I have not been fighting my battles.

I've been in the shadows all my god damn life.
I have been living in the shadows and hiding from the world for too long.

Time to hear my call.
It's time for me to be heard.

Do you really know me?
Do you truly understand me?

Now it's time for me to shed some light.
It's time for me to open up and be honest.

Out of the shadows, I'll fight this fight.
I am stepping out of the shadows and ready to fight.

I can no longer live a lie.
I cannot continue living a lie.

How could i fight for you?
How could I fight for you when I am struggling with my own issues?

My own flesh and blood is tied up, too.
My family is dealing with their own problems as well.

But I'll keep holding on.
But I will still be there for you.

It's too familiar.
I am used to feeling this way.

So, take from me what you will.
Do whatever you need to do for yourself.

You're the one that I lean on,
I depend on you.

And i'm leaning still.
And I will continue to depend on you.

Though I'd never call me brave,
I wouldn't call myself brave.

I'll never run away from you.
But I won't ever leave you.

I've been late to the fight,
I have been behind in dealing with my problems.

But darling not tonight.
But not tonight.

I'll come running for you.
I will be there for you whenever you need me.

This world seems to offer me nothing
The world feels empty and meaningless to me.

Suppose I should fade away
Perhaps I should just disappear.

But you know I'm not running
But you know that's not my intention.

Running away
To run away from my problems.

Can you hear my call, its so loud
Can you hear me?

Call me coward if you like I'm not proud
You can call me a coward if you want, I am not proud of myself either.

Can you feel my heart, its so cold
Can you sense my pain?

Call me coward if you like, I won't fold...
You can call me whatever you want, but it won't break me.