St. John
Tuxedomoon Lyrics


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I live yet do not live
I wait as life goes by
This life I live alone I view
As robbery of life
And so it is a constant death
With no way out at all
God hear me what I say is true
I do not want this life
I am so removed from you I say
What kind of life can I have
I pity me yet my fate is clear
I will keep up this lie
The fish taken from out the sea
Is not without reprieve
Its dying is a brief affair
And then it it brings relief
Yet what convulsive death
Can be as bad as my own life
I live yet do not live at all
I die yet do not die at all
The more I live the more I die
The more I live the more I die




I live yet do not die at all
I die yet do not live at all

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Tuxedomoon's song St. John convey a sense of existential despair and a feeling of being trapped in an unfulfilling life. The singer expresses a deep sense of detachment from the world and a longing for something more than what is offered by their current existence. They view their life as a "constant death" and a "robbery of life," suggesting that they feel like they are merely going through the motions without truly experiencing anything significant.


The singer's sense of detachment is further emphasized by the repeated lines "I live yet do not live" and "I die yet do not die." These lines suggest a feeling of being caught between life and death, where the singer is neither fully alive nor completely dead. This may symbolize a sense of being stuck in a limbo-like existence, unable to find any real meaning or purpose in life.


Overall, the lyrics to St. John convey a deep sense of existential angst and a feeling of being trapped in a meaningless existence. The singer longs for something more, but seems to be unable to escape the cycle of life and death that they find themselves in.


Line by Line Meaning

I live yet do not live
My existence is only physical, lacking any sense of purpose or fulfillment.


I wait as life goes by
I am stagnant, uninvolved in my own life.


This life I live alone I view
I am isolated, detached from the world around me.


As robbery of life
My existence feels like a theft of true living.


And so it is a constant death
My life is equivalent to death, devoid of vitality or joy.


With no way out at all
I feel trapped, without any hope of escape.


God hear me what I say is true
I am seeking some form of divine intervention or recognition.


I do not want this life
I reject the existence that has been given to me.


I am so removed from you I say
I am distant from myself, disconnected from my own desires and feelings.


What kind of life can I have
I question the value or purpose of my existence.


I pity me yet my fate is clear
I feel sorry for myself, but I know my eventual outcome.


I will keep up this lie
I will continue to live a false, unfulfilling life.


The fish taken from out the sea
Even though I am alive, I feel a kinship with something that is dying.


Is not with reprieve
Its death is inevitable, and it does not receive mercy from its captors.


Its dying is a brief affair
The fish's suffering is short-lived.


And then it brings relief
Death provides the fish with an end to its pain and struggle.


Yet what convulsive death
I am questioning whether the fish's death is worse than my own circumstances.


Can be as bad as my own life
I am suffering greatly, with no end in sight.


I live yet do not live at all
I am surviving, but I am not truly experiencing my existence.


I die yet do not die at all
I am stagnant, without any real movement or progress in my life.


The more I live the more I die
The longer I exist, the more I feel like my life is slipping away.


The more I live the more I die
My continued existence feels like a slow, painful death.


I live yet do not die at all
I am stuck, powerless to change my own circumstances.


I die yet do not live at all
I am not truly alive, just managing to suffer through each day.




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Written by: JEFFREY PIERCE

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