The Initial High
Twisted Insane Lyrics

Felt like I was dreamin'
It seemed unbelievable to the singer that he finally had a roof over his head and was not homeless.

Finally I had a roof and that was proof that I could do it like a He-Man
Having a roof over his head was a validation that the singer was capable of achieving what seemed like an impossible feat, as He-Man is a fictional, superhero character with extraordinary abilities.

If I can make it, I'ma tell you anyone can make it
The singer believes that if he overcame his struggles, then anyone who is facing similar challenges can also succeed.

I was naked wit' no money lookin' bummy, barely breathin'
The artist was destitute and in a bad shape, with no clothes or money, and struggling to survive.

Wake up in the alley or the playground slide
The artist had nowhere to sleep and would often find himself waking up in an alley or on a playground slide.

Broken shoes up on my feet and I don't got no ride
The singer's shoes were in disrepair and he didn't have a way to get around, highlighting how difficult life was at that point.

Not a penny and my stomach is talkin' and tellin' me to hurry up and get to eatin'
The singer was hungry and broke, and his stomach was growling with hunger.

Nigga you will die
The artist was in a dire situation and felt that he may not survive much longer.

No weed scrapin' pipes and scrap like I was Tyson
The artist was so destitute that he had to scrape the resin from his weed pipes just to get high, like how Tyson had to struggle to get where he is.

Fucka what you think, I spent my whole life fightin'
The artist had to fight for everything he has and doesn't care what others think of him.

Steaming up inside I'd rather hurry up and ride and put a whistle in his eye
The singer is filled with anger and frustration and would rather resort to violence than be patient.

Battle axe him like a viking
The artist is willing to fight like a savage Viking to attain success.

The last of my kind
The singer feels like he is one of the few, if not the only one, with his background and experience in the field of music.

I will not be here forever all I hope is that my music passes through time
The singer is aware of his mortality and hopes that his music will be remembered after he is gone.

The dark side is in me
The singer has a negative, violent side to him that he struggles with.

I'm a demon maybe that's the reason that I always have these passions of crime
The artist feels an affinity for criminal activities and believes he may be possessed by a demon that fuels his negative behavior.

Puttin' a message in my rhyme never let nobody tell you that you shit
The artist wants to inspire others to believe in themselves and not let anyone tell them that they are worthless.

Fuck 'em and you tell 'em that I said it
The singer is unafraid to speak his truth and doesn't care about the backlash he may face for expressing himself.

Every time I go and do a show they on my mothafuckin' dick
The singer has gained popularity as an artist and people are showing him a lot of attention.

Bitches used to tell me that I was pathetic
Women used to insult and demean the artist.

That's some funny shit ain't it?
The artist finds it ironic and amusing that his former detractors are now fans.

Even saw 'em faint and plus I'm signin' bitches titties, what you trippin' off a me?
The artist has become such a big deal that fans are fainting and he is even autographing their bodies.

Even tho' I look up in the mirror and I see the same nigga who was broke and dirty sleepin' in the street
Despite his newfound success, the singer still sees himself as the same person he was when he was struggling.

Different shoes up on my feet nigga, nobody'll know
The artist's financial struggles are hidden to the world now that he has shoes that aren't in disrepair.

The process servers lookin' for me at my show
The singer has legal troubles that he is trying to avoid while performing.

I might get murdered every time I hit the door
The singer feels like he is in danger and could be killed at any time.

I go hamburger wit' my dick up in these hoes
The singer is promiscuous and sleeps around.

My life's been fucked everybody think it's cool, but mothafuckas'll never understand how I grew up
Despite his success, the artist's life has been tumultuous and people don't comprehend how difficult his upbringing was.

What I went through
The artist is referring to the traumatic experiences he endured in his past.

I done witnessed all the type of shit that make a normal nigga just spew guts
The singer has witnessed incredibly gruesome and disturbing scenes that would make the average person sick to their stomach.

Fucked in the winter, always stuck with no dinner
The singer had hardships that were especially difficult during the winter months, and went hungry on a regular basis.

I really never knew when the demon did enter
The artist doesn't know when his negative tendencies first took hold of him.

It must have been the way that I was treated
The artist believes that his tough upbringing and lack of support contributed to his current state of mind.

Tied up and beaten, threw up in the closet with splinters
The artist was violently abused, resulting in him being tied up and beaten and even throwing up in a closet with splinters.

I give the type of pain I was given as a kid
The singer is able to use the pain he experienced as a child to create impactful music.

I'm the one that got to sleep at night just knowin' what I did
The artist can take pride in knowing that he has overcome his struggles and succeeded despite the odds.

All I saw was gunfire, niggas gettin' hit
The singer witnessed a lot of violence and death where he grew up.

Bodies droppin' no-one stoppin' even though it's little kids
The singer saw horrible things happening, including children being killed, and no one did anything to stop it.

This the type ah shit I lived through
The singer is referring to the horrific events he witnessed growing up.

My parents never gave a shit, always actin' like I was a bother
The artist's parents were neglectful and treated him like a nuisance.

So a nigga looked to the heat
The artist turned to a life of crime because his home life was so difficult.

Jumped in with 2 feet, fuck it now the streets is my father
The singer fully embraced a life of crime and the streets became his guiding force.

No record label wanted to sign this nigga, said fuck everybody I'ma do it for myself
Despite facing rejection from record labels, the singer was determined to make a name for himself and did so without their support.

Put my shit up on the shelf and I did it with no help
The artist succeeded on his own, without the assistance of others.

Now the whole world sayin' where they find this nigga
The artist has become incredibly popular and influential in the music industry.

Sleepin' in the dirt I remind these niggas
The artist hasn't forgotten his difficult upbringing and the struggles he had to overcome.

I been doin' this shit so long with no days off
The singer has been working tirelessly to achieve success in his music career.

After fifteen mothafuckin' years, I can finally say this shit here starting to pay off
The artist has been putting in the work for a long time and is finally seeing the fruits of his labor.

A spider in the night, a once in a lifetime human being what you need a reason from me?
The singer is a rare talent and doesn't need to explain himself or justify his actions.

Reason to breathe?
The singer is asking if anyone needs a reason to continue living or breathing.

Take a look into the eyes of death and homie you will only see The Last Demon!
The singer has had near-death experiences and his dark past has shaped him into a person with a demonic persona.