The Truth
U-Manoyed Lyrics

Now the truth
I am going to be honest and reveal my true feelings

I don't know what I'ma fucking do
I am lost and confused, unsure of what to do next

Deja Vu
I am experiencing a sense of repetition and familiarity

Who am I ain't got no fucking clue
I am unsure of my identity and who I really am

Noticed that I got no mood
I am feeling emotionally empty and unmotivated

I don't know what's my attitude
I am uncertain of my demeanor and how I am perceived by others

Dude
Addressing the listener in a casual and informal way

Sometimes I really wish I would hang on the rood
At times, I feel like giving up and succumbing to my struggles

Jesus Christ I don't know what I want
I am struggling with indecision and a lack of direction

I sacrificed my time
I have given up parts of my life for a cause or person

I don't wanna Vaunt
I do not want to be boastful or show off my accomplishments

But I wanna run
I have a desire to escape my current situation

(run run)
Repeating the phrase 'run' to emphasize the desire to leave

Far away
I want to go to a distant location

Leave the place I know
I want to leave the familiar and venture into the unknown

And what I want is short
My desires are simple and do not require much

You don't gonna miss me
I do not believe that anyone will miss me when I am gone

I don't wanna feel it
I do not want to experience the emotional pain of leaving

I'ma gonna run run
Repeating the phrase 'run' to emphasize the determination to leave

Yeah real fast
I want to leave quickly and without hesitation

Yeah I wanna trigger the gun gun
I want to cause a dramatic exit, possibly metaphorical with the phrase 'trigger the gun'

I'm a mess
I am emotionally unstable and struggling with my mental state

Yeah I don't wanna fuck up, fuck up
I do not want to make any mistakes or cause harm

Yeah please shut up, shut up
I want others to stop talking and leave me to my thoughts

I don't wanna struck up, struck up
I do not want to start a conflict or argument with others

Again with you
I have dealt with this issue before with someone else

But I kinda miss you
Despite the issues, I still have some feelings of affection towards the person

Yeah it's true
Confirming the previous statement

But I know I don't wanna do this too
I understand that moving on from this relationship is best for me

Bitch I know what you do so fuck you
Expressing anger and frustration towards someone who has hurt me

(Yeah yeah, that's why I wanna run away, run away)
Explaining the motivation behind wanting to escape the situation

Yeah yeah it's not over yet
There are still unresolved issues and challenges to face

I didn't want to talk about my ex
I did not plan on bringing up past relationships

But I guess
I cannot help but mention it

Now it's out so fuck that (fuck that)
Acknowledging the past and moving on from it with a negative attitude

Damn I got no feelings
I feel emotionally numb and indifferent

But I'm laughing all the time
Despite the lack of emotions, I am still able to find amusement and humor in life

And when I'm alone I feel like Ima cry
Expressing vulnerability and emotions that are felt in private

Don't know why
I am unsure of the cause behind my emotions

But I know I don't even need to hide
I am comfortable with expressing my emotions and do not feel the need to conceal them

Cause it's coming out so fast and it can be gone even more again
My emotions are intense and fleeting, and I do not know how long they will last

Yeah I can hide in the dark
Metaphorically retreating to a hiding place when feeling vulnerable or exposed

Without even having fears
Feeling a sense of safety even while hiding

Go catch me
Challenging someone to try and catch me while hiding

Yeah guess what
Indicating a sarcastic or confrontational tone

You can't
Asserting that others are not able to catch me while hiding

Because of my reflex ark
Implying that my body's automatic reflexes would protect me if someone tried to catch me

Yeah I try to be perfect
I strive for perfection and excellence in my life

So I'ma never drop a tear again
I am determined to never show vulnerability or cry in front of others again

But for real
Emphasizing the authenticity and sincerity of the following statements

You don't wanna know
Warning others that the truth of my emotions may be too much for them to handle

With what I have to deal
Alluding to personal struggles and battles that I face alone

Yeah for real
Reiterating the authenticity and depth of my struggles

You don't wanna know how I fucking feel
Expressing the intense and volatile nature of my emotions

To never know what's up with you
Feeling confused and uncertain about someone else's emotions and intentions

And what you want for real
Questioning the authenticity and transparency of someone else's desires and feelings

Far away
Repeating the desire to escape and leave the current situation

Leave the place I know
Expressing the desire for new experiences and a change of environment

And what I want is short
Simplifying my desires to a basic need for change and escape