ABOUT THE BAND:
Urbandub is Gabby Alipe (Vocalist / Guitarist), Lalay Lim (Bassist), John Mendoza (Drummer) and John Dinopol (Lead Guitarist). Urbandub's career thus far has given much inspiration and support to upcoming acts, most of which fall under the Lighter Records stable such as Faspitch, The Ambassadors, Still, Nuncyspungen (Cagayan) and Point Click Kill (Ilo Ilo). Each of them now aspire to take their own roads in music, paving their own way and modeling some of their steps after the success of Urbandub.
From the very first day that this band was formed (in the year 2000), they were destined to be something more than the ordinary. Forced to be independent due to the lack of support coming from major record companies, Urbandub released their debut album called BIRTH. Off of this album, the hit tracks “Come”, “Give” and “Would You Go” launched and took their world by storm. Unique, timely and yet experimental, it was something that entertainment scenes around the Philippines needed: a kick-start into the future of original music.
With the release of their sophomore effort, INFLUENCE (Lighter Records), Urbandub took on a new form, changing their sound with a new drummer (From Jed Honrado to Jerros Dolino). It was the sound in this album that clearly defined the steps that Urbandub would start to take. The track “Soul Searching” later won the award as Best Song of the Year in the NU107 Rock Awards 2003. Pushing the sound further, the collection bagged the Album Of The Year Award in the NU107 Rock Awards 2004.
Urbandub released their album EMBRACE in 2005, and with it, it proved that there is hope for struggling artists. With help from their community and the noise they created, they were able to grab the attention of EMI Music Philippines. Since then the band has kept Lighter Records as their management arm and guide. In line with their ideals, EMI allowed the members the creative freedom to record their album on their home soil of Cebu. They have also been able to maintain their independent principles while taking major steps into the scene that has awaited their new sound.
After more than 10,000 albums sold, thousands of miles traveled around the country and some dizzying highs and lows, an energized Urbandub returned with UNDER SOUTHERN LIGHTS in 2007. This latest album boasts 10 tracks of Urbandub’s new approach to their own brand—their brilliance shines throughout a melodious rock tune and diverse songwriting.
Inside the Mind of a Killer
URBANDUB Lyrics
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So what am I to do
When you find out the alcohol can't
Numb the pain like it used to?
I replay the scenes of endless dreams
That once was yours and mine
When'd you find out
When'd you find out
My heart can't take it
Cuz you keep breaking it
I let my guard down for you
Just give me one more try
Give me one more try
Give me one more chance to make things right
How can I beg
And convince your love to stay with me
I'm at a loss when
All you wanna say is goodbye
I should've known better
You don't have to try anymore
I'll find better comfort in the arms of another
My heart can't take it
Cuz you keep on breaking
How could you do the things you do?
I'm so sorry for the mistakes that I've made
I've only changed for the better
How could you do the things you do?
I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Yes I've hurt you
'You've made this heart break
So say it if you mean it
If you don't, don't say it
If you don't, say nothing at all
Made this heart break
So say it if you mean it
If you don't, don't say it
I let my guards down for you
The lyrics of "Inside the Mind of a Killer" by URBANDUB explore the aftermath of a heartbreak that has left the singer struggling with alcohol to numb the pain. The song starts with the singer acknowledging that they cannot handle the heartbreak and the pain that comes with it anymore. They struggle to come to terms with the fact that the alcohol that once helped subside the pain no longer works. They play the scenes of the past relationship over and over in their mind, trying to understand where it all went wrong and where they failed. The singer is devastated to find out that their ex-partner does not love them anymore, and they are unable to cope with it.
The chorus of the song expresses the singer's desperation to make things right and begs for one more chance to fix the broken relationship. They try to convince their ex-partner to stay and give their love another chance. However, they are met with a heartbreaking reality that their ex-partner has already moved on, and they must do the same. The singer apologizes for the mistakes they have made and the pain they have caused and acknowledges that they have changed for the better. They are left with a broken heart and find comfort in the arms of another.
Overall, "Inside the Mind of a Killer" is a powerful and emotional song that delves into the complex feelings of heartbreak and the pain that comes with it. It shows the vulnerability of individuals after a breakup and the struggle to come to terms with their loss.
Line by Line Meaning
My mind can't take it
My thoughts can no longer withstand the situation.
So what am I to do
What should I do in this situation?
When you find out the alcohol can't
Numb the pain like it used to?
Have you realized that drinking alcohol no longer makes the pain go away like it did before?
I replay the scenes of endless dreams
That once was yours and mine
I often play back the memory of our past, which used to be ours.
When'd you find out
When'd you find out
You didn't love me anymore?
When did you realize that you no longer loved me?
My heart can't take it
Cuz you keep breaking it
My heart can no longer handle the pain because it keeps breaking due to your actions.
I let my guard down for you
Just give me one more try
Give me one more try
Give me one more chance to make things right
I lowered my defenses for you and I am asking you for another chance to make things better.
How can I beg
And convince your love to stay with me
I'm at a loss when
All you wanna say is goodbye
How can I plead with you to stay in love with me when you only want to say goodbye?
I should've known better
You don't have to try anymore
I'll find better comfort in the arms of another
I realize that I should have known better, and you no longer need to try. I will find comfort in the arms of someone else, who treats me better.
How could you do the things you do?
I am bewildered and shocked at your actions.
I'm so sorry for the mistakes that I've made
I've only changed for the better
I apologize for my past mistakes, and I have learned from them to become a better person now.
I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Yes I've hurt you
I apologize for causing you pain, acknowledging that I did hurt you.
'You've made this heart break
So say it if you mean it
If you don't, don't say it
If you don't, say nothing at all
You caused me intense emotional pain, so if you truly mean what you're saying, go ahead and say it. If you do not, then do not speak at all.
Made this heart break
So say it if you mean it
If you don't, don't say it
You broke my heart, so if you genuinely mean what you are saying, speak your truth. But if you don't mean it, don't bother saying anything at all.
I let my guards down for you
I allowed myself to be vulnerable with you.
Contributed by Grace A. Suggest a correction in the comments below.