In My Heart
V.A - Café del Mar Lyrics

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I got this pain in my heart
Been with a jitt From the start
I was so trapped in the dark
For the betrayal's and scars
I got this pain in my heart
Like slave men my back is just scarred
I done came outta dark
Still got some pain in my heart

Smoking drinking really got me faded
I been really grinding onna daily
Up 3 days my mental really fading
Think to much my mental really racing
I been gone I'm moving way too crazy
I be on my shii no moving lazy
You know that I got it moving crazy
Let's just go back to the start
I was trapped in dark
Wit some pain in my heart
I was feeling my scars
And depression my thoughts
When my niggas had left me
I was still thanking GOD
Don't feel the love cuz that shit is Façade
War wit myself how I'm feeling inside
Stay to myself I just like my own vibe
Lost in clouds cuz it's free in my mind
No one had noticed I was loosing my mind
Momma was working all the Goddamn time
I remember when I tried to take my life
Everybody looked at Nigga like why
If you look close see the pain in my eyes
Some of my niggas done moved to grave sites
Still tryna figure the point of this life
Hope that my moving direction is right
Smoking these blunts got me chocking alright
Kept my head up just been moving thru tides
Showing a smile feeling hopeless inside
I just be feeling like nothing is right
Can't sleep at night Cuz I sit up and cry
Shit ain't the same since my niggas had died
The way I been feeling my soul
Should just fly
I got this pain in my heart
Been with a jitt From the start
I was so trapped in the dark
For the betrayal's and scars
I got this pain in my heart
Like slave men my back is just scarred
I done came outta dark
Still got some pain in my heart
Smoking drinking really got me faded
I been really grinding onna daily
Up 3 days my mental really fading
Think to much my mental really racing
I been gone I'm moving way too crazy
I be on my shii no moving lazy
You know that I got it moving crazy
So i stay to myself I don't need no help
I been on my own just surrounding myself
Since everyone left I went and prevailed
I know that I'm winning but I feel like hell
Daddy had met me when I was like 12
And he still didn't stay
What the fuck what the hell
I just be feeling like nothing is real
Momma say love you I tell her be real
I just don't know how to cope how to feel
Living my life knowing wicked is real
People gone come and go Nigga just chill
It just hit harder cuz you kept it real
Bad at explaining the way that I feel
sitting in therapy got me real ill
Picking my brain and my thoughts till they spill
Think to myself do they care how I feel
Spaz at the world cuz I know they ain't real
Pushing my buttons a nigga just chill
Genuine love what i want how I feel
Women will switch and these niggas ain't real
Circle so small you can call it pill
RIP Fredo he popped all then pills
Shit is so sad GOD you taking the real
I got this pain in my heart
Been with a jitt From the start
I was so trapped in the dark
For the betrayal's and scars
I got this pain in my heart
Like slave men my back is just scarred
I done came outta dark
Still got some pain in my heart
Smoking drinking really got me faded
I been really grinding onna daily
Up 3 days my mental really fading
Think to much my mental really racing
I been gone I'm moving way too crazy

I be on my shii no moving lazy
You know that I got it moving crazy

Overall Meaning

The lyrics of V.A - Café del Mar’s song In My Heart delve deep into the artist’s troubled past and his struggles with mental health. The opening line, “I got this pain in my heart”, speaks volumes of the emotional turmoil that the artist has had to endure. His lyrics about being trapped in the dark, and the scars both physical and mental, reveal the hurt and the pain that he has suffered throughout his life. His inner turmoil is apparent in lines such as “Think too much, my mental really racing”, “Can't sleep at night Cuz I sit up and cry” and “I just be feeling like nothing is right.”

Furthermore, the artist talks about losing his friends, and how difficult it was for him to cope with their death. The line, “Some of my niggas done moved to grave sites; Still tryna figure the point of this life,” underscores the overwhelming stress and emotional burden that he has carried around with him. In the end, the artist finds solace in his own company and decides to stay alone. The lyrics of this song carry a powerful message - that mental health is essential, and it is essential to confront one’s demons head-on and conquer them.

Line by Line Meaning

I got this pain in my heart
I am suffering and hurting emotionally.

Been with a jitt From the start
I have been struggling with this pain for a long time.

I was so trapped in the dark
I was in a dark and difficult place emotionally, feeling lost and alone.

For the betrayal's and scars
My pain stems from being betrayed and hurt by others, and also from my own mistakes and regrets.

Like slave men my back is just scarred
I feel like I have been beaten down and abused, like a slave, and I have physical and emotional scars to show for it.

I done came outta dark
I have come out of that dark place emotionally to some extent, but I still have pain in my heart.

Still got some pain in my heart
I am still carrying emotional pain with me every day, even though I have made progress.

Smoking drinking really got me faded
I am using drugs and alcohol to try to escape my pain, but it is not really helping.

I been really grinding onna daily
I have been working hard every day to try to improve my life and my emotional state.

Up 3 days my mental really fading
I have been pushing myself too hard and am struggling to stay mentally healthy because of it.

Think to much my mental really racing
My thoughts are racing and I am overthinking things, which is contributing to my emotional pain.

I been gone I'm moving way too crazy
I have been acting impulsively and erratically, which is not helping my emotional state.

I be on my shii no moving lazy
I am not being lazy, but I am also not making much progress in my emotional healing.

You know that I got it moving crazy
I am aware that I am acting impulsively and not always in a healthy way.

So i stay to myself I don't need no help
I have been isolating myself emotionally and do not feel like I need or want help from others.

I been on my own just surrounding myself
I have been trying to heal myself on my own, without outside help.

Since everyone left I went and prevailed
Since I have been abandoned by others, I have been working hard to succeed and make progress on my own.

I know that I'm winning but I feel like hell
I am making progress emotionally, but I still feel miserable and unhappy most of the time.

Daddy had met me when I was like 12
My father was not present in my life until I was 12 years old.

And he still didn't stay
Despite finally being in my life, my father still left and was not a reliable presence.

What the fuck what the hell
I am angry and frustrated by my father's absence and lack of support.

Living my life knowing wicked is real
I am aware that there is evil and negativity in the world, which is contributing to my emotional pain.

People gone come and go Nigga just chill
People will come and go from my life, and I need to accept that and learn to cope with it.

Genuine love what i want how I feel
What I really want and need is genuine love and support from others, but I am struggling to find that.

Women will switch and these niggas ain't real
I have been hurt by people I thought I could trust, and I am struggling to find genuine and loyal relationships.

Shit is so sad GOD you taking the real
I am grieving the loss of people I cared about who have died.

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Written by: D $M00V3

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