1) American industrial… Read Full Bio ↴Vast or VAST is the name of more than one artist:
1) American industrial rock band
2) trance, alias of Bernie Eller
3) Drum n Bass
1) VAST stands for Visual Audio Sensory Theater, and is the brainchild of Los Angeles-based singer-songwriter and musician Jon Crosby.
VAST's sound is identifiable as ambient electro-rock with considerable industrial and acoustic influences, usually made with Crosby's traditional acoustic guitar, electronic instruments and processing, drum-driven tracks, and heavy bass. In recent years, however, VAST's sound has been more identifiable with acoustic rock in releases such as April and Me and You.
The musical outfit began in rather minimalist fashion when Jon was only sixteen, with the other members of the outfit being a drum machine and a bass player.
Their real rise to fame began when a local radio station granted consistent air-time to their demo tape, after which Crosby sent demo tapes to New York City recording companies, eventually signing with Elektra Records. Thomas Froggatt, Steve Clark, and Rowan Robertson made up the hastily-assembled band along with Crosby. After touring America and releasing their first album named simply Visual Audio Sensory Theater (1998), they began work on a second album, entitled Music for People (2000). Before it was finished, Robertson left in pursuit of a solo career. After auditioning, Justin Cotta was chosen to replace him. The new quartet began another US tour. In 2001, Cotta and Clark decided to leave the band to form their own.
VAST's next album, Nude, was preceded by the online release of the unmastered demo tracks, which were grouped into separate downloads known as Turquoise and Crimson . Some of the feedback from the fans regarding the demo tracks was taken into account when choosing the tracks for Nude, which was released on February 24, 2004. Two months after the release, the band began the new tour with a new lineup. Towards the end of 2004 when it became clear working with other labels was a bad idea, Crosby started his own label, 2Blossoms Records & Media, and began selling a double CD of the Turquoise and Crimson download albums from the VAST website, mastered and with new artwork, simply entitled Turquoise & Crimson. Strong online sales indicated that a retail release would be well received, and Turquoise and Crimson was officially released May 30th, 2006.
Crosby's model of selling cheap downloads of demo tracks before the completion of the recording process was repeated with the next album, April, which was available in an 'online version' before the album was finished. The final version included five new tracks and alternate (finished) versions of the tracks carried over from the online version. The release version of April is now available as a download from the VAST site, and they plan to release a limited collectors edition CD over the summer of 2007 before the retail release date is scheduled.
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VAST Lyrics
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It feels like a broken toy
I can't play with
Anymore
Where do I put the hate?
To a pixilated screen
I can't watch anymore
All I know is that
Somewhere in the vast
Somewhere in eternity
And
I never want to leave
Where do I put the books
There's so many I could read
But
They all are filled
With lies
Where do I put the lies
There's so many I could say
But
It seems they're
In the books
I have faith that
You're out there living high
Up in the vast
Somewhere in eternity
And
You're never going to leave
Have I been telling
Lies to myself?
Hold me now you know
I am so afraid
To be at all
Have I been telling
Lies to myself?
Hold my now you know
I am so afraid to love at all
Where do I put the love?
Where do I put the love?
The lyrics of VAST's song "Here" are introspective and searching, reflecting on feelings of shame, hate, and love. The singer is questioning where to put these emotions, as it seems like there isn't anywhere they fit comfortably. The shame feels like a broken toy, something that is no longer useful or enjoyable. The hate is directed at a screen, perhaps representing the endless barrage of negativity and toxicity that is present in our digital world. The singer feels adrift somewhere in eternity, but is afraid to leave or to love.
The lyrics convey a sense of confusion and uncertainty, as the singer grapples with these difficult emotions. The books are filled with lies, suggesting that the singer has been searching for answers in the wrong places. The lies themselves seem to be embedded in the books, implying that deception is somehow inherent in human knowledge and communication. The singer has faith that someone else is out there living high, but this only emphasizes their own sense of isolation and alienation.
The repeated question of where to put the love underscores the central theme of the song: the struggle to find a meaningful place in the world. The singer is afraid to love because it feels like a risk, something that could be taken away or lost. The final lines of the song are open-ended, leaving the question of where to put the love unanswered. This suggests that the search for meaning and purpose is ongoing, and that there may never be a clear resolution.
Line by Line Meaning
Where do I put the shame?
I am feeling ashamed and unsure where to keep it, as it just feels useless and destroyed.
It feels like a broken toy
The shame I feel is like a toy which is of no use to me anymore as it is broken.
I can't play with
I don't have the capability to use it anymore as it's damaged.
Anymore
I don't have the same excitement to use it as I had before.
Where do I put the hate?
I am feeling hateful towards something or someone and don't know where to direct it.
To a pixilated screen
I want to transfer this feeling to an electronic screen that is made up of pixels.
I can't watch anymore
I don't have the patience to see the hatred I am feeling on the screen.
All I know is that
The only thing that I am certain about is that
I'm here drifting
I am aimlessly floating or moving without any purpose.
Somewhere in the vast
I am in some place, unsure of where specifically but it is vast and wide.
Somewhere in eternity
I am in a place that is lasting forever or seems to be, unclear of my current existence.
And
Furthermore,
I never want to leave
I don't like the place where I am but at the same time, I fear leaving it.
Where do I put the books
I am unsure where to keep my books, as they all seem to contain lies.
There's so many I could read
I have a lot of books that I can choose from to read.
But
However,
They all are filled
All the books seem to have only one specific thing in common, which is
With lies
They all contain falsehoods and misdirections.
Where do I put the lies
I have many lies in my conscious and unsure of where they belong.
There's so many I could say
I have a lot of lies that I've told or can still tell.
But
However,
It seems they're
I am beginning to believe that my lies are
In the books
Referring back to the books that also seem to contain lies.
I have faith that
I am hopeful and optimistic that
You're out there living high
Someone out there is living a great life or doing well.
Up in the vast
They are in a place similar to where I am, which is wide and vast.
Somewhere in eternity
They too are in a place that feels everlasting or eternal.
And
Furthermore,
You're never going to leave
The person I have faith in is secure and will not leave their place.
Have I been telling
I am beginning to question if I have been
Lies to myself?
Telling myself falsehoods and living in a delusion.
Hold me now you know
I am looking or appealing for affection and care from someone else.
I am so afraid
I am feeling extremely fearful or scared.
To be at all
I am afraid of engaging or participating in anything at all.
Hold my now you know
I am seeking affection and comfort from someone else, for a second time.
I am so afraid to love at all
I am terrified of engaging in love or giving it a chance.
Where do I put the love?
I am feeling love but unclear of where and how to store it or express it.
Where do I put the love?
I am still unsure and curious of where to deposit my emotion of love.
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Where do I put the shame
It feels like a broken toy
I can’t play with anymore
Where do I put the hate
To a pixilated screen
I can’t watch anymore
All I know is that I’m here
Drifting somewhere in the vast
Somewhere in eternity
And I never want to leave
Where do I put the books
There’s so many I could read
But they all are filled with lies
Where do I put all the lies
There’s so many I could say
But it seems they’re in the books
I have faith that you’re out there
Living high up in the vast
Somewhere in eternity
And you’re never gonna leave
Have I been telling lies to myself
Hold me now you know
I am so afraid to be at all
Have I been telling lies to myself
Hold me now you know
I am so afraid to love at all
I looked up and I saw the moon
Is it the same one that betrayed you
I looked up and I saw my place
I looked in and I felt no hate
Where do I put the love
Where do I put the love
Yeah, where do I put the love
@JohnWilkinsonTesla
This is so powerful. I've been listening for more than 20 years.
@musicandpoetry_8
This band is incredibly underrated, it’s a shame
@HavocEmblem
Best opening song for the best album in existence! Jon truly is a one of a kind.
@davidmariopratt
certainly makes a statement!
@SpiralsAeon
Put on a good show too. Bringing junior high back, sheesh.
@LiberOne
AGREED!
@novalea
Discovered this song in 2022 and I LOVE IT.
@AndromedaFollowsMe
The very first Vast song I heard so many years ago. Hooked ever since.
@sandmanthethird7886
I dont get sick of this! I love that song and my wife too!! Thank you john... the man behind vast!
@phishinround420
Bought their first album, been in love since. Perhaps the second CD I owned (first record).