Discography:
Albums:
Self-titled debut album Vallejo released in 1997
Beautiful Life released in 1998
Into the New, released by Sony in 2000.
Stereo, released 2002 Vallejo Music Group (VMG)
Thicker Than Water, released by VMG in 2008.
Against The Grain
Vallejo Lyrics
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Running through the very paths of my soul
Lord I've tried not to go insane
But the sides keep coming in
It's getting old
Feels like I'm slipping
Dull is my blade
Against the grain
God is my only friend
Wake up in the morning wondering why?
Is it me or the things I say
Running off the precious things in my life?
Why am I here?
I've done nothing
To deserve such a pain
Is it me running of the precious things in my life
Oh Lord, yes I've tried to understand
Tried, tried, tried!
Feels like I'm slipping
Dull is my blade
Feels like I'm cutting
Against the grain
In Vallejo's song "Against the Grain", the lyrics explore feelings of frustration, emotional pain and alienation. The opening lines "Why must you cut the veins? Running through the very paths of my soul" suggests the singer's feelings of vulnerability and anguish. The use of the word "you" is open to interpretation, and it could be viewed as addressing a person, or emotions, or even a higher power. The singer questions why they are experiencing such pain, and wonders whether it is a result of their own actions or things they have said. The repeated phrases "It's getting old" and "Feels like I'm cutting against the grain" further cement these feelings of desperation and hopelessness.
The bridge of the song brings in a spiritual dimension, with the singer stating "God is my only friend" and asking themselves "Why am I here?". The lack of purpose and direction in their life appears to be exacerbating their pain. The verses are sung with a sense of urgency, with the repetition of the word "tried" in the final verse emphasising the singer's desperation to come to terms with their emotions. Overall, the song's lyrics depict a person who is struggling with their mental health, feeling as if they are fighting against themselves and unable to make sense of their emotions.
Line by Line Meaning
Why must you cut the veins?
Why do you have to hurt me so deeply when my very essence is at stake?
Running through the very paths of my soul
These veins are the routes through which my soul flows.
Lord I've tried not to go insane
God, I have struggled to stay sane under this intense pain.
But the sides keep coming in
But the pressure from all sides keeps closing in on me.
It's getting old
This is becoming repetitive and tiresome.
Feels like I'm slipping
I feel like I am losing control and slipping away.
Dull is my blade
My ability to fight back is getting weaker and duller by the day.
Feels like I'm cutting
It feels like I am causing harm and inflicting wounds against my own nature.
Against the grain
Going against my own nature and values.
God is my only friend
In this chaos and pain, God is the only one who understands and stands by me.
Wake up in the morning wondering why?
Every day I question why I have to suffer so much.
Is it me or the things I say
Am I causing my own pain or is it because of something I say or do?
Running off the precious things in my life?
Am I losing the things that truly matter to me because of my pain and suffering?
Why am I here?
What is the purpose of my life if all I have to go through is this constant pain?
I've done nothing
I have not done anything to deserve this intense emotional pain.
To deserve such a pain
No one deserves to suffer so much.
Oh Lord, yes I've tried to understand
I have tried desperately to comprehend why I am going through this pain.
Tried, tried, tried!
I have made repeated and valiant efforts to overcome this pain but have failed.
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Steven Sedillo
against the grain has always been my favorite circle one song it has alot of melody but yet its powerful