Not Tonight
Varner Elle Lyrics

I'm staring at him
I'm looking at him with admiration and love

But I forget to pick my face up off the floor, oh
I'm so captivated by his presence, I can't help but stare with my jaw dropped

We're in a crowd, but it feels like we're alone, oh
Even with other people around, it's like we're the only ones there and I can only focus on him

Oh my god he just looked at me
He caught me staring and now I'm even more nervous

And I just wanna tell him something that he's never heard, oh
I have so much to say, things he's never heard before but I don't know how to start

But my lips won't let me tell him, tell him
I'm struggling to speak and communicate with him

I would say this but
I have something to say but I don't have the courage to say it

Maybe, maybe in another life
Perhaps in a different scenario or lifetime

I could be the girl who walks up to the guy
I could be the confident girl who approaches him instead of being shy

And tells him, tells him how she feels inside
And shares her deepest emotions with him

But, not tonight, no not tonight
But tonight, I'm too nervous and apprehensive to do so

What if he walks towards me
What if he approaches me first

While all the blood is rushing right to my brain
While I'm losing my mind with anxiety and nerves

What am I gonna say, what am I gonna say
What words can I say to express how I feel

I may stop breathing and freeze 'cause
I might become so flustered that I forget how to breathe or move

That's the story of my life
This is a recurring theme in my life where I'm too shy to speak up

Wouldn't it be crazy
Wouldn't it be unbelievable and astounding

If he felt, how I felt, overwhelmed and terrified
If he also felt nervous and apprehensive, just like me

But he took my hand
But he took a chance and reached out to me

And he took his chance, can I have this dance
And he asked me to dance with him

If only we were in a Cinderella story
If only our story was like Cinderella's, where we're swept away by romance

Who would I be
I'm contemplating who I would be if I were more confident

To make my feelings known
To express how I really feel instead of hiding it

I need a little audacity but it's not in my bones
I need some boldness and confidence, but it's something I don't naturally have

I'm standing here, terrified
I'm petrified with fear and anxiety

Brokenhearted, I could die, oh
The thought of not being able to confess my love is breaking my heart and hurting me deeply

I feel like a fool
I feel stupid and embarrassed for not being able to speak up

And even though I do
And even though I feel like a fool

I only wanna tell him that I love him more, more
But all I really want to do is tell him I love him even more

And say hey my name is Elle
I wish I had the confidence to introduce myself to him

And I think you're kinda fly
And let him know that I find him attractive

But not tonight, not tonight, tonight
But, for now, I'm still too shy and scared to do so