growing up is getting old
Victoria Lyrics

Playing Tetris with my feelings
Trying to figure out how to organize all of my emotions and keep them hidden.

Tryna keep them all inside
Attempting to keep my emotions from spilling out and showing others how I truly feel.

Hollow shadows and my soul is spilling over
Feeling empty inside and having trouble keeping my emotions under control.

I'm out of time
Feeling like I don't have enough time to deal with everything I'm going through emotionally.

Closing every door, wanna be alone
Pushing people away and isolating myself to deal with my emotions on my own.

Lonely is a way that I survive
Feeling more comfortable being alone than being around others.

Sick of wanting more, sitting on the floor
Tired of constantly feeling like I need more and feeling defeated, sitting on the floor.

Wondering where all my feelings go
Questioning why it seems like my emotions disappear and I can't feel them anymore.

Nervous system's aching
Feeling physically and mentally overwhelmed by my emotions.

Growing up is getting old
Becoming an adult and dealing with all of life's responsibilities is exhausting.

Anxiety is draining
Feeling anxious takes a toll on my physical and mental well-being.

Getting up is growing old
Simply getting out of bed and getting through the day can be a challenge.

There's an ocean of emotion that I'm carrying inside
Feeling like I have an overwhelming amount of emotions within me that I can't control.

I am cautious
Being careful about showing my emotions to others, as I fear being judged or misunderstood.

'Cause I've never understood how so much can fit in little me
Wondering how I can have so many emotions and manage to keep them all hidden inside.

Star-crossed soul
Feeling like a tragic figure who can't catch a break in life.

And I'm used to letting go
Having a history of feeling like I have to let go of things or people in my life.

Sink deeper in the flow of it
Feeling like I'm sinking deeper into my emotions and can't escape them.

My demons know exactly where my fears
Recognizing that my inner demons know all of my deepest fears and weaknesses.

Are hiding all my tears
Feeling like I need to hide my tears and not show my true emotions to others.

And if I ever take that second to leave my worries behind
Realizing that I need to take time for myself to forget about my worries and relax.

Maybe I could tread the waters of time
If I can let go of my worries, I can live in the moment instead of always worrying about the future or past.

Get out of my mind
Stop obsessing and worrying about everything and just live in the moment.

If your world is breaking
If everything in your life feels like it's falling apart.

Know that you're worth saving
Remember that you're valuable and deserve to take care of yourself.

And getting up is all you've got
Even if you're exhausted and overwhelmed with everything, you need to keep pushing through and taking care of yourself.