Part Of Me
Vonray Lyrics


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Wicked seeds of desperation
Who'd ever dream that this memory would come back
Evil deeds that breed temptation
I close my eyes but I cannot relax

I can´t assume to know his reasons
I can´t attempt to put a name upon his face
Empty eyes I see the demon
If I could I would leave this place

Part of me doesn't even care
Part of me wasn't even there

Another wave to crash around me
A pulling current that could bring me to my knees
Where was I during the beating
Separation of body mind and...

Part of me doesn't even care
Part of me wasn't even there

I can still see his face
The lines upon his face
And if could erase the hate
That breeds this nightmare
And how was I to know
A child of twelve years old
A hollow seed
But I can be
Whatever I
Want to be

Part of me doesn't even care
Part of me wasn't even there




Part of me doesn't even care
Part of me wasn't even there

Overall Meaning

The song "Part of Me" by Vonray explores the lingering trauma of a past event through its haunting lyrics. The wicked seeds of desperation suggest a painful memory that has returned, and the evil deeds that breed temptation reflect the temptation to dwell on that memory. The singer closes his eyes hoping to find some peace, but even in sleep he cannot relax.


The next verse touches on the powerlessness of the singer, who cannot begin to comprehend the reasons behind the event. He cannot even imagine putting a name to the face of the person who is responsible for the trauma. Instead, he only sees empty eyes and a demon. The chorus repeats that part of the singer does not care about the past trauma, while another part of him feels like he was not even present during the event.


The final verse brings the trauma to a concrete and hauntingly vivid image, as the singer sees the face of the perpetrator with disturbing clarity. The lines on his face and the hatred that breeds nightmares remain, even years later. The singer questions how he, as a child of twelve years old, could have known or prevented the traumatic event. He resolves that he can now be whoever he wants to be.


Overall, "Part of Me" is a powerful song that explores the enduring trauma of past events, the powerlessness of the victim, and the struggle to move on.


Line by Line Meaning

Wicked seeds of desperation
The situation is dire and out of control, leading to feelings of hopelessness.


Who'd ever dream that this memory would come back
The memory is traumatic and unexpected, bringing up unsettling emotions.


Evil deeds that breed temptation
The actions taken were morally wrong and lead to further temptation and sin.


I close my eyes but I cannot relax
Despite attempts to calm down or escape, the anxiety and unrest persist.


I can´t assume to know his reasons
The motives of the perpetrator are unknown and cannot be fully understood.


I can´t attempt to put a name upon his face
The perpetrator cannot be identified or labeled, making it difficult to process the experience.


Empty eyes I see the demon
The perpetrator is characterized as a monster, stripping away any humanity.


If I could I would leave this place
The artist feels trapped in their current situation and desires to escape.


Another wave to crash around me
The hardship is ongoing and comes in waves, making it hard to breathe or stay afloat.


A pulling current that could bring me to my knees
The weight of the struggle is overwhelming and threatens to defeat the artist.


Where was I during the beating
The singer feels detached from their own trauma, perhaps dissociating during the event.


Separation of body mind and...
The artist feels disconnected from their own physical and mental selves.


I can still see his face
The memory is vivid and haunting, leaving a lasting impact.


The lines upon his face
The perpetrator's face is etched into the singer's memory, serving as a constant reminder.


And if could erase the hate
The singer recognizes the negative impact of holding onto anger and desires to move on from it.


That breeds this nightmare
The negative emotions associated with the traumatic event continue to perpetuate the artist's mental distress.


And how was I to know
As a child, the artist was not equipped to handle or understand the situation.


A child of twelve years old
The singer was young and vulnerable at the time of the traumatic event.


A hollow seed
The singer feels incomplete or empty after the traumatic event.


But I can be
Despite the hardships, the artist retains agency and control over their own identity and future.


Whatever I
The artist recognizes their freedom to pursue their desires and live their life as they choose.


Want to be
The artist remains hopeful for their future and is determined to move past the trauma.


Part of me doesn't even care
The singer feels apathetic or detached from the traumatic event, perhaps as a coping mechanism.


Part of me wasn't even there
The artist dissociated during the traumatic event and feels detached from their own memory of it.


Part of me doesn't even care
The singer reiterates their emotional detachment from the situation.


Part of me wasn't even there
The singer emphasizes their dissociation and detachment from their own memory of the event.




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