A War Inside
We Came as Romans Lyrics

The devil on my should tells me he's proud of me
My negative voice supports me and tells me it's okay to only care for myself.

That it takes a real man to look out for himself and no one else
It's the sign of true masculinity to attend to oneself and not others.

I don't want to believe that
I do not want to believe the it's right to only think about myself.

But sometimes it's easier to just stay silent
It's hard to speak up because of the fear of reprimand from within or without.

I wish I knew how to speak out
I wish I had the capacity to express myself freely.

I never had a problem with words
I always have had the ability to articulate my thoughts.

But only when talking to someone else
But I only have confidence while discussing with someone else.

There's a wear inside me that's all my own
I have a battle happening within myself.

And I need to talk like a king to keep myself afloat
I need to use strong words and act confident so that I don't drown in the war happening inside me.

But how much longer until everyone knows?
How long will it take for people to understand my struggles?

There's a war inside me that's all my own
I am fighting a personal battle no one else can truly understand.

I should have started to take my own advice
I should have taken my own guidance and lived accordingly from the beginning.

From the moment that I started giving it
From the very beginning with which I started giving advice to others.

But I can only control what happens from here
I am only the master of my own present and future; what happened in the past is irretrievable.

And if none of this had happened
And if I hadn't made the mistake of being selfish,

Then I couldn't have heard
I couldn't have learned the lesson that life wanted to teach me.

The angel on my shoulder tells me he's proud of me
My positive self-affirming voice tells me that helping others is the true sign of strength.

That it takes a real man to live for everyone else before himself
Being selfless and putting others before oneself is a sign of true masculinity.

I know I believe it
I know it's true and I accept it.

And it'll never get easier
It will never be a simple task to work for others instead of oneself.

But it will always be worth it
The feeling of contentment from helping others outweighs the struggles of being selfless.

I'm still learning to speak out against myself
I am still learning to reprimand myself for acting selfishly.

And stay on the path I truly want to be on
I am trying to follow the road that I truly desire and that leads to my fulfillment.

Though I've lost my way more times that I have wished
I have swayed from my desired path more often than I would have liked.

My heart is constant and willing
My motivation and willingness are constant and unchanging.

I still believe that we were made for more
I still believe that we humans have a greater purpose in our existence.

That what I've been doing lately
The selfish actions that have consumed me lately.

This end of depression will be the start of getting back what I have lost
The hope of ending depression signifies the beginning of recuperating from the things that I have lost due to my selfishness.

Because I had become conceited
Acknowledging the fact that I had become selfish.

But I'm making it back to where I last left off
I am trying to get back to where I was when I last felt fulfilled.

And so I've shown you my heart
I have shown my honest intentions.

Will you restore me?
Can you help me in getting back the balance and morality that I have lost?