So Long
Willy Mason Lyrics

I wrote to you last night
I couldn't sleep and felt the moral contradiction of having the law/policy dictate my personal life.

Because I couldn't sleep
I was restless and uneasy about something that was bothering me.

My conscience felt the paradox
My moral values were in conflict with what society considers acceptable or legal.

Of law between the sheets
The struggle was personal and intimate, something I could not share with anyone.

When I woke up this morning
The next day, I realized that my inner turmoil had inspired a song that I wanted to write.

I knew I had a song to sing
I was inspired to create something, but the fear of failure and judgment held me back.

But I'm too scared to sing it now
I am apprehensive about sharing my work and putting myself out there.

There's no time for daydreams
I am feeling the pressure to succeed and work hard, so I cannot afford to waste time on fantasies.

I camped out on the floor
I was in an unfamiliar place, outside of my comfort zone, sleeping on the ground.

Of a university
I was surrounded by young, ambitious, and competitive students who seemed to have it all figured out.

I saw kids running so, so fast
The students around me seemed to be in a hurry, moving quickly without purpose or direction.

That they could barely see
They were so focused on their goals that they were oblivious of everything else around them.

Bars across my window
I was confined to a safe, but restrictive environment that limited my freedom and creativity.

For a mild safety
The security measures were in place to protect me, but they also made me feel trapped and oppressed.

Is this really where
I am questioning whether this is the right place for me, given the intellectual and emotional challenges that come with being at a university.

Where I want to be?
I'm not sure where I belong or what my future holds, and that uncertainty is weighing on my mind.

So long
It's time for me to move on and let go of the past.

I'll be movin'
I am ready to embark on a new journey and explore what the future has in store for me.

Dirty, dirty feet
I am physically marked by the experiences I've had, including attending an outdoor concert with bare feet.

From the concert in the grass
Being in nature surrounded by music made me feel free and alive, but it was a temporary escape from reality.

I wanted to believe
I yearned for the sense of freedom and possibility that came with being surrounded by like-minded people at the concert.

That freedom there could last
But I was aware that the temporary sense of freedom and joy was not sustainable, and that reality would soon catch up with me.

Sixteen eyes now watch me
I am the center of attention, and the people around me are waiting for me to make a decision that could change my life.

For the choice I'm bound to make
I am under pressure to make a decision that will chart the course of my life, based on factors that are beyond my control.

Their doubts threatens to draw me
The negative energy and anxiety from those around me are causing me to second-guess my choices and my path.

From the path I'm bound to take
I know what direction I want to go in, but the doubts and fears of others are making me question my decision.

Do you remember when we were young?
I am reminiscing about a simpler time when everything seemed possible, and there were no limits to what we could achieve.

And we could name all the things we ran from?
We were able to articulate our fears and anxieties, and we had the freedom to run away or face them head-on, without the weight of adult responsibilities.

What are your shadows hiding now?
I am curious about the darker parts of our psyche and what fears and anxieties may be lurking beneath the surface, hidden from view.

When anxiety's a nightmare
I am acknowledging that anxiety can be overwhelming and feel like a nightmare that we cannot escape from.

Which hero is gonna come around?
I am expressing doubt and uncertainty about whether we can rely on others, or if we have to be our own hero and save ourselves.

Well, I'll come around
I am offering to be there for the other person, even if they are struggling with their own fears and anxieties.

If you'll come around
I am asking the other person to reciprocate my offer and support me when I am feeling lost or alone.