Window to the Abbey is Troy Baker, Jon Titterington, Wayne G. Miller, James Bowen, Christopher Wray, and A.J. Novak
Recorded in Stinson Beach, CA and at Selma Studios.
What I Deserve
Window To The Abbey Lyrics
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Somehow find a better man in me
I could take a stand another day
Before the world falls at my feet
If I could only sleep
Lonely and the blind around me
And as I stumble home and cry alone
If I could only breathe
If I could only breathe
If all of the good [?]
To fall all with me [?]
If she could only sleep
On the lines, she shines inside of me
And on the darkest days in the baddest ways
It calls to me, crawls the stormy sea
If she could only see
If she could only see
All the good world walks on her feet [?]
I hope I never get, I never get
I never get what I deserve
I hope I never get, I never get
I never get what I deserve
I hope I never get, I never get
I never get what I deserve
I hope I never get, I never get
I never get what I deserve
Take what the world wants
Fall onto me
If I could only breathe
"What I Deserve" is a melancholic and reflective song by Window To The Abbey that speaks to the internal conflict of self-disappointment and desire for self-improvement. The song opens with the singer expressing his hope to be a better man, to improve himself and take a stand when the world falls at his feet. He acknowledges his struggles, acknowledging his loneliness and blindness, but still hopes to find a way to improve. As he stumbles home and cries alone, he reflects on his wish for restful sleep, while his loved one sleeps peacefully beside him.
The chorus expresses the conflict between deserving and receiving, a dilemma that everyone can relate to. The singer expresses the hope that he never gets what he deserves, as he acknowledges that sometimes the world can be harsh, and we may not always deserve the best. The final stanza describes the willingness of the singer to take on the struggles of the world, even though he may not always deserve it. The lyrics of the song express the desire for self-improvement, and the idea that sometimes we may not deserve the reward, but we are willing to work hard to receive it.
Line by Line Meaning
If I could only breathe
If I could only find a way to relieve my inner turmoil and become a better version of myself
Somehow find a better man in me
I could take a stand another day
Before the world falls at my feet
If I could improve myself, I would be able to face life's challenges and handle them before they overwhelm me
If I could only sleep
Lonely and the blind around me
And as I stumble home and cry alone
And lie awake, she should be asleep
If I could only find solace in sleep, rather than feeling isolated and vulnerable, while the person I care for is soundly sleeping
If all of the good [?]
To fall all with me [?]
If all the good things in life could also come to me, rather than just the hardships that I usually face
If she could only sleep
On the lines, she shines inside of me
And on the darkest days in the baddest ways
It calls to me, crawls the stormy sea
If only the person I care about could find peace and comfort in sleep, as their presence illuminates my life even in the darkest moments
If she could only see
If she could only see
All the good world walks on her feet [?]
If only the person I care about could appreciate their worth and see that the world is full of good things that they can achieve
I hope I never get, I never get
I never get what I deserve
I hope that I am not punished for the mistakes I've made, and that I can somehow avoid the negative consequences that I feel I deserve
Take what the world wants
Fall onto me
I feel like the world is constantly testing me and giving me more than I can handle, but I am willing to bear the weight of it all
Writer(s): Window To The Abbey
Contributed by Leah H. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
Faith Geek
Two ppl who inspire me daily in the pursuit of writing my own lyrics/songs is Troy Baker and Michael Malarkey. Troy's music was such an incredible find, I love both Sitting in the Fire and Moving around Bias. They each bring something different with their stories and the passion in Troy's vocals is so clear.
VestigialVirtue
Troy is my hero! If only this album was as prominent as "Sitting in the Fire"...
Giovanni Mangiante
I heard "fuck it all and breathe" xD