Hopeless
Wither Away Lyrics

Relapse, I'm moving on like I could ever change
I'm trying to move on, but I keep going back to my old ways

But when time goes by, depression's the only thing
No matter how much time passes, my depression remains and never fades away

That stays with me
Depression is a constant companion by my side

The only thing true to my name
My depression is a part of who I am and defines me

I will find, an excuse to pass the time
I constantly look for things to do just to fill up the time and avoid confronting my depression

And I will rely on distractions to subside
I turn to distractions as a way to forget my problems and avoid facing my depression

The thoughts I have in my mind, cripple and decide
My thoughts are negative and limit me from making choices freely

The outcome of my day life, diminished by the night
The negative thoughts from the day continue to impact me into the night and disrupt my sleep

But I'll say to you, I'm okay
I put on a facade and pretend everything is okay, even though I'm struggling

With life comes pain and that's okay
I accept that life has its ups and downs, and it's okay to feel pain

Feeling like I'm hopeful, when everything is doubtful
Sometimes, I feel hopeful despite everything in my life seeming bleak and uncertain

I've been trying, I've been trying hard to decipher it
I'm making an effort to understand my emotions and thoughts

When one day I'm doing fine
There are days when I feel good and things seem to be going well

The next is just crippling time
But then I fall back into a depressive state and everything becomes difficult again

I'm imprisoned in my mind
My negative thoughts are holding me captive and I can't escape them

The moments in life are mundane
Life seems dull and uneventful

Assorted with series of pleasure and pain
There are moments of happiness that are followed by periods of pain and suffering

But my brain sustains
My brain contains and holds onto this negative pattern of thinking

These factors of change as ill-minded
I view change and progression negatively and as a result, my mind remains stuck in a negative cycle

And it's killing me
This negative cycle is taking a toll on my mental health and wellbeing

Will I wake to see my friends?
Will I have the energy and motivation to socialize with my friends?

Will I fall again and again?
Will I keep falling back into my negative cycle and depressive state?

But I know, but I know, these holes in my heart, are just temporary lies
I believe that my negative thoughts and feelings are only temporary and not truly indicative of who I am as a person

I will try to live a better life
Despite my struggles, I will try to make positive changes to improve my life