I Could Not Plan This
Witt Lowry Lyrics

And "I don't mind" is where the demons roam
The place where one ignores and suppresses their problems is where their inner demons reside

Last night I met fear, doubt, hurt, hate, pain
I recently experienced intense negative emotions of fear, doubt, hurt, hate, and pain

Told me, "If you don't change, then we don't go"
My negative emotions warned me that if I continue to ignore them and avoid change, they will not subside

They'll give us life, and then we don't grow
By addressing and overcoming my negative emotions, I can continue to grow and develop, instead of stagnating in a state of discomfort

They've got me thinking, "Am I really in control now?"
My negative emotions have made me question whether or not I have true control over my own life

This whole town doesn't really feel like home now
My current environment no longer feels like a place where I belong

My family been sayin', "Mark, you gotta slow it down"
My family has advised me to take a break and slow down my fast-paced lifestyle

Out on a date, she say, "You really on your phone?"
During a date, my partner expressed concern about my heavy usage of my phone

"Wow," livin' through my phone now
I have become heavily reliant on my phone and it feels like I am living through it instead of living in the present moment

I've been feelin' disconnected
I have been feeling emotionally and mentally disconnected from those around me

Everyone around me, they would never get it
No one in my immediate circle understands what I am going through

Do they love me 'cause I'm hurtin' or they get the message?
I am uncertain whether those around me are showing me love and support because they truly care for me or because they want to appear supportive and understanding

Only love me when I'm workin' 'cause they want percentage
My colleagues and acquaintances only show interest in me when I am working and can offer some sort of benefit for them

I remember late night writin' here to tell you the truth
I recall writing late at night to express my honest thoughts and feelings

Back when I was too broke, servin' tables just to pay for a booth
During a time when I was financially struggling, I had to work at a restaurant in order to make enough money to pay for a recording booth

Back when really, I had nothin' to lose
At a time when I felt like I had no hope or prospects for the future

Last year I saw my dad pass away right in front of my eyes
I witnessed the death of my father last year, which was a traumatic experience for me

A couple fake friends told me who they were in disguise
Some individuals I considered to be friends betrayed me and revealed their true intentions

My ex-girl told me nothing but lies
My former girlfriend was dishonest with me and never told me the truth

So maybe I was just in love with who she was in my mind
Perhaps I was only in love with the idealized version of my ex-girlfriend that I had created in my own mind

I been lost inside my mind lately
I feel trapped and confused by my own thoughts and emotions

I been losing track of time lately
I am struggling to keep up with the passing of time and feel like I am losing precious moments

It's like I barely know who I'm lately
I am experiencing a disconnect with myself and feel like I am losing my sense of identity

I been prayin' for a sign lately
I have been seeking guidance and direction in my life

I been yellin' at the sky lately
I have been expressing frustration and anger at the universe or a higher power

My only question that was "Why?" lately
I have been questioning my purpose and meaning in life

Why is it I'm weak if I show the people I feel?
I am confused as to why expressing emotions is seen as a vulnerability or weakness

And why is it they told me that time is all that can heal?
People have advised me that time will heal my emotional wounds, but I am unsure if this is true

And in time who needs to heal me? Been searchin' for somethin' real
I am unsure if time alone is enough to truly heal me and am seeking something more meaningful

And I know that we attracted the energy that we deal
I believe that we are responsible for the energy we attract and encounter in our lives

I been overthinkin', overthinkin'
I have been stuck in a cycle of overthinking and analyzing my own thoughts and emotions

And nowadays I find 'em over drinkin' on a weekend
Lately, I have been turning to drinking in order to cope with my problems instead of facing them head on

The people yellin', "Where is Mark? 'Cause we fuckin' need him!"
People have been relying on me and my talents, but I am struggling to show up for them

See, this is somewhere you can go when you feel like there's nothin' else to believe in
Witt Lowry's music and lyrics provide a source of comfort and inspiration for those who feel lost or alone

I never could plan the doubt, I never could plan the pain
I cannot anticipate or control my own negative emotions of doubt and pain

I never could plan the number where people screamin' our name
I did not expect or plan for the level of fame and recognition that my music has received

I never could plan the love, I never could plan the hate
I cannot control the emotions that people feel towards me, whether it be love or hate

I never could plan the love we turn into hate when it's fake
Sometimes, people who claim to love me will turn on me and reveal that their love was fake all along

I never could plan the fear, I never could plan the hurt
I cannot control the fear and hurt that I experience in my own life

I never could plan that I will be helpin' people with words
I did not expect to have such a profound impact on people's lives through my music and lyrics

I never could plan a heart that was put inside of my chest
I did not choose or plan to have the emotions and heart that I possess

I'm a human here with a vision, no less or more than the rest, ah!
I am just a human being with dreams and aspirations, no greater or lesser than anyone else