Last Letter
Witt Lowry Lyrics

I miss, I mi—, I miss you
The artist misses the person he is singing about dearly

Eh, fuck it!
Despite the difficulty of writing this song, the artist decides to forge ahead

This might be the hardest song I've ever had to write
The artist finds it challenging to write this particular song

Yeah, I dreamt about you last night
The artist had a dream about the person he is singing about

I only see you when I close my eyes tight
The artist only sees the person he is singing about in his mind's eye

Yeah, I wish I told you how I felt before you left
The artist regrets not sharing his true feelings with the person before they died

But it just never felt right
Despite his regrets, the artist acknowledges that expressing his feelings would not have come easily

I won't forget the day that they found the growth in your chest
The artist remembers the moment his loved one's cancer was discovered

The cancer took ahold of your body and then it spread
The artist describes the progression of the cancer in his loved one's body

I talk to you more now than I ever did—I'm a mess
The artist is struggling with his emotions and finds solace in talking to the deceased person

This song will never capture the pain that I could express
The artist acknowledges that no song could fully capture the level of pain he is feeling

I learned from you that nothing is perfect, but try your best
The artist reflects on a lesson he learned from the person he is singing about

I know you had your demons that younger me didn't get
The artist acknowledges that he did not fully understand the person's struggles when he was younger

And out of all our demons, our biggest might be regret
The artist highlights regret as a primary point of shared struggle between him and the deceased person

Relate more than ever, remember back when I would only see you every other week
The artist feels a strong sense of connection to the person he is singing about, and recalls a specific time in their relationship

And every other Wednesday, you would take us out to eat
The artist remembers the specific routine he shared with the person, and looks back on it fondly

Mom and you had split, so we're living in between
The artist's parents were divorced, and he lived with both of them at different times

Looking up the word "divorced" to understand what it could mean
The artist remembers feeling confused and uncertain about his parents' divorce

But I don't understand, Mom is with another man
The artist is struggling to come to terms with his mother's new relationship following the divorce

You been drinking heavier than me, wish just another can
The artist's loved one had a drinking problem, and the artist wishes he could have helped in some way

Culture full of broken homes, we were just another fam
The artist reflects on his family's struggles in the context of a society with many broken families

Coulda left like other dads, you, you had another plan
Despite the challenges, the artist's loved one chose to stay and support his family

So you stuck around, dealt a life that you probably would never choose
The artist's loved one sacrificed his own desires to support his family and be present in their lives

You bottled it inside and that bottle turned into booze
The loved one turned to alcohol as a way of coping with his struggles and emotions

The Jäger took ahold and your body took the abuse
The loved one's heavy drinking took a toll on his body

But finally found some pride and cried when I got the news
Despite his struggles, the loved one found a sense of pride and connection with the artist

Inspired by your story, couple things you should know
The artist is inspired by the loved one's life and story

I met this girl at my show, teared up by what I was told
The artist met a fan of his music who was moved by his lyrics and message

"I'm sober 'cause of you, you do way more than you know"
The fan shared with the artist that his music had helped her stay sober

And I say—
The artist breaks into song again, reflecting on his feelings and memories

"Ohh, please grant me the serenity To accept everything I cannot change"
The artist asks for the strength to accept the things he cannot change

You, you always told me I had to do anything To have you back, see you one day
The artist remembers the loved one's desire to be there for him, and wishes he could have them back

I, I wonder if you see me when I fall, yeah I wonder if you hear me now at all
The artist wonders if the loved one can still see and hear him, even though they are gone

Maybe if the world played this through speakers I'd be loud enough to reach you, and you'll hear My last letter for you
The artist wishes he could share this song with the loved one, and hopes they can hear his final message

You started chemo, fought the battle, never quit That really left an imprint
The artist admires the loved one's strength and resilience in the face of cancer

And we would talk about our lives and after this How we would live 'em different
The artist and loved one discussed how they wanted to live their lives after the cancer battle was over

See, Mom and you would put your differences aside Every day she would visit, see the love and your vision
Despite their past differences, the loved one and artist's mother came together to support the loved one during his cancer treatment

See the hurt in your smile, your wisdom is what I'm missing the most I'll never be ready to let you go
The artist misses the loved one's smile and wisdom, and is not ready to say goodbye

I never felt so helpless inside a boat I control You told me how you wanted to travel, next year you'll go
The artist feels powerless despite being in control of his own life, and remembers a conversation with the loved one about travel plans

And your body had become fragile, not once that you lose your soul We were told, it was progressing and you had less than a week
As the loved one's body weakened, his spirit remained intact. Eventually, medical professionals informed the family that he had less than a week to live

True love is every tear when we told you we had to leave And how we would converse it, not once did we need to speak
The family feels the weight of the loved one's impending passing, but are also able to communicate without saying a word

That one day in late October you passed away in your sleep I been cryin' when I think about it
The loved one passed away in his sleep, and the artist still feels emotional when he thinks about it

I miss your smile, miss your laugh, and now I live without it
The artist misses the loved one's presence in his life

I told you music was my passion, and you never doubt it And people tell me they relate, but now I truly doubt it
The artist shared his passion for music with the loved one, who always believed in him. However, in the wake of the loved one's passing, the artist feels uncertain if others can truly understand his pain and story

Remember cryin' on your grave and yellin' up to you, "How did I lose my way?" I won't forget that summer was some of my darkest days
The artist reflects on a difficult time in his life after the loved one's passing, and remembers struggling with his own direction

Was asking for a sign, sat in my tears and prayed When I saw that sign you sent me, that day was forever changed
The artist prayed for a sign or guidance, and received it in a powerful way

I know, I know, I should've been a better me Oh, blame me when we argue, I said things I didn't mean
The artist feels remorse for not being a better version of himself during the loved one's lifetime, and acknowledges his role in past arguments

Me and you are who I wish, you should have always been between So I'm sorry for the lack of communication from me
The artist wishes he and the loved one had been closer during their lifetimes, and apologizes for not communicating more effectively

I just wish that you were here, so you could watch me win a Grammy But more importantly to build a family
The artist wishes the loved one was still alive to witness his professional and personal successes

I hope I make you proud and become everything I can be I hope they play it loud and send this letter where I can't reach Sincerely, Mark
The artist hopes to honor the loved one's memory by becoming the best version of himself. He signs off with his name