Losing You
Witt Lowry & Max Lyrics

Another night, I can barely sleep
I am struggling with insomnia and cannot get a good night's sleep.

I pray to God my soul to keep
I am asking God to protect my soul while I sleep.

If I shall die before I wake
I am acknowledging the possibility of death while I sleep.

I pray to God my soul to take
I am asking God to take my soul to heaven if I die.

I pray to God I'll be over great
I am asking God to help me achieve greatness in my life.

Not another white rapper they overrate
I am expressing my frustration with being compared to other white rappers who are considered overrated.

Ya'll spoil like the south on the Florida state
I am criticizing the entitled behavior of some people, using a metaphor about the spoiled culture of Florida.

I am always over worked and never over paid
I am complaining about being overworked and underpaid.

But I prayed for it
Despite my struggles, I still have hope and faith in God's plan for me.

And when they told me that I couldn't man,
I faced obstacles that people said I couldn't overcome.

I had to find a way for it,
I worked hard and found a solution to overcome those obstacles.

Serving table every day, I had to find a way to pay for it, damn,
I had to work as a server to make ends meet and earn money for my dreams.

And when I started going numb, Was when I realized I was made for it
I had a realization that the struggles I was facing were preparing me for my future success.

Yeah, so fuck all my feelings
I am expressing a feeling of emotional detachment and frustration.

I feel like the villain
I feel guilty and responsible for negative things that have happened in my life.

Feel like I overstep boundaries
I feel like I have crossed a line and caused harm to others.

Feel like you're better without me
I feel like others would be better off if I were not in their lives.

Feel like I'm drowning,
I feel overwhelmed by my problems and emotions.

Feel like I never had found me
I feel lost and unsure of who I am as a person.

I don't want no one around me
I want to be alone and do not want the company of others.

I don't think nobody knows how it feels when there's so many people yet no one to listen
I feel like no one understands my struggles and I am isolated despite being surrounded by people.

I tried to do good with a talent I'm given
I tried to use my talents to make a positive impact in the world.

I tried to see clear, your attention's been blocking my vision
I tried to gain clarity and perspective, but the opinions and attention of others have clouded my judgment and goals.

Surrounded by fake and honestly, lately debating how much more I could take
I am surrounded by fake people and am questioning how much more I can handle before I break.

A couple more shots to the face
I am turning to alcohol as a coping mechanism for my problems.

I often don't drink so I'm searching for something to chase
I do not typically drink, but I am using it as a way to escape my problems.

She's putting my hands on her waist
I am engaging in a physical relationship with someone for temporary relief from my problems.

Her tongue's in my mouth
I am engaged in a passionate kiss with this person.

And I wonder what pain she can taste
I am wondering how this person copes with their emotional pain and if it is similar to mine.

I'm taking caffeine when I wake
I am relying on caffeine to function in my daily life.

And tired of taking a pill in the PM just to sleep when it's late
I am tired of relying on medication to fall asleep at night.

I don't know what to believe in
I am struggling with a crisis of faith and belief.

Did it all for the wrong reasons
I realize that I pursued my dreams for the wrong reasons or with the wrong motivations.

And now I'm picking up all the pieces
I am struggling to put my life back together after my mistakes and struggles.

Of that person I once knew
I am trying to rediscover who I was before my struggles and problems took over.

I been losing you, you, you, you, you, you,
I have been losing a part of myself or someone important to me.

I guess I lost me for a while
I lost my sense of self and identity for a period of time.

Well, welcome back
I am excited to have rediscovered myself and feel like myself again.

Lately, I forgot how a smile felt
I have been struggling with depression and have forgotten what happiness feels like.

Now, picture that,
Now imagine feeling happy and smiling again.

Thought I could buy happy
I thought that material possessions and success would bring me happiness.

Maybe could buy a new car, in all black,
I thought that buying a flashy new car would bring me happiness.

Put my whole entire team on a map
I wanted to achieve success not just for myself, but for my entire team and support system.

But everything I have now, had to work for all of that
Despite my struggles and obstacles, I worked hard to achieve the success I have now.

But to see my dad again, I would give it all back
I value the people and relationships in my life more than any material possessions or success.

They just want me to rap
I feel like people only value me for my talent and success as a rapper.

I feel like a slave to this shit
I feel trapped and enslaved by the pressures of my career and fame as a rapper.

I know that I prayed for this shit
Despite the negatives, I know that I asked God for this success and career as a rapper.

But if I have one more fake convo with one more fake person, I might just go ape on this shit
I am frustrated with superficial and fake social interactions in my career and am close to losing my cool.

Remembering back we had no place to live, And you spent my rent money on clothes that you're wearing
I am recalling a specific instance where someone I cared for betrayed my trust and abandoned me.

Confusing your Instagram followers for people you care and
I am criticizing the idea of valuing social media followers and likes over genuine human connections and relationships.

You'll never find happy when stuck in comparing, I know
I am advising that comparing oneself to others will not bring happiness or fulfillment.

I miss the feeling of feeling feelings
I am longing for the ability to feel and express emotions fully, which I feel have been numbed by my struggles.

Now every song I write I've been dripping
I am expressing my emotion and vulnerability in my music.

And Uzi reel in
I am referencing fellow rapper Lil Uzi Vert as someone who also expresses raw emotion and vulnerability in his music.

Feeling is less appealing
I am struggling with the idea that showing emotion is no longer attractive or valued in my industry.

Then rappers like to mumble and already hit the ceiling
I am criticizing popular rappers who rely on incoherent mumbling and have already reached the pinnacle of success.

Didn't fuck with me way back then
People did not believe in or support my career when I was starting out.

Now it's hey, what's up,
Now that I have achieved success, those same people who doubted me are now trying to be friendly and establish connections.

Is it weird that I still feel stuck
I am expressing hesitation about moving past my past struggles and accepting new relationships and success.

Think it's funny when I spill my guts 'cause I feel?
I am frustrated that people find it entertaining or humorous when I express my emotions and vulnerabilities in my music.

Feeling like I need to stop playing, he's real
I feel pressure to prove my authenticity and genuineness as an artist and person.

I spent the last week in bed
I am dealing with depression and have spent a lot of time in bed.

And the weekend, was drunk
I am relying on alcohol to cope with my emotions and struggles.

'Cause honestly, I just couldn't deal
I am struggling to handle my problems and am seeking temporary relief.

Especially 7 days now without you, that makes one week
I am feeling the weight of time passing without someone I have lost or am missing.

You turn into someone else after just one drink
I am observing changes in someone else's behavior after they consume alcohol.

Wonder if I'm on your mind when you think
I am questioning if someone else is thinking of me and our past relationship.

And honestly I tried to help you find you but instead I lost me now
I tried to help someone else find themselves and their identity, but in doing so I lost my own sense of self.