20000 Deaths for Eidelyn Gonzales 20000 Deaths for Jamie Peterson
Xiu Xiu Lyrics


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Awful is all, awful like cookie
Sour and ringing and lost to this world
These are times, I should shut up about Iris and Oly,
He didn't know how else to be
Hmm hmm hoot hoot
Cherry oh Cherry
While your friend killed her baby
Cherry oh Cherry
I am at your command




Hmm hmm hoot hoot

Overall Meaning

The lyrics to Xiu Xiu's song "20000 Deaths for Eidelyn Gonzales 20000 Deaths for Jamie Peterson" are haunting and cryptic, evoking feelings of despair and confusion. The line "awful is all, awful like cookie" uses a comparison between the word "awful" and the taste of a sour, unappetizing cookie to convey the singer's sense of hopelessness and despair. The next line, "sour and ringing and lost to this world," further emphasizes the singer's disconnection from reality and their struggle to make sense of their surroundings.


The reference to "Iris and Oly" is unclear, but suggests a relationship between the singer and these individuals. The line "he didn't know how else to be" could refer to the singer's own behavior, or to the behavior of someone close to them. The repetition of "hmm hmm hoot hoot" and "Cherry oh Cherry" adds to the song's sense of confusion and disorientation.


Line by Line Meaning

Awful is all, awful like cookie
Everything is terrible, just like a bad, hardened cookie


Sour and ringing and lost to this world
Feeling bitter, overwhelmed, and disconnected from reality


These are times, I should shut up about Iris and Oly,
It's not the right time to talk about personal issues that don't matter in the grand scheme of things


He didn't know how else to be
He was unsure of how to act in a difficult situation


Hmm hmm hoot hoot
Nonsensical vocalizations, possibly indicating frustration or confusion


Cherry oh Cherry
A call to someone named Cherry, possibly a plea for help or guidance


While your friend killed her baby
Referring to a horrific event where someone's friend committed infanticide


Cherry oh Cherry
Repeated call to Cherry, possibly out of desperation


I am at your command
Willing to do anything for Cherry, whether out of respect or fear


Hmm hmm hoot hoot
Repeating the same nonsensical vocalization, continuing to express frustration or confusion




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Dejected Tomatoe

Awful is all
Awful like cookie
Sour and ringing
And lost to this world
These are the times
I should shut up about Iris and Oly
He didn't know how else to be

Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot

Cherry, oh Cherry
While your friend killed her baby
Cherry, oh Cherry
I am at your command

Cherry, oh Cherry
While your friend killed her baby
Cherry, oh Cherry
I am at your command

Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot



franciska tar

Awful is all
Awful like cookie
Sour and ringing
And lost to this world
These are the times
I should shut up about Iris and Oly
He didn't know how else to be

Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot

Cherry, oh Cherry
While your friend killed her baby
Cherry, oh Cherry
I am at your command

Cherry, oh Cherry
While your friend killed her baby
Cherry, oh Cherry
I am at your command

Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot
Hmm hmm, hoot hoot



All comments from YouTube:

ben o

The most soul crushing album I've ever heard

BurnHitsForLove

This and the four songs after, adding on the fast car cover.

pocket meatball

@BurnHitsForLove I know this is over a year later after you commented but that fucking cover of fast car never fails to make me sob. Apistat commander also kills me every time. Absolutely devastating

B L

Giles Corey is similarly devastating.

w1reh3ad_411

@pocket meatball this but apistat

B L

The synths at 2:18 are so damn good

harm of will

omg a new B L comment! I’m your biggest fan!!

B L

@harm of will lol thanks? Are you being sarcastic?

harm of will

@B L no not at all. I see one of your comments and your metagross pfp almost every time I listen to xiu xiu so I’m reminded of your existence a lot. Most of your comments I’ve seen are from like 5 years ago so I was just happy to see that you’re still listening to xiu xiu.

Moisés Daniel

Me gusta mucho el intro de esta canción y cómo se prolonga de fondo durante toda ella

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