First & Last
Youth Code Lyrics


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I've given up
A causeless calloused bag of bones
Dug my grave a thousand times
It's never deep enough for home
I've had it all
The burden of fair weathered lines
Carved in water, words of sand
Unknown plots behind the guise

The clasp is undone
Just like the first time
These fists will be clenched
Won't be the last time
An eye drawn and aimed
To your world at it ends
I knew that moment I could never miss

Nature's divide
Will adorn the one who leads
Living breathing as the wolf
Never flocking as the sheep
I am a rock
Against a glass cased house




And in this moment of truth
I've come to shatter you down

Overall Meaning

The song "First & Last" by Youth Code is an introspective, intense track that delves into themes of self-doubt, perseverance, and self-realization. The lyrics express a sense of surrender, as the singer has given up trying to meet expectations and has come to terms with their own limitations. They describe themselves as a "causeless calloused bag of bones," indicating a weariness and lack of direction in life. Despite their attempts to dig their own grave, they can never seem to reach a state of security or home, suggesting a feeling of restlessness or displacement.


The second verse introduces a more confrontational tone, with the singer expressing their anger and frustration towards the world around them. They describe their fists as being perpetually clenched, suggesting a readiness for violence or conflict. The line "an eye drawn and aimed to your world at its ends" implies a desire to destroy or bring down the status quo. The singer sees themselves as a "rock against a glass cased house," indicating a sense of isolation and alienation, and warns the listener that they are capable of bringing them down.


Overall, "First & Last" is a powerful, evocative song that grapples with big emotions and themes, but does so in a way that is relatable and engaging. The lyrics are supported by a driving, industrial-style beat and intense vocals, creating a sense of urgency and energy that draws the listener in.


Line by Line Meaning

I've given up
I have lost hope


A causeless calloused bag of bones
I feel numb and purposeless


Dug my grave a thousand times
I have been through many hardships


It's never deep enough for home
I cannot escape my suffering


I've had it all
I have experienced everything


The burden of fair weathered lines
I am weighed down by insincere words


Carved in water, words of sand
Empty promises and lies


Unknown plots behind the guise
Hidden motives behind friendly appearances


The clasp is undone
My defenses are down


Just like the first time
Similar to previous experiences


These fists will be clenched
I am ready to fight


Won't be the last time
This is not the end of my struggle


An eye drawn and aimed
I have focused on my target


To your world at it ends
I will confront you to the bitter end


I knew that moment I could never miss
I realized the importance of this opportunity


Nature's divide
The natural order of things


Will adorn the one who leads
The leader will be respected and admired


Living breathing as the wolf
Being strong and independent


Never flocking as the sheep
Not conforming to the norm


I am a rock
I am strong and unbreakable


Against a glass cased house
Against fragile and vulnerable opponents


And in this moment of truth
In this critical situation


I've come to shatter you down
I will break you and overcome my struggles




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