For I Am Cursed
Youth Code Lyrics


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Pen to paper with invisible ink
Displaying honesty with nothing to show
Recanting the taste of the knife
A sweet to bury me forever
We're trapped in casings made of arsenic and inclinations
Indigence from the heart trudging on so unfulfilled

I haven't been so much as thrilled to be alive
For I am cursed and holding on
To this semblance of a life

I cannot shake
The jinx that's applied
The haunts that encroach
A rain that won't dry
I'm drinking my options
And dying of thirst
The shadows still lingering
For I am cursed
The lights have been dim lit
The candles burned wet
No shelter to house this
A plague that cant set
A scratch at this ulcer
A prayer that it bursts
A longing for solace
For I am cursed

Mouth to bottle with a hunger for regret
Paralyzed in an infant state
Our feelings benumbed by our consumptions
Every kiss a coat to peel and flake
Habituation a crutch which once brought solace
Now choleric as there is no other choice
Cauterize the wounds which exposures
Smoldering ache which begat the vice

I've never felt such vapid space behind my eyes
For I am cursed and moving past
The orchestrator of these cries

I cannot shake
The jinx that's applied
The haunts that encroach
A rain that won't dry
I'm drinking my options
And dying of thirst
The shadows still lingering
For I am cursed
The lights have been dim lit
The candles burned wet
No shelter to house this
A plague that cant set
A scratch at this ulcer
A prayer that it bursts
A longing for solace
For I am cursed

I cannot shake
The jinx that's applied
The haunts that encroach
A rain that won't dry
I'm drinking my options
And dying of thirst
The shadows still lingering
For I am cursed
The lights have been dim lit
The candles burned wet
No shelter to house this
A plague that cant set
A scratch at this ulcer
A prayer that it bursts




A longing for solace
For I am cursed

Overall Meaning

The opening verse of Youth Code's For I Am Cursed presents the image of the singer writing in invisible ink, a symbol of their feelings being hidden and unrecognized. They express a deep sense of honesty, but feel that they have nothing to show for it. They recall the "taste of a knife," suggesting a past trauma or unresolved pain. They then describe feeling trapped - by both their circumstances ("casing made of arsenic") and their own internal inclinations ("indigence from the heart"). Despite trudging forward, they feel unfulfilled.


In the chorus, the singer declares themselves cursed and unable to break free from whatever malevolent force is weighing them down. They feel haunted, unable to find solace and constantly thirsty for something that will not come. The imagery of the candles burning wet and the scratch at the ulcer add to the sense of decay and hopelessness.


In the second verse, the singer turns to the bottle to numb their feelings of regret. They feel stuck in a childish state, their emotions numbed by their reliance on intoxication. They once found comfort in these habits, but now they only exacerbate their misery. They describe "smoldering ache," implying that their pain is constantly simmering beneath the surface.


Overall, Youth Code's For I Am Cursed is a deeply painful track that speaks to the feelings of being trapped and helpless, unable to break free from a cycle of despair. The lyrics are dense and metaphorical, but convey a clear sense of desperation and hopelessness.


Line by Line Meaning

Pen to paper with invisible ink
Writing honestly, but with no visible evidence or proof


Displaying honesty with nothing to show
Being truthful, but without anything to back it up or support it


Recanting the taste of the knife
Trying to forget the pain and hurt that has been inflicted


A sweet to bury me forever
A pleasurable moment or experience that masks or hides the underlying problems


We're trapped in casings made of arsenic and inclinations
Being stuck in toxic situations and patterns that are harmful


Indigence from the heart trudging on so unfulfilled
A deep sadness and dissatisfaction that is hard to shake


I haven't been so much as thrilled to be alive
Feeling numb and unenthusiastic about life


For I am cursed and holding on
Feeling like there is a curse or bad luck that is holding one back or causing negative experiences


To this semblance of a life
To this mere appearance or facade of living


I cannot shake
Unable to rid oneself of something negative or harmful


The jinx that's applied
The notion that there is bad luck or misfortune that keeps happening


The haunts that encroach
The painful or distressing memories or experiences that continuously invade one's thoughts


A rain that won't dry
A persistent sorrow or sadness that won't go away


I'm drinking my options
Trying various things to alleviate the situation


And dying of thirst
But still feeling unfulfilled or still wanting more


The shadows still lingering
The darkness or negativity that still persists


The lights have been dim lit
The hopes or joys that have diminished or faded away


The candles burned wet
The attempts to find comfort or solace that have failed or been extinguished


No shelter to house this
No place to escape or find refuge from this curse or negative situation


A plague that cant set
A situation that won't resolve or dissipate


A scratch at this ulcer
An attempt to relieve the painful, festering wound


A prayer that it bursts
A desperate hope or wish that the pain and hurt will end


A longing for solace
A deep desire for peace, comfort and relief




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@loukkaus

Lyrics:

Pen to paper with invisible ink
Displaying honesty with nothing to show
Recanting the taste of the knife
A sweet to bury me forever
We're trapped in casings made of arsenic and inclinations
Indigence from the heart trudging on so unfulfilled
I haven't been so much as thrilled to be alive
For I am cursed and holding on
To this semblance of a life
I cannot shake
The jinx that's applied
The haunts that encroach
A rain that won't dry
I'm drinking my options
And dying of thirst
The shadows still lingering
For I am cursed
The lights have been dim lit
The candles burned wet
No shelter to house this
A plague that cant set
A scratch at this ulcer
A prayer that it bursts
A longing for solace
For I am cursed
Mouth to bottle with a hunger for regret
Paralyzed in an infant state
Our feelings benumbed by our consumptions
Every kiss a coat to peel and flake
Habituation a crutch which once brought solace
Now choleric as there is no other choice
Cauterize the wounds which exposures
Smoldering ache which begat the vice
I've never felt such vapid space behind my eyes
For I am cursed and moving past
The orchestrator of these cries
I cannot shake
The jinx that's applied
The haunts that encroach
A rain that won't dry
I'm drinking my options
And dying of thirst
The shadows still lingering
For I am cursed
The lights have been dim lit
The candles burned wet
No shelter to house this
A plague that cant set
A scratch at this ulcer
A prayer that it bursts
A longing for solace
For I am cursed
I cannot shake
The jinx that's applied
The haunts that encroach
A rain that won't dry
I'm drinking my options
And dying of thirst
The shadows still lingering
For I am cursed
The lights have been dim lit
The candles burned wet
No shelter to house this
A plague that cant set
A scratch at this ulcer
A prayer that it bursts
A longing for solace
For I am cursed



All comments from YouTube:

@loukkaus

Lyrics:

Pen to paper with invisible ink
Displaying honesty with nothing to show
Recanting the taste of the knife
A sweet to bury me forever
We're trapped in casings made of arsenic and inclinations
Indigence from the heart trudging on so unfulfilled
I haven't been so much as thrilled to be alive
For I am cursed and holding on
To this semblance of a life
I cannot shake
The jinx that's applied
The haunts that encroach
A rain that won't dry
I'm drinking my options
And dying of thirst
The shadows still lingering
For I am cursed
The lights have been dim lit
The candles burned wet
No shelter to house this
A plague that cant set
A scratch at this ulcer
A prayer that it bursts
A longing for solace
For I am cursed
Mouth to bottle with a hunger for regret
Paralyzed in an infant state
Our feelings benumbed by our consumptions
Every kiss a coat to peel and flake
Habituation a crutch which once brought solace
Now choleric as there is no other choice
Cauterize the wounds which exposures
Smoldering ache which begat the vice
I've never felt such vapid space behind my eyes
For I am cursed and moving past
The orchestrator of these cries
I cannot shake
The jinx that's applied
The haunts that encroach
A rain that won't dry
I'm drinking my options
And dying of thirst
The shadows still lingering
For I am cursed
The lights have been dim lit
The candles burned wet
No shelter to house this
A plague that cant set
A scratch at this ulcer
A prayer that it bursts
A longing for solace
For I am cursed
I cannot shake
The jinx that's applied
The haunts that encroach
A rain that won't dry
I'm drinking my options
And dying of thirst
The shadows still lingering
For I am cursed
The lights have been dim lit
The candles burned wet
No shelter to house this
A plague that cant set
A scratch at this ulcer
A prayer that it bursts
A longing for solace
For I am cursed

@ACKERLEYL

Mr Kitty- Youth Code - HEALTH = one of the best bills ever!

@edeakaede9494

Fuck, thats so good it hurts

@1uckywanderboy519

It's like I'm in some kid's college dorm room listening to broken tapes again on headphones. Good stuff.

@whitedevil5409

Awesome live. Seen them open for Deafheaven.

@FistfulofFlags

Great combo!

@klausklinsky3512

Благодарю Spotify за то что я услышал этот шедевр, хотя бы в 2023 )

@starrjeffers2730

LOVE this track!

@MusicForMyDemons

holy fuck, this song is amazing

@adammaloney9751

This makes me really miss going to goth clubs.

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