I Can Get It Back
Zack Hemsey Lyrics

I see a ghost in a photograph
I have a reminiscence of you that feels like a mirage.

I feel that wave come up under me
I feel that the loss of you casts me back and forth.

I see myself in that other half
I am reminded of how much you were a part of me.

I feel that pain pull me underneath
I am engulfed by immense sorrow every time I remember you.

I see the times that we'll never have
I see how everything has been irrevocably altered by your absence.

I hear the sighs of content we'd breathe
I long to relive every moment of happiness we shared together.

I feel the smile that I wish I had
I desire to feel joy and happiness again that I felt when you were here.

But all these moments are projections of the past
The memories of all the moments we shared are only in my being, and found only in the past.

Cuz a part of me died and a liveliness was lost when you passed
When you left, a part of me crumbled, and everything that was living in me lost its vitality.

And a light in me dimmed as a certainty was slipping through my grasp
As time passed, my hope faded and my once sure grip loosened.

Now I'm picking up the pieces getting cut open by shards of broken glass
I'm attempting to gather what's left of me, and at times it's excruciatingly painful.

Well how long can this last
I'm uncertain how long this ache will stay with me.

Missing is that purpose in my life but I can get it back
I feel everything is meaningless now, but I know I can reclaim it.

This isn't gone
This emptiness inside me is real, but it isn't permanent.

I can get it back
I believe I can regain what I've lost.

I see no soul in the mirror
I don't recognize myself when I look in the mirror.

Only see signs of demise getting nearer
I see nothing but signs of death and despair when I look at myself.

"Time heals wounds" is absurd as a theorem
The idea that time alone can fix my wounds is ridiculous.

But I can see above the sky's getting clearer
Despite everything, I can see that things can eventually become clearer.

And though despair of things before will never leave
Although the despair of losing you will always be with me.

Although our past mistakes can never be retrieved
Although the mistakes we made together can never be undone.

Way out in the distance is a vessel on the seas
Despite everything, there's still hope for the future.

And I'm a set a heading toward the sun, cuz I believe that I can get it back
I'm going to pursue hope and joy again with all my being.

All that hope and that joy
All the things that once filled me with hope and happiness.

That trust and that care
The trust and care we shared.

Those dreams of a boy, I can get it back
The boyish dreams that I had when I was young, I will chase them again.

All that love and that worth
The love and worth that filled my life before you left.

That touch of a flare
The spark that you once brought to my life.

That feel of the earth, I can get it back
I can feel love and joy again in this world.

That drive to extreme
That desire to push for everything your heart desires.

That confidence to lead
The belief that you can lead and accomplish anything.

That willingness to bleed, I will get it back
The willingness to suffer for what he loves, he will find again.

Reassembled when I'm done
After he picks up his shattered pieces, he will be renewed.

Depression on the run as I come beating on these drums
His depression will be a thing of the past as he beats out his passion.

Battles with the mind and the timid stand off
He struggles against his own mind and his fear.

Slightest bit of pain and those tender folk scoff
People mock him for his vulnerability over the smallest difficulties.

Choose the destination but that bridge must be crossed
You can determine where you want to go, but you must take the step forward.

Guess the bottom line is we're cut from different cloths
The two of them are fundamentally different.

Borders they divide but I'm inclined to cut across
He will overcome any obstacle that stands in his way.

Reach the outer limits then I cut away my loss
He will push himself to the limit and leave his past behind.

Continue toward the goal in sight no matter what the cost
He will persist in his pursuit of his goals, no matter how much it costs him.

Emboldened by this chance, I'm not afraid to get lost
This opportunity has given him confidence to push himself further, even if it means getting lost.

Cuz now I'm pushing forward and nobody dare opposes
Now that he's determined, no one can stop him.

Now I'm moving faster while that ticking clock slows
While time passes slowly, he's picking up speed.

And now I'm climbing higher like the ground can't hold
He's rising higher than he ever has before, seemingly defying gravity.

So I don't plan on stopping when this summit plateaus
Even when he reaches the peak of his climb, he'll keep going.

I'm that invasion of the body by the soul
He's overtaken by a force that drives him forward.

Sickened from the cold but soon a certified whole
He feels weak and sick, but he knows he'll be whole again soon.

Never one to fight but I just hit it on the nose
He used to be afraid of contention, but he's going right for the fight now.

It took my spirit, but I got it back, case closed
Even though the loss of the loved before deeply affected him, now his spirit is rejuvenated and will close that chapter behind him.