Zeph's debut single Forever & Always was released in 2018. In the year 2021 she released her first official EP 'Scared of Everything'.
Other EPs are 'goodnight moon (demos)', 'ache (demos)', and 'crush (demos)', which all include demos of short songs she originally posted on platforms such as youtube and soundcloud. While her spotify has few things from Zeph, she has compiled a playlist on her youtube channel titled 'little songs by me' which include a few short songs and demos of songs she has yet to release a full version of.
i'll never fall in love with myself
Zeph Lyrics
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So that's what I sought
If the cover's torn, it's not worth it
Or that's what I thought
Whoever wrote my description
I think they misspelled
Now I'm cursed to see it from within
But now I know it too well
I'll never fall in love
So I draw on all of my pages
Block out all the words
I don't care if they meant them
What they didn't hurts
This won't have a happy ending
Not even parallel
Think I'm a bit dramatic
But this twisted plot has me overwhelmed
But now I know it too well
I'll never fall in love with myself
The lyrics of Zeph's song "I'll Never Fall in Love With Myself" depict the struggles of self-love and acceptance. The first stanza talks about how the singer never went beyond the surface level and believed that the cover was all that mattered. This shows how the singer never delved much into their own thoughts and feelings and just focused on their outward appearance. The next line, "If the cover's torn, it's not worth it," shows the singer's belief that if they are not perfect, they are not worth loving or even worth getting to know intimately. The last line of the verse talks about the description someone else wrote for them which they feel is a misrepresentation of who they really are. They feel that their true story will never be known.
The second stanza talks about how the singer blocks out all the words written on their pages and doesn't care if they meant them. This shows how the singer does not value the opinions of others and is harsh on themselves. The next line, "What they didn't hurts," shows how the singer is affected more by the negative things that others left unsaid about them. The last two lines of the stanza talk about how the singer's story won't have a happy ending, and they find their life and their twisted plot overwhelming.
The chorus talks about how the singer will never fall in love with themselves. This shows how the singer has lost faith in themselves and doesn't believe they are worth loving. The song highlights the importance of self-love and acceptance and how important it is not to lose faith in oneself.
Line by Line Meaning
It was never more than the surface
I never dug deeper than the exterior of myself and others.
So that's what I sought
I actively searched for only the surface-level and avoided anything deeper.
If the cover's torn, it's not worth it
If something isn't perfect on the outside, I deemed it not worth my time and effort.
Or that's what I thought
I have come to realize that judgeing things or people based on their appearance is not valid.
Whoever wrote my description
The perception of me that others have created.
I think they misspelled
They got it wrong and didn't portray me accurately.
Now I'm cursed to see it from within
I have internalized and believed the false perception of myself that others have created.
A story I'll never get to tell
I am unable to tell my unique story and be myself because of the false perception of myself.
But now I know it too well
I have realized and accepted the truth about myself.
I'll never fall in love
I will not be captivated or enamored with the false image of myself or others.
So I draw on all of my pages
I express my true self on paper instead of living it in the real world.
Block out all the words
I ignore external opinions and judgments of myself.
I don't care if they meant them
I am not affected by external opinions of myself, whether positive or negative.
What they didn't hurts
The absence of external validation hurts me more than negative opinions.
This won't have a happy ending
This self-imposed isolation and rejection of external validation is not sustainable and will not lead to happiness.
Not even parallel
My journey cannot be compared or mirrored by anyone else's, it is unique to me.
Think I'm a bit dramatic
I acknowledge that my behavior and response to external opinions may be overly emotional or exaggerated.
But this twisted plot has me overwhelmed
This internal struggle has become all-consuming and is affecting my mental state.
But now I know it too well
I am aware of the destructive pattern in my thinking and behavior.
I'll never fall in love with myself
I will not be trapped by the facade of who I think I am and will learn to accept and love my true self.
Contributed by Zachary J. Suggest a correction in the comments below.