Adrenaline
Zero 9:36 & ICE NINE KILLS Lyrics

All my life I've drowned in adrenaline
Throughout my entire existence, I have been consumed by the rush of adrenaline.

Now my blood runs slow like a sedative
However, lately, my blood flows calmly and slowly like a sedative.

I wake up past noon, and then settle in
My days begin past noon, and I become comfortable in my routine.

Lord, please help me up, I don't wanna lay down
I plead for assistance from a higher power to lift me up instead of succumbing to the ease of laying down and giving up.

So help me get the fuck back up
I desperately need aid in standing up again.

I don't wanna lay down, down, down
I refuse to allow myself to remain stagnant and defeated.

Help me get myself back up
Assist me in finding the motivation and strength within myself to rise again.

I feel the pain in my reflection, I
I am intimately aware of the anguish and suffering that I carry within myself.

I wanna get away, so I just step inside
To escape these feelings, I retreat within myself.

I feel more alone when I have extra eyes
The presence of others only intensifies my isolation and loneliness.

Fucking staring at me
Their constant gaze only makes me feel more vulnerable and exposed.

I wanna feel numb, give me novocaine for everyone else
I desire complete emotional detachment and seek ways to numb my pain, even if it means causing others to feel the same way.

Sick of staying in a house, I need a home for myself
I am tired of feeling trapped and confined, and yearn for a place of my own where I feel free and at ease.

To be alone I can tell that you don't know how I felt
Only in solitude do I truly understand my own emotions and experiences, and it's clear that others cannot fully comprehend them.

I had to let go of you just to get a hold of myself because
In order to focus on my own well-being, I had to sever ties with someone who was holding me back and causing me distress.

Deep underground
Metaphorically, I am descending into a dark, isolated place within myself.

It's silent, safe and sound
In this inner solitude, I am secure and protected from external pressures and threats.

Our story now
Looking back on the past, it is now just a story with little bearing on my current state of being.

Throw it away, it's been erased
I am ready to discard the past and all its trappings, as it has been wiped clean and no longer holds any value for me.

It's all gone horribly wrong, feels like I'm frozen in place
Despite my attempts to move forward, everything seems to be collapsing around me, and I am left feeling stuck and hopeless.

I choked up, now it's coursing through my veins
My emotions have overwhelmed me, and now they are affecting me physically as well.

When every day is the same
Life has become monotonous and predictable, lacking in any excitement or novelty.

I hear my heart still beating
Despite it all, I can still feel my own pulse and am reminded that I am alive.

I still don't know if my story's worth reading
Despite everything, I am still unsure if my life's journey is worth sharing with others and being heard.