Haunted
Zimm Lyrics

I don't know why I can't shake this
I'm experiencing a feeling that I can't seem to get rid of.

Feel like I've been living life in the matrix
I feel like I'm living in a world that's not real.

I don't even feel alive it don't make sense
I don't feel like I'm truly living my life.

I just wanna be alright I fucking hate this
I just want to feel okay and I really hate feeling this way.

Tell me when's it gonna change
I'm asking for someone to tell me when my situation will get better.

Cause every single person keeps saying the same thing
People keep giving me the same advice, but it's not helping.

Stay strong now you'll make it through the pain
People keep telling me to be strong and that I'll get through this difficult time.

But its hard to see the sun when you're living in the rain
It's hard to feel hopeful when you're constantly experiencing negative emotions.

I barely know my dad now his hair's all grey
I haven't spent much time with my father and now he's old.

Cause I spent all of my time doing drugs, trynna fade
I used drugs to try to forget about my problems.

Out all of the demons when I couldn't get away
I used drugs to try to escape from my inner demons.

I never said I love you instead I would say I hate
I never showed my loved ones how much I cared for them and instead pushed them away.

All this time gone that I can't get back
I've spent a lot of time doing things that I regret and can't take back.

Feel like every single night I'm just living in the past
I constantly think about my past mistakes and it's affecting my present.

I lie and say I'm happy every single time I'm asked
I pretend that I'm happy when people ask me how I'm doing.

I don't wanna be a burden so I just put on a mask
I don't want to bother anyone with my problems, so I hide my true feelings.

Forty-Thousand people telling me I can't quit
There are a lot of people who tell me that I should continue with my current path.

I promise that I'm fighting just keep praying that I win
I'm trying my best to succeed and I hope that people will support me.

Still got a lot of things that I still keep in
I'm still holding onto a lot of my emotions instead of letting them out.

And I need to let them go I don't know where to begin
I know that I need to let go of my emotions, but I don't know how to start.

I used to watch my pap slap my gram and he'd laugh as she ran
I used to witness my grandfather abuse my grandmother and thought it was okay.

And I didn't understand the man was so bad
I didn't realize that my grandfather was a terrible person.

So I treated him better than I did my own dad
I showed my grandfather more love and respect than I showed to my own father.

I was so damn young I didn't understand
I was too young to fully comprehend what was happening around me.

I seen shit that a kid never should
I witnessed things that no child should have to see.

I bottle it all up and act like I'm good
I keep my emotions inside and pretend that I'm okay.

Reality is I'm just so fucking shook
The truth is that I'm really struggling and scared.

I feel like an outcast so misunderstood
I feel like nobody understands me and that I'm different from everyone else.

I miss being young
I miss the carefree feeling that I had when I was younger.

Back when I didn't have problems, just fun
I miss the times when I didn't have to worry about anything and could just have fun.

Back before I had to worry about funds
I miss the times before I had to worry about money and financial stability.

Now to feel that way I gotta get drunk
Nowadays, I have to turn to alcohol to feel that sense of happiness and carefreeness.

I'm still stuck in this rut
I feel like I'm still in a really difficult and unproductive situation.

Honestly feel like I'll never be up
I honestly feel like I'll never be truly happy or successful.

I'm sick of this feeling I swear that it's fucked
I hate feeling this way and it's really starting to affect me.

I need to make changes reality sucks
I know that I need to make changes in my life, but the reality of the situation is tough to deal with.

Still don't know who I am
I'm still unsure of my identity and who I want to be.

I look in the mirror like "who is this man?"
I look at myself in the mirror and don't recognize the person staring back at me.

I still have no clue of my purpose or path
I don't know what I want to do with my life and feel lost.

But something keeps telling me that I should rap
Even though I'm unsure of my path, I feel like I should pursue my passion for music.

So I keep moving
I continue to persevere and try to make progress.

Took all my pain and then started a movement
I turned my pain into motivation and started something that means a lot to me.

I swear to you all that this is more than just music
My music means a lot more to me than just a career or hobby.

I put all my life into all that I'm doing
I'm dedicating my life to my music and what I believe in.

I can't let the fans down
I'm committed to making my fans happy and not letting them down.

Gotta stick to the plan now
I need to continue to follow my plan and not be deterred by obstacles.

And hope it all pans out
I hope that everything works out for me and my career.

I don't know how but I know this my path now
Even though I don't know how everything will work out, I'm committed to this path.

Sacrificing my life
I'm making big sacrifices in my life to pursue my music career.

Turning down friends just to stay in and write
I'm giving up social opportunities to focus on my craft.

I'm watching them live as I'm sitting behind
I'm seeing my friends live their lives while I'm working hard on music.

And I just keep on drowning but say that I'm fine
I'm really struggling, but I pretend that everything is okay when asked.

Feel like I'm alone
I feel like nobody truly understands me.

I got all these problems and nobody knows
I have a lot of issues that I don't feel comfortable sharing with others.

Everything changing I hate that I know
My life is changing and I don't like how things are turning out.

I used to be happy but now I'm so cold
I used to be happy, but I feel really down and depressed now.

Cause home isn't home
I don't feel comfortable in my own home anymore.

I just keep on running don't know where to go
I feel lost and don't know where to turn.

These demons keep coming I hope I don't fold
I keep having negative thoughts and emotions and hope that I don't give up.

I risk my whole life for this path that I chose
I'm putting everything on the line for my music career and the path I've chosen.