Birds
aiwake Lyrics


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And I wonder where you left
Wonder where it′s fictional
Looking under every retch
Waiting 'til addiction starts

Come on closer now, I′ve seen the day
I'm fallin'
Is it over now? Can see my fate
I′m fallin′, I'm fallin′ down

They say I'm one step closer
I see the ocean now
Only one where it′s over
No way to show me how
So I, I, I need some time
To sing my voice
So I, I, I, it's mine
It′s not your choice

And I wonder where you left
Wonder where it's fictional




Looking under every retch
Waiting 'til addiction starts

Overall Meaning

In aiwake's song "Birds," the lyrics describe a protagonist who is searching for something or someone that has left them wondering where it went. The line "wonder where it's fictional" suggests that the object or person may not have even existed in the first place. The singer is searching everywhere they can think of, but without success. The line "waiting 'til addiction starts" suggests that this search is becoming obsessive and potentially destructive.


Then, the chorus comes in with a shift in tone. The singer is looking for something, but they are also falling down. They are resigned to their fate, asking if it's all over now. The line "they say I'm one step closer" suggests that the singer has been pursuing something for a long time, and they are finally nearing their goal. However, the line "no way to show me how" suggests that they still don't know what they're looking for or how to find it.


The second verse reiterates the singer's need for time to figure things out. They state that they need time to "sing [their] voice," suggesting that they need time to figure out their own identity and what they want out of life. The last two lines of the song repeat the first verse, suggesting that the cycle of searching and addiction may continue.


Line by Line Meaning

And I wonder where you left
The singer is curious about the whereabouts of someone they have lost.


Wonder where it’s fictional
They are unsure if their memories with this person were even real or just a figment of their imagination.


Looking under every retch
The singer is frantically searching for any clues or signs that could lead them to the person they have lost.


Waiting 'til addiction starts
They are still holding onto hope that they will find the person they lost before their longing for them turns into an addiction.


Come on closer now, I’ve seen the day
The artist is asking the person they’ve lost to come back to them, even though they know it might not happen.


I'm fallin'
The singer is overwhelmed with emotion and feels like they are losing control as they wait for the person they’ve lost to return.


Is it over now? Can see my fate
The singer is questioning whether their hope of finding the person they lost is futile, and they are resigned to whatever their fate may be.


I'm fallin' down
The artist feels like they’re descending into an abyss of despair as they accept that they may never find the person they’ve lost.


They say I'm one step closer
Other people believe that the artist is making progress in moving on from the person they lost.


I see the ocean now
The artist’s journey to find the person they lost has taken them far, perhaps even to the edge of the world.


Only one where it's over
The ocean is the only place the singer can think of where they’ll be able to find closure to their search.


No way to show me how
The artist acknowledges that finding closure may not be easy and they have no idea how to make it happen.


So I, I, I need some time
The singer needs time to process their emotions and come to terms with the possibility of never finding the person they lost.


To sing my voice
They need to find their own voice and identity separate from the person they lost.


It's mine
The singer wants to take ownership of their emotions and their journey, without relying on anyone else.


It's not your choice
The artist is asserting their independence and refusing to let anyone dictate how they should feel or behave.




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