life
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All the words of my mother hang heavy over me.
It′s summer in texas, 2003.
I dissociate, the world around me fades.
There is no self if there is no one else,
So i isolate and suppress discomfort,
And i sacrifice any shred of my own self-worth.
While i put so much faith
I couldn't get my life back, i didn't stand a chance.
All the pain within my past weighs heavy on my heart.
The euphoria won′t last, it′ll tear your life apart.
I feel the same; the world around me changed.
It is a mess, and i could not make sense of the brave new world i
Navigate alone, or my hyper-vulnerability i now call home,
'Cause i put so much trust in their shifting words,
And i have never felt so stupid and useless before.
But it is all my fault, i never should have trusted them.
It′s easy to smile and wave,
To tell them one thing to their face, it's hard to tell the truth.
Yeah, it is all my fault,
But how could i have known that what people call low
Self-esteem is really just seeing
Yourself the way other people see you?
I couldn′t get my life back.
These lyrics from awakebutstillinbed's song "life" delve into themes of self-doubt, isolation, and the struggle to find one's own identity in a world that can be overwhelming and cruel. The singer laments their inability to regain control of their life and save themselves from the emotional burdens they carry. The weight of their mother's words hangs heavily on them, shaping their perception of themselves and influencing their actions.
The song references a specific time and place, Texas in the summer of 2003, which adds a sense of grounding and specificity to the singer's experiences. They describe dissociation, a detachment from reality, as a coping mechanism to fade away from the harshness of the world. The line "There is no self if there is no one else" suggests that the singer's self-worth relies heavily on external validation and connection to others, leading to isolation and suppression of their own discomfort.
Throughout the lyrics, the singer expresses a deep sense of loneliness and desperation despite striving to keep their eyes open and be aware of their surroundings. They question their own trust in others, feeling stupid and useless for placing so much faith in the shifting words of those around them. They take responsibility for their own faults, but also reflect on the societal pressure to conform to others' perceptions and struggle with low self-esteem.
Overall, these lyrics paint a picture of a person grappling with their own identity, seeking validation, and facing the difficulty of navigating a world that can be confusing and unkind.
Writer(s): Michael William Dulaney, Jim Collins
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