MEMORY
badXchannels Lyrics

Hit the bloodstream quicker; I take two shots to the brain
The singer has developed a high tolerance for alcohol and other substances, making them feel like they need more to achieve the same effect.

Well these nights are lone when you're always living in pain
The singer is used to feeling pain and discomfort, and it has become a constant part of their life that they feel they can't escape.

Adrenaline's through me, chemicals working
The singer is feeling a rush of energy and excitement from the substances they have taken, and it is affecting their body and mind in a palpable way.

This time I won't get away
The artist is resigned to the idea that they will face negative consequences from their actions this time, but they are willing to accept them.

Letting senses fail, watching it all fall right into place
The artist is allowing themselves to lose control and be consumed by the substances they have taken, and they feel like things are falling into place even as they spiral out of control.

I don't wanna speak
The singer is feeling disconnected and doesn't want to communicate with others about how they are feeling.

I know what you expect of me
The singer feels like there are certain expectations that others have of them, but they don't feel like they can meet them.

I can't go quietly
The artist feels like they need to make a statement or have an impact in some way, and they can't do that if they fade away quietly.

I won't be another memory
The artist wants to be remembered for something more than just their addiction or their struggles, and they don't want to be forgotten or overlooked.

Taking the longest road to feel something
The artist feels like they have to go to great lengths or take extreme measures just to feel something, anything tangible or real.

Inside (all I feel is pain, all I feel is pain)
The singer feels like they are hurting inside and that pain is their constant companion, no matter what else is happening around them.

Stuck in the space between my chest and my mind (all I feel is shame, all I feel is shame)
The artist feels like an internal conflict is causing them shame or guilt, and they can't escape it no matter how hard they try.

Keep on doing the same old shit, that same old shit, I won't get better
The singer recognizes that their current behaviors and habits are not helping them improve or get better, and they need to make a change to break the cycle.

All the things I could be, I'm not going to be able to be
The singer recognizes that their addiction or struggles are holding them back from achieving their full potential or becoming the person they want to be.

If I don't wanna change by my feet (if I lose control)
The singer recognizes that they need to take control of their life and their actions, or they will be in danger of losing themselves completely to their addiction or other problems.

I've been working on me, to focus my energy
The artist is actively trying to improve themselves and their situation, and they are channeling their energy into positive changes.

To focus on being elite (not what's underneath)
The artist wants to focus on becoming the best version of themselves, and not letting their negative emotions or struggles define them.