N.Y.E
blackbear Lyrics

I think I drank too much,
I may have had too much to drink and now I am struggling with my emotions.

I'm still afraid of growin' up,
The idea of becoming an adult scares me, and I am unsure of how to handle the responsibilities that come with it.

And slowin' down too soon,
I am worried that I will not be able to keep up with the pace of life and will fall behind before I am ready.

When the fireworks go off balloons will fall the ball it drops,
As the countdown to New Year's begins, there will be a moment of celebration and joy as the balloons and ball drop to signify the new year.

This is New Years,
The holiday is New Year's Eve, which is traditionally a time of reflection, celebration, and new beginnings.

I wanted to let you know,
I have something to say to you and I want to express my feelings.

I thought of you,
You have been on my mind and I cannot stop thinking about you.

It's all for you,
Everything I am doing or feeling right now is directly related to you and your impact on my life.

I changed the way,
I have altered my perspective on things and the way I view the world because of you.

I thought of you,
You continue to occupy my thoughts and I cannot get you out of my head.

Revolving you,
My thoughts and emotions are centered around you and the impact you have on my life.

The sun the moon,
The constant cycle of the sun and the moon, representing time and change, continue to affect me and influence my thoughts and feelings towards you.

And seasons change,
As the seasons change, so do my feelings and my perception of the world around me, particularly in relation to you.

They fall for you,
My emotions and feelings towards you are strong, and I cannot help but continue to think about you, even as time passes and things change.

The runaround,
I have been feeling restless and uncertain, as if I am not making progress or moving forward in my life.

Exhausted you,
My constant thoughts and feelings towards you have left me feeling drained and tired.

The snow we watched,
We have shared experiences and moments together, such as watching snowfall, that continue to have an impact on my emotions.

Defrosts to rain,
The things that were once beautiful and pure, like the snow we watched together, have melted away and become something less perfect, like rain.

It's pourin' down,
My emotions are overwhelming and consuming me, just like a heavy rainstorm.

On top of you,
My emotions and feelings are being directed towards you, in a way that is intense and all-encompassing.

The words we want, to take away,
There are things we have said to each other that we wish we could take back or undo, but we cannot.

So we take back the shit that we say cuz it got in the way,
The things we say and do to each other have caused problems in our relationship, and we wish we could undo or erase them.

All the feelins that stay will escape,
Despite our efforts to move past them, our feelings towards each other will continue to linger and impact us in unexpected ways.

But repeatedly come back on days like today,
On special occasions, like New Year's Eve, our feelings and emotions towards each other will resurface and we cannot escape them.

To display this array on my day, on my face it is written,
My emotions and feelings are visible to those around me, and I cannot hide the impact that you have on my life.

I can't stop and listen,
Despite my feelings towards you, I am unable to fully engage and listen to what you have to say.

I'm sittin' here wishin' that I could dismiss it,
I am struggling with my emotions and wish that I could ignore or dismiss them.

But the money and women don't help with decisions,
Material possessions and other people cannot solve or distract me from my emotional turmoil and my feelings towards you.

There's no place like home but I'm focused on livin',
While I miss the familiarity and comfort of home, I am focused on living my life and experiencing new things, even if it means enduring emotional hardship and uncertainty.

Don't know my limits,
I am unsure of my own limits and boundaries, particularly in regards to my emotions and feelings towards you.

The sky is my feelin',
My emotions are vast and all-encompassing, like the sky.

No fucks that I'm givin',
I am disregarding the opinions and feelings of others, and focusing solely on my own emotions and thoughts towards you.

I might need a minute,
Despite my bravado and disregard for others' opinions, I am struggling emotionally and may need a moment to collect myself.