Matthew Veselisin, known by his stage names bsd.u and monk., is a lo-fi bea… Read Full Bio ↴Matthew Veselisin, known by his stage names bsd.u and monk., is a lo-fi beats producer hailing from Vancouver Island.

Under the moniker bsd.u, pronounced "beside you," he gained significant popularity through his SoundCloud account during the platform's peak in the early and mid-2010s. Many of his tracks were featured in YouTube edits, contributing to his widespread recognition, and some of his works reached over a million plays on SoundCloud.

Throughout his career, Matthew has collaborated with other renowned SoundCloud artists such as bob le head, DJ YUNG VAMP, knowmadic, and slr.. He expanded his fanbase by joining the Inner Ocean Records collective, where he worked alongside fellow producers, releasing several projects, including the enigmatic cassette "leaving" in 2015 under his alter ego monk. The release received positive feedback from his audience and fellow beatmakers.

One of his most successful albums to date is "pook," released in 2017, which includes hit singles like the eponymous track "pook" and "_." Both singles surpassed one million plays in total.

In the past, Matthew maintained a Tumblr account and a Twitch channel, where he live-streamed beatmaking sessions, until he discontinued both in 2018. He later created a Discord server, where he actively engages with fans and shares excerpts of his work, as well as another Twitch channel for beatmaking sessions.

As an artist, he consistently delivers the signature low-key, lo-fi hip-hop sound that resonates with his audience, evoking a feeling of unwinding from a party while grooving to the music.

SUICIDE
bsd.u Lyrics

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Hey, Drive me crazy
夜にまたがれよ
俺の熱いシフト・レバー
握りしめて
Don't close your back door
鍵を渡すんだ
おまえの奥へと迎えてくれ
聞かせてみろよかすれた

エグゾースト・ノイズ今すぐ
Hey, Drive me crazy
刺し違えたいなら
最後の瞬間に突き立てろよ
憎しみあうくらいに
深まった愛なら
Love suicide
Gimmie,gimmie everything your
lovin'gimmie more
Gimmie,gimmie everything your
lovin' gimmie more

You drive me crazy
ぶち切れそうだぜ
Baby baby baby baby
行っちまえよ
爪を立てて互いを
削りあう今夜も
Love suicide oh, yeah
Gimmie,gimmie everything your
lovin' gimmie more
Gimmie,gimmie everything your
lovin' gimmie more
Gimmie,gimmie everything your
lovin' all night long
Gimmie,gimmie everything your
lovin' never mind
Gimmie,gimmie everything your
lovin' gimmie more

Gimmie,gimmie everything your
lovin' gimmie more

Overall Meaning

In "Suicide", bsd.u explores the intense and destructive power of love through a metaphor of a dangerous and thrilling car ride. The lyrics depict a passionate and reckless couple who are willing to go to extreme lengths for each other, even if it means risking their lives. The lines "Hey, Drive me crazy, don't close your back door, give me the key and let me into your world" suggest a desperate desire for emotional and physical intimacy. The lyrics also hint at emotional turmoil and pain, with the reference to "love suicide", indicating that the couple's love is ultimately self-destructive.

The chorus of "Gimmie,gimmie everything your lovin'gimmie more" reinforces the idea that the couple's love is all-consuming and addictive, leading them to crave more and more. The repetition of "gimmie" has a sense of urgency and desperation, as if the singer cannot live without the other person's love. The last lines of the song, "Gimmie, gimmie everything your lovin' gimmie more/ Lovin' all night long, lovin' never mind" imply a willingness to sacrifice everything for the sake of love.

Overall, "Suicide" is a haunting and powerful exploration of the joys and dangers of love, and the ways in which it can consume and destroy us.

Line by Line Meaning

Hey, Drive me crazy
The singer is expressing their intense desire for the addressee to stimulate them emotionally.

夜にまたがれよ
The singer wants to embark on a night journey with the addressee.

俺の熱いシフト・レバー握りしめて
The singer wants the addressee to hold tightly onto their shift lever, which represents their passion.

Don't close your back door
The artist wants the addressee to keep their emotional barriers down.

鍵を渡すんだおまえの奥へと迎えてくれ
The artist wants the addressee to open up to them and share their innermost self.

聞かせてみろよかすれたエグゾースト・ノイズ今すぐ
The singer urges the addressee to share their damaged and raw emotions with them immediately.

Hey, Drive me crazy刺し違えたいなら最後の瞬間に突き立てろよ憎しみあうくらいに深まった愛ならLove suicide
The singer wants to engage in a mutual destructive act of love with the addressee in their final moments of passion.

Gimmie,gimmie everything yourlovin'gimmie more
The artist wants the addressee to give them all their love and then some more.

You drive me crazyぶち切れそうだぜBaby baby baby baby行っちまえよ
The artist is feeling overwhelmed and urges the addressee to just take it all away.

爪を立てて互いを削りあう今夜も
The artist wants to engage in an intense battle with the addressee for their love and attention.

Love suicide oh, yeah
The singer is willing to risk everything, even their life, for a chance at love with the addressee.

Gimmie,gimmie everything yourlovin' gimmie more
The artist is insatiable in their desire for the addressee's love and wants even more.

Gimmie,gimmie everything yourlovin' all night longGimmie,gimmie everything yourlovin' never mind
The singer wants the addressee to give them all their love, even if it means sacrificing their own needs and desires.

Gimmie,gimmie everything yourlovin' gimmie moreGimmie,gimmie everything yourlovin' gimmie more
The singer's desire for the addressee's love is insatiable and they want more and more.

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Written by: ひろし山田

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