Disappear
demxntia Lyrics
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I hold so close to me
Fade away into the night
And hope it takes away the pain
If i fall asleep forever
For better or for worse
At least i won't be awake
To feel the guilt and regret
I can't even cry
If i wanted to
And i'm sorry that i lie
When i talk to you
I don't remember
The last time i smiled
And meant it
I can't remember
The last time
I felt something real
The lyrics to demxntia's song Disappear convey a sense of hopelessness and despair. The singer is struggling with inner turmoil and wants to disappear from everyone they hold close to them. They hope that fading away into the night will take away their pain. In fact, they would rather fall asleep forever rather than face the guilt and regret that they always knew would come.
The second verse suggests that the singer is so lost in their despair that they cannot even cry. They are sorry for lying when they speak to others, perhaps pretending that everything is okay when it is not. The singer reflects on the fact that they cannot remember the last time they genuinely smiled or felt something real.
Overall, the song Disappear is a poignant reflection on the deep pain that can afflict individuals. The lyrics capture the sense of wanting to escape and disappear completely from the world when faced with overwhelming emotions.
Line by Line Meaning
Disappear from everyone
I want to isolate myself from everyone in my life
I hold so close to me
Those people that I push away are actually very important to me
Fade away into the night
I wish to disappear into the darkness to avoid facing my problems
And hope it takes away the pain
I believe disappearing will be a cure for my pain
If i fall asleep forever
I'm considering suicide as an option to escape my pain
For better or for worse
This decision will have consequences for those who care about me
At least i won't be awake
I won’t have to face the consequences of my actions
To feel the guilt and regret
I’m struggling with the remorse of my past mistakes
I can't even cry
My emotional detachment has led me to the inability to cry
If i wanted to
I have suppressed my emotions for so long that it’s a challenge to express them
And i'm sorry that i lie
I feel guilt for not being truthful with the people around me
When i talk to you
Even with my loved ones, I struggle to open up about my true feelings
I don't remember
I can’t recall
The last time i smiled
The last time I genuinely experienced happiness
And meant it
When it was not forced, but truly felt
I can't remember
I am struggling with memory loss
The last time
The previous occurrence
I felt something real
The last time I had a genuine emotional connection with something or someone
Contributed by Jacob C. Suggest a correction in the comments below.
@gagabunny3364
Disappear from everyone
I hold so close to me
Fade away into the night
And hope it takes away the pain
If i fall asleep forever
For better or for worse
At least i won't be awake
To feel the guilt and regret
I always knew
I can't even cry
If i wanted to
And i'm sorry that i lie
When i talk to you
I don't remember
The last time i smiled
And meant it
I can't remember
The last time
I felt something real
@demxntia
now on all platforms <3
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@Skaibo
demxntia is someone saying "wow Demxntia!" in the beginning of your songs?
@demxntia
kai bo yep!
@Skaibo
demxntia ok thanks. I thought it was going to drive me crazy trying to find out if it was sampled from somewhere
@DaGrassBroskiis
Found this on spotify. Everything i hear in this track is beautiful. I fucking love this. Love the music, keep it up :)
@demxntia
DaGrassBroskiis thank you bro 🖤
@DaGrassBroskiis
demxntia no problem man ^-^. I hope you domt mind if I ask what kind of software you used for your music?
@demxntia
fl studio :)
@LeReal
insert sappy emo lofi channel comment
@suebphatt
I was on Spotify playing my favourite lo-fi playlist. This is the only song made me switch to the app and press save, then search for its source. I swear I'm not flattering you but this song is the king of the list obviously.