The Words I Should've Said
demxntia Lyrics

We both know I'm not the best at showing just how much I care
It's true that I struggle to express my feelings effectively

But every word you've ever said, just know that I'm not unaware
Despite my shortcomings, I pay attention to everything you say

Of all the little things you'd do, and everythings that makes you cute
I deeply appreciate all the small gestures and qualities that make you charming

Cuz I'd give up the world in a heartbeat
I would willingly sacrifice everything for you

Just to show that my love is true
To prove the sincerity of my love for you

And I know it's been a while, it's too late for me to say
It has been some time, and I feel that it's now too late to express

That I still really love your smile, and I regret it everyday
I still deeply cherish your smile, and I regret not expressing it every day

I lie awake, I'm stuck in bed
I find myself unable to sleep and trapped in my thoughts

I'm Thinking of the world's I never said
I am preoccupied with all the unspoken words that should have been shared

I lie awake, can't leave my bed
I remain in bed, unable to break free from this state of mind

Thinking of the words I should've said to you
Reflecting on the words that I should have expressed to you

And I know it sounds cliche, I'm writing letters in my songs
I understand it may seem cliché, but I pour my feelings into my music

Singing the same things over and over
Repeating the same sentiments again and again

Like now I'm sorry I was wrong
For instance, apologizing and admitting my mistakes

I know you hate when I apologize
I am aware that you dislike when I say sorry

And you hate that look inside my eyes
You despise the expression of remorse in my eyes

You tell me it's alright, but I still hate it when you cry
Although you reassure me, I still despise seeing you in tears

I lie awake, I'm stuck in bed
I find myself unable to sleep and trapped in my thoughts

I'm thinking of the words I never said
I am preoccupied with all the unspoken words that should have been shared

I lie awake, you're in my head
You occupy my mind as I remain in bed

Thinking of the words I shou'd have said to you
Reflecting on the words that I should have expressed to you

And now I've got you in my song, it's the least that I could do
Including you in my song is the minimum effort I can make

So anytime, just say the word
Anytime you want, just let me know

I'll do my best to make it up to you
I will exert maximum effort to make amends or fulfill your desires

Because there's nothing I wouldn't give to see you
I am willing to give absolutely everything to witness

Smile like you did
Your smile, just as you used to

And there's nothing I wouldn't do, for one more chance to be with you
I am ready to do anything for another opportunity to be by your side