monster
dodie Lyrics

Tell me again about how it hurts
Please remind me of the pain I caused you

Being awfully loud for an introvert
I'm breaking my usual silence to confront you

Get out of my room, smile wiped clean
I'm done pretending everything's okay

Isn't it weird to be so mean?
I don't recognize myself, I don't like who I've become

I'm guessing that I've grown horns
I feel like a monster, like I've become someone else entirely

I guess I'm human no more
My actions have made me feel inhuman

I can tell I've rotted in your brain
I can see the damage I've caused you, and it hurts

Oh, how easily passion twists
Strong emotions can easily lead to irrational behavior

You think I'm a crazy bitch
You have a negative opinion of me

I craft my words to fit your head
I'm trying to make you understand my point of view

'Cause no one listens to the dead
People don't care about the opinions of those who they feel have already lost

So maybe I will talk to you
I'm considering having a conversation with you

The only way I know how to
I don't know how else to approach this situation

Mhm, I've said my speech
I've rehearsed what I want to say to you

Mhm, through sharpened teeth
I'm being honest with you, even if it's difficult

You break the rules and spikes grow from your skin
Your behavior is causing harm to those around you

Please let the devil in
You need to deal with the consequences of your actions and admit to your mistakes

A meter apart, we blankly stare
We're both avoiding confrontation and not really communicating

We shout in our heads, "Are you still in there?"
We're both wondering if the other person is still reachable

Well, this ends bad then, we knew it would
We both expected this confrontation to end negatively

So we won't eat our words, 'cause they don't taste good
We refuse to back down from what we believe in

A thousand words are left unsaid
There's a lot that we both still need to express

So maybe I will talk to you
We need to have a dialogue to work through our issues

Mhm, through sharpened teeth
We need to be honest, even if it's uncomfortable

Oh, I think it might be worth a try
I'm hopeful that we can work through this

Oh, am I ready to let this die?
I'm questioning whether or not it's time to move on

Mhm, a monster's here
Our actions have turned us into unrecognizable and destructive beings

Mhm, you plug your ears
You're not willing to listen to what I have to say

But hey, you might just listen to it sing
You may want to pay attention to my words, even if they're hard to hear

Look, we know that I've seen this before
We've been in this situation before

High and mighty, at the top of your list
You've held power and authority over me

Adoring every move, now my rank is sinking
You used to admire me, but now you don't

But we're both guilty of black or white thinking
We tend to see things in extremes, and it's causing problems

And through my red eyes, you look pale
I'm angry and emotional, and you seem weak and unremarkable in comparison

All of your scars are looking more like scales
Your flaws are becoming more and more pronounced and unattractive

Two ugly creatures, two sinister preachers
We're both becoming monsters in each other's eyes

Blind to the past, like a couple of monsters
We're not learning from our past mistakes and are repeating them