May
flower of flesh and blood Lyrics

I hold you close but
I am physically close to you, but emotionally, you are distant from me.

I could tell you're a million miles away
Your actions and body language suggest a complete disconnect from me.

I need you to stay
I desire your presence in my life, and your leaving would cause me great sadness.

I'm losing sleep from all these rumbling demons in my head
My mind is plagued by intrusive, negative thoughts that keep me awake at night.

You're running away
You are avoiding me and trying to distance yourself from our relationship.

(Why are you running?)
I am questioning the reasons behind your emotional distance, and imploring for an explanation.

She's gorgeous
There is a woman in my life who is exceptionally beautiful and attractive.

Summer rose
She has a vibrant and radiant aura, reminiscent of the warmth and beauty of summer.

Flawless, winter snow
She is perfect and delicate, like the falling of snow in the wintertime.

She's calling
She is reaching out to me, sending me signals of attraction and interest.

So I gotta go
I feel compelled to pursue her and indulge in my desires.

Falling
I am diving headfirst into this love affair, and losing myself in the process.

Geronimo
I am making a reckless and daring decision, despite the potential consequences.

In the worst case I could lose an arm or a leg
The risks associated with my decision are severe and could lead to significant harm.

But never lose the words that you said(Wow)
Even if things go wrong, I will always remember the powerful impact that you had on me.

You told me that you've had it up till here
You expressed your dissatisfaction and frustration with our relationship.

Then you left
Following your declaration of frustration, you ended our relationship and went away.

Now I got a stranger in my bed (Wow)
I have sex with anonymous partners as a coping mechanism for my loneliness.

Know I gotta lotta personally
I have many personal issues and traumas that I must deal with.

Issues to deal with
I am battling internal demons and mental health problems that complicate my relationships.

You say "grab a tissue, on some real shit!
You are giving me a harsh truth and telling me to confront my problems honestly.

That's none of my business
You refuse to get involved in my personal affairs, and believe it is not your place to interfere.

You don't ever listen
Despite my warnings and advice, you consistently ignore my input and continue on a self-destructive path.

I ain't got the patience
I have run out of energy and willingness to deal with your issues and problems anymore.

Yeah you had a chance and you missed it!
You had an opportunity to improve and fix our relationship, but you failed to take action.

Now, I'm running, running
Like you, I am now fleeing from our relationship and its complications.

I don't wanna hear another sorry story
I am tired of the apologies and pitying remarks when things go wrong for you.

I don't wanna hear another sound
I am exhausted and overwhelmed by the drama and noise that seems to follow you everywhere.

Not another word
I am finished with this relationship, and do not want to hear anything more about it.

Tell em to another girl"
Go find another woman to confide in, as I am not interested in your problems anymore.

Born into a broken home, broken dreams
I come from a troubled and dysfunctional family, and have had to confront many disappointments.

Evidence, my broken soul
My inner self is fractured and wounded, as a result of my past traumas and struggles.

I find peace in this marijuana leaf
I use drugs and substances to numb my emotional pain and find temporary relief.

I don't feel the pain no more
The drugs have effectively blunted my emotional and psychological pain, allowing me to feel nothingness instead.

A little bit of wine and a little bit of ganja
I have a tendency to mix drugs and alcohol as a means of altering my state of mind and achieving a high.

Imma pop a pillie just to stop from going under
I use prescription medications to control my mood and stay afloat, even when I am overwhelmed.

They say "you're a hot mess!"
Others view me as unstable and chaotic, due to my substance use and emotional problems.

Why yessir,
I acknowledge and accept this label as true.

I'm kinda high and I'm tryna caress ya...
My substance use is affecting my judgment and behavior, and I am attempting to initiate physical intimacy with another person.