Hiding in the Dark
iamjakehill Lyrics

Have you ever fell apart?
Have you ever experienced a mental/emotional breakdown?

Tell me you know what it's like
Share your understanding and empathy for what I'm going through.

Hiding in the dark, always looking for the light
Feeling lost and searching for hope and positivity in a place of darkness.

I′ve been feeling so alone
Feeling isolated and disconnected from others.

I've been trapped in my mind
Feeling stuck in negative thoughts and emotions.

And it's all I′ve ever known, I′ve been dying inside
This has been a persistent and painful experience for me.

I don't know where to start, I got way too many questions
Feeling overwhelmed and unsure of how to move forward or find answers.

Bleeding from the heart, I can′t handle my reflection
Feeling emotionally vulnerable and struggling with self-image or self-worth.

Feel like no one's told me to look in myself
Feeling like I've never received guidance or encouragement to introspect and find self-awareness.

Try to do it on my own, but I really need help
Attempting to overcome this on my own, but recognizing that I require support and assistance.

Here wе go again, it's just another sad song
I feel like I'm repeating the same struggles and negative patterns.

Grab the mask and play pretеnd when everything is going wrong
Faking a facade of positivity and happiness, despite feeling overwhelmed and unhappy.

You say it′s okay, but I don't know how to feel
Others may reassure me, but I'm still struggling to find peace and positivity within myself.

Anything but cloudy gray so I take another pill
Attempting to avoid or numb negative emotions with substance use.

Leave me to burn, I'm crashing down
Feeling defeated and overwhelmed.

I didn′t mean to hurt you, I′m lashing out
Feeling guilty for the negative impact this is having on others, but struggling to control my emotions.

I don't think you understand it
Feeling misunderstood and unsupported.

That′s some pessimistic issues been so hard to manage
These persistent and negative thoughts and feelings are proving challenging to handle.

Damn, I'm coming undone, but I hang on tightly
Despite feeling like I'm falling apart, I'm holding onto hope and the desire to stay strong.

Don′t fall, is there anybody like me?
Feeling alone and wondering if others can relate to my experiences.

I need your voice, so make it loud and clear
Desiring support and encouragement from others to help lift me up.

I've tried to drown the noise and face all my fears
Attempting to avoid negative thoughts and confront my fears, but struggling to do so successfully.

I hide away, but I′ll find a way to make it out of this, and I promise
Withdrawing in times of distress, but committing to finding a way through this experience.

I'll get away 'cause there′s better days ahead
Believing that hopeful and positive times are yet to come.

That′s what you said, but
Others may provide reassurance, but I still struggle with negative thoughts and emotions.

Way too many nights to staring out into the void
Enduring many sleepless nights and struggling with negative thoughts and feelings.

I should jump but if I did another life will be destroyed
Contemplating self-harm or suicide, but recognizing the impact it would have on loved ones.

Maybe I'm useless, I′m just exhausted
Feeling worthless and drained from the mental and emotional struggles I'm enduring.

I've been counting my loses, now found what the cost is
Reflecting on the negative impact this has had on my life and relationships.

I′m down and low into the place I go
Feeling stuck in a negative mental/emotional state.

Where everything is crumbling and I lose hope
Feeling like my life and world are falling apart, and losing my sense of hope and optimism.

It's caving in, so just hold on close
Feeling overwhelmed and in need of support and comfort from others.

The storm is coming in, but nobody ever knows it
Anticipating further difficulty and distress, but feeling like others can't understand or acknowledge it.

I don′t ever show it
Struggling to externally express my negative thoughts and emotions.

Pencil to the paper, that's the way I've been coping
Using creative expression as a form of coping with my struggles.

Only damn roses, bring them to my grave, yeah
Feeling like my struggles are likely to persist throughout my life, and that only death will offer an end to them.

I′m sorry for the woes, I′ll be strong another day
Acknowledging my struggles and expressing a resolve to continue fighting and finding strength to endure.

I'm falling
Feeling like I'm losing control and slipping deeper into negative thoughts and emotions.