dying lately
iamjakehill Lyrics

You've got eyes like the sun and they've been burnin' me up
Your constant gaze and attention have drained me emotionally and mentally.

I feel the dread, no way around it, this has gone long enough
I sense an overwhelming feeling of anxiety and unease, this has been going on for too long.

So bring me down again just like you do when things get shaky
Your actions and behavior make me feel hopeless and broken, especially during tough situations.

I'm sorry for the mood, but I've been dying lately
I apologize for my negative behavior, but I've been in a terrible mental state lately.

Cold shoulders and a lack of closure
You have been ignoring me and avoiding any sort of resolution or closure.

My patience turned to paper, it's been awfully thin
My tolerance has diminished and my patience runs out easily.

I hate the way your halo shines so softly
I dislike how you come across as innocent and blameless even when you're not.

It's hard to see the way with all the fog we're in
Our current state is unclear and uncertain, making it difficult to navigate through our issues.

And darlin' you're the reason why I am who I am
You have had a significant influence on my personality and identity.

This you and I was a surprise, it wasn't part of the plan
Our relationship was unexpected and not something either of us had planned for.

You've probably never felt a heart so frozen
My heart has become numb and unfeeling, likely making it difficult for you to connect with me emotionally.

It never used to be this way 'til you came along
My emotional state has changed since our relationship began.

I like the way you hate the way you love me
You have conflicting feelings for me and it's intriguing to me.

It started off as friends and everything went wrong
Our relationship began as a friendship and gradually became strained and difficult.

Tell me how you really feel
Be honest with me about your true feelings.

Not what you think I wanna hear
Don't worry about saying what you think I want to hear, be truthful instead.

I've done all I can do on my end
I have put in all the effort I can from my side.

I'll pull you close and overdose
I'll give myself entirely to you, to the point of excess.

I'll love you 'til I'm comatose
My love for you is so consuming that it will leave me unconscious.

Together we'll fade like the light that we once were
Our relationship will eventually disappear and fade away, like a light that once burned brightly.

And tell me if you really care or if you're only standing there
Let me know if you truly care about me or if you're just physically present without any emotional investment.

'Cause half of you is too scared to leave
Half of you wants to stay but is afraid to commit, while the other half doesn't care enough to stay or go.

And maybe we could talk it out, but all you do is shut your mouth
We could try to communicate and work through our problems, but you refuse to talk or cooperate.

When I need your voice in my ears, there's no love here
When I need your emotional support, there's none to be found, indicating a lack of love in our relationship.

Yeah, I think we crossed the line
I believe we have gone too far beyond acceptable bounds or standards.

Probably went overtime
We have likely spent more time on something than was originally intended.

I'll try to say it's fine
I'll attempt to pretend that everything is okay.

I do this every time
I have a habit of pretending that everything is fine when it really isn't.

Now I can't hear myself
I'm unable to think clearly or hear my own thoughts over the noise and chaos.

Think when we're in the hell
It's difficult to remain level-headed when our situation feels like a living nightmare.

We put each other through
We are both causing hardship and emotional turmoil for each other.

I can't get over you
I find it impossible to move on from our relationship and what we've been through together.

Now what's the point of undressin'
There's no purpose in getting closer to each other if it only leads to more pain and suffering.

If we lay awake stressin'
If we continue to worry and agonize over our problems, we'll never find a solution.

I can feel you inside my soul
You have become deeply ingrained in my being and I can't escape your influence.

You lay your head on my chest
In intimate moments, you lean on me for support and comfort.

But you know we're such a wreck we're spinnin' out of control
We're in such a bad place emotionally that we're losing our grip and spiraling out of control.

No love, no love
There's no love left in our relationship.

You're stuck on my head
You occupy my mind and thoughts constantly.

You're my favorite shade of red
Despite everything, I still have strong feelings of affection for you.