state of mind
iamjakehill Lyrics

I thought I had it all figured out
I was confident in my understanding of life

I had to burn some bridges down
I had to sever ties with some people or situations

Don't want the world to see me now
I do not want anyone to witness my current state

Another lonely night that I fall inside my head (Get it together)
I experience a recurring feeling of isolation and despair (I need to regain my composure)

Then I crawl inside my bed (I'm like whatever)
Then I retreat to my bed (and adopt an apathetic attitude)

I don't care if I wake up
I have lost the will to live

This shit sucks
My current situation is unbearable

Got a bag that's packed and I'll test my luck
I am prepared to take risks and leave my current circumstances

I'm cliché, look, another sad song
I am aware that my struggles are not unique

And I've got the freeway in my sights
I am contemplating suicide by jumping in front of a car

Can I get some leeway even if I'm dead wrong?
Can I be forgiven, even if I am completely at fault?

I don't wanna say goodbye, but tonight I'm desperate
I do not want to die, but I feel like I have no other choice

So how do I learn to love myself if I hate everything else?
How can I improve my self-esteem when I despise my life?

Is anybody there to watch me drown?
Does anyone care enough to help me in my time of need?

Don't help, I've been beating myself down
Do not bother trying to help me, because I am my own worst enemy

Why do I even try? What a waste of time
Why do I bother making an effort? It feels like a pointless endeavor

I really gotta shake that state of mind
I need to change my negative mindset

I feel like I've been buried alive
I feel trapped and suffocated by my life

I'm running out of time
I feel like my time to improve my life is running out

I put a tough face on, don't give me questions
I pretend to be strong and do not want anyone to challenge me

I wander everywhere I go with no direction
I am lost and do not have a clear path or purpose

Don't see the point, I've been feeling paranoid
I do not see the reason for trying, and I feel fearful and suspicious

Try and drown out all the noise
I seek to escape my problems and negative thoughts

I can't handle my emotions
I feel overwhelmed by my feelings and unable to control them

Something's gotta give
Something needs to change or I will break down

These words will only get me so far
Talking about my problems can only do so much to help me

I scream out into nothing
I cry out for help, but no one hears me

I feel like I'm going nowhere fast, like the same old story
I feel like I am stuck in a never-ending cycle of failure and disappointment

Nothing ever new, I'm the world's most boring
My life is dull and uninteresting, and I feel like a failure

Tearing me apart from the inside
My struggles are causing me immense pain and distress

I don't wanna say goodbye, but tonight I'm desperate
I do not want to die, but I feel like I have no other choice

Why do I even try? What a waste of time
Why do I bother making an effort? It feels like a pointless endeavor

I really gotta shake that state of mind
I need to change my negative mindset

I feel like I've been buried alive
I feel trapped and suffocated by my life

I'm running out of time
I feel like my time to improve my life is running out