Where Have You Been
jay-z beanie sigel Lyrics

Damn how am I gonna say this shit?
Beanie Sigel is struggling to express his feelings.

Hey, hey dad, yeah it's your boy
Beanie Sigel is addressing his absent father.

Remember me? I wanna talk to you scrap
Beanie Sigel wants to confront his father for leaving him.

I remember being kicked out the house
Beanie Sigel was kicked out of his house for resembling his father.

'cause I looked just like you
Beanie Sigel looked identical to his father.

Said I'd be nothing but a crook
Beanie Sigel's father predicted that he would be a criminal.

Just like you
Just like his father.

The niggaz in the hood was shook
The people in the neighborhood were scared of Beanie Sigel's resemblance to his father.

Where the just like you
Where the exact copy of you.

'Cause all they said was little whitey look
People in the neighborhood said Beanie Sigel looked just like his white father.

But dog I can't see it at all, shit
Beanie Sigel can't see the similarities himself.

We never kicked it at all
Beanie Sigel and his father never spent time together.

We never pitched or kicked at a ball
Beanie Sigel's father never taught him how to play sports.

Dog, you never taught me shit
Beanie Sigel's father never taught him anything valuable.

How to fight, ride a bike, fix a flat
Beanie Sigel's father neglected to teach him basic skills.

None of that sorts of shit
None of those things he neglected to teach him.

Nigga you was an abusive pops
Beanie Sigel's father was an abusive parent.

Fuck you left me out to dry, stuck
Beanie Sigel's father abandoned him and left him to fend for himself.

Gotta teach news to box
Beanie Sigel had to learn how to fight on his own.

Gotta teach news to bop
Beanie Sigel had to learn how to dance on his own.

And that aint the half of it man
Beanie Sigel's father's neglect was only part of the problem.

I gotta teach news to block
Beanie Sigel had to learn how to survive in his tough neighborhood.

It's about time we have a father to son (nigga sit down)
Beanie Sigel wants to have a conversation with his father.

Sit down let me tell you 'bout your fatherless sons
Beanie Sigel wants to discuss the impact of his father's absence.

How they grew to be men and father they sons
Beanie Sigel overcame his father's absence and became a father himself.

Father they daughters
Beanie Sigel also has daughters who are impacted by his father's absence.

Nigga, you left a fatherless daughter
Beanie Sigel has a sister who is also impacted by their father's absence.

I never follow your orders
Beanie Sigel never obeyed his father's commands.

Nigga you make me sick
Beanie Sigel is disgusted by his father's behavior.

Pussy you could, ooh
Beanie Sigel is insulting his father.

How you gonna leave these memories in the back of my mind
Beanie Sigel is haunted by memories of his father.

I can see it clear as day you smackin my mom
Beanie Sigel recalls his father hitting his mother.

I 'member that day you showed me that gat, that 9
Beanie Sigel remembers his father giving him a gun as a child.

Put it in my palm when I was young
Beanie Sigel was given a gun at a young age.

And said that would be mine, you turned me out
Beanie Sigel's father encouraged him to be a criminal.

The reason why I hit the block
Beanie Sigel turned to selling drugs to survive.

Reason why I tried to hit them cops
Beanie Sigel became involved in violent encounters with the police.

Reason why I started hittin shots
Beanie Sigel turned to shooting people to protect himself.

Reason why I started gettin licked
Beanie Sigel started using codeine syrup.

And drinkin syrup and skippin court
Beanie Sigel started abusing drugs and skipping court appearances.

Ginger bread man never think of gettin caught
Beanie Sigel was overconfident in his ability to evade the law.

Look at your hand man damn you fought
Beanie Sigel sees evidence of the violence in his father's life.

Nigga you left my mom
Beanie Sigel's father abandoned his mother.

Left us with no good-bye's
Beanie Sigel's father disappeared without saying goodbye.

You left us out to dry
Beanie Sigel's father left him and his family to fend for themselves.

You left us with no letters, notes, (nothing!) no replies
Beanie Sigel's father didn't leave behind any explanation for his absence.

No digits numbers was unlisted
Beanie Sigel's father didn't leave a phone number or any way to contact him.

You left us with some of my loneliest night
Beanie Sigel was left feeling alone without his father.

Nigga some of my hungriest nights
Beanie Sigel and his family struggled financially without his father's support.

Shit, one of the reasons for years (shit embarrasin)
Beanie Sigel was ashamed to have grown up without a father.

Damn we used to think money was white
Beanie Sigel and his friends used to associate money with white people.

Yeah you gave us life like, fruit from a plant
Beanie Sigel's father was responsible for bringing him into the world.

We aint eat right from them foods from them stamps
Beanie Sigel and his family relied on government assistance.

And to think you was my pop,
Beanie Sigel reflects on what it means to have an absent father.

Man I gotta stop shit
Beanie Sigel is overwhelmed by his emotions.

Daddy, Where Have You Been?
Beanie Sigel is asking his father where he's been all this time.

And when you come home, you got us here all alone
Beanie Sigel will be waiting for his father when he returns.

Mommy, Where Daddy Went?
Beanie Sigel's mother doesn't know where their father went.

You always stick up for him
Beanie Sigel's mother defends his father.

Always said you'd make up for him
Beanie Sigel's mother promised to make up for his father's absence.

What happened then?
Beanie Sigel wants to know what happened between his parents.

What was you cheatin on him?
Beanie Sigel accuses his mother of cheating on his father.

Why he's always beatin' on you?
Beanie Sigel wants to know why his father was violent towards his mother.

Nigga, you gonna hear me out
Beanie Sigel is demanding to be heard by his father.

I wanted to walk just like him (remember?)
Beanie Sigel admired his father and wanted to be like him.

Wanted to talk just like him (word)
Beanie Sigel imitated his father's way of speaking.

Often momma said I look too much
Beanie Sigel's mother discouraged him from resembling his father.

And I thought just like him (it could happen)
Beanie Sigel inherited his father's way of thinking.

Wanted to drink Miller nips
Beanie Sigel imitated his father's drinking habits.

And smoke Newports just like you
Beanie Sigel imitated his father's smoking habits.

But you left me, now I'm goin to court just like you
Beanie Sigel is facing legal consequences just like his father.

I would say "my daddy loves me and he'll never go away"
Beanie Sigel used to believe that his father loved him.

Bullshit, do you even remember December's my birthday?
Beanie Sigel is angry that his father forgot his birthday.

Do you even remember the tender boy
Beanie Sigel wants his father to remember him as a child.

You turned into a cold young man
Beanie Sigel became hardened by his father's absence.

With one goal and one plan
Beanie Sigel became focused on survival.

Get mommy out of some jam, she was always in one
Beanie Sigel wanted to help his mother out of financial troubles.

Always short with the income
Beanie Sigel's family struggled financially.

Always late with the rent
Beanie Sigel's family had trouble paying rent on time.

You said that you was comin through
Beanie Sigel's father promised to come through but never did.

I would stay in the hallway (waitin)
Beanie Sigel waited for his father but he never came.

Always playin the bench (waitin)
Beanie Sigel was always on the sidelines waiting for his father.

And that day came and went
Beanie Sigel's father never came back.

Fuck You! very much you showed me the worst kind of pain
Beanie Sigel is expressing anger and pain towards his father.

But I'm stronger and trust me I will never hurt again
Beanie Sigel is resilient and has overcome his pain.

Will never ask mommy "why daddy don't love me?
Beanie Sigel has come to terms with his father's absence.

Why is we so poor?, why is life so ugly?
Beanie Sigel used to lament his family's financial struggles.

Mommy why is your eyes puffy?
Beanie Sigel is asking his mother why she's been crying.

Please don't cry everything'll be alright
Beanie Sigel is trying to comfort his mother.

I know it's dark now, but we gon' see the light
Beanie Sigel believes that things will get better.

It's us against the world
Beanie Sigel and his mother are in this together.

We don't need him, right? (right)
Beanie Sigel and his mother don't need his father in their lives.

Mommy drivin 6's now (yeah), I got riches now (yeah)
Beanie Sigel and his mother are doing well financially.

I bought I nice home for both of my sisters now
Beanie Sigel has taken care of his sisters.

We doin real good
Beanie Sigel and his family are doing well.

We don't miss you now
Beanie Sigel doesn't miss his father anymore.

See how life twists around, fucker?
Beanie Sigel has turned his life around despite his father's absence.