My Life
jj Lyrics

This song is dedicated to my life
The song is about the artist's life and experiences.

And to anyone else who's dealing with a hard time in their lives
The song is also for anyone going through a difficult time.

Need that music to vent to?
This song can be used as a means of release or expression.

To vibe to?
This song can also be enjoyed for its musical elements.

Here it is
The artist is presenting the song.

A life gets born
A person's life begins.

In a world that's filled with so much pain
The world is full of suffering.

So much pain
The pain is overwhelming.

A life (Untold)
An untold life is about to be told.

Gets exposed for me to tell
The artist is exposing his life story.

My life
The artist is talking about his own life.

A baby seed from the 90s was born in 96
The artist was born in the 90s, specifically in 1996.

He would grow up as an lunatic that couldn't be fixed
The artist grew up struggling with mental illness.

His brain would throw a fit when it didn't want to be bothered
The artist's brain would react negatively to certain stimuli.

He grew up all alone without a mother and father
The artist did not have parents around while growing up.

Because of that (He took a step back from his dreams)
The artist had to put aside his dreams due to his difficult upbringing.

He needed green (So he started work at age 14)
The artist needed money and began working at a young age.

He ran out of plans for a future strategy
The artist did not have a clear plan for his future.

That would of helped him and his family escape tragedies
A plan could have helped him and his family avoid tragic circumstances.

Whatever he planned (He had no strength to pursue it)
The artist lacked the motivation to follow through with plans.

The only thing he ever cared about in life was the music
Music was the artist's passion and focus.

It saved his life and calmed his brain down when it wanted to kill
Music served as a coping mechanism and helped the artist through dark times.

Or lay his body on the debt filled with dozens of bills
Music was a way to escape the stress of financial difficulties.

That he couldn't pay on time (The biggest bill was the mortgage)
The artist struggled financially, specifically with paying his mortgage.

He had to drop out of college cause he couldn't afford it
The artist could not afford to continue his education and had to drop out.

And he didn't enjoy it cause it would add to his stress
School added to the artist's stress and did not bring him enjoyment.

And what he planned to write next would add it in to his death (He says)
The pressure of writing music added to the artist's stress and could potentially lead to his death.

Another day, (Another mess) he had to clean up
The artist faced constant struggles and had to deal with them daily.

Between depression and life (He couldn't rest cause he was stuck)
The artist was trapped between his mental health struggles and the everyday demands of life.

In a cycle that he couldn't break to pieces
The artist could not break free from the cycle of struggles he faced.

The criticizing (People) around him said he was making excuses
Others did not understand the artist's struggles and accused him of making excuses.

He used that energy to boost in his music
The artist used the negative energy directed towards him to fuel his music.

To forget about the times when he wanted to lose it
Music was a means of escape from negative thoughts and emotions.

The controversy (Struck him) where his brain would feel it
Controversy in his personal or professional life would affect the artist's mental health.

Disappointment and doubt is what he started to deal with
The artist began to face feelings of disappointment and doubt.

Adding more to the pile of his notes and regrets
The artist's struggles continued to weigh on him and were reflected in his music.

He wore his brain out when he used it to block away the stress
The artist would use his brain to try to push away the stress he felt.

But it forced him to reminisce a fact that was true
Trying to push away stress would make the artist remember difficult truths.

And it was (That he barely made it out of high school)
The artist struggled academically and barely graduated from high school.

Cause all the bullies and the hate (Made him an shell of a man)
The artist was bullied and faced hate, causing negative effects on his mental health.

On top of fighting his illness that no one seemed to understand
In addition to facing bullying and hate, the artist also struggled with a mental illness that went unacknowledged by others in his life.

And the more they didn't understand would make him more depressed
The lack of understanding from others would worsen his depression.

And what he planned to write next would add a hint to his death (He says)
The pressure of writing music added to the artist's stress and could potentially lead to his death.

He struggled (Working retail to get by)
The artist worked a retail job just to make ends meet.

He knew that money was evil enough to dress in disguise
The artist knew that money could be a negative influence in people's lives.

Behind his pride (He would save for some studio time)
The artist would save money to be able to record his music.

Behind his eyes (He would fantasize a life inside a prime)
The artist dreamed of a more ideal life with more opportunities.

But was it worth to cherish what was never there?
The artist questioned whether it was worth it to hold onto unrealistic dreams.

If opportunities were rare to come for him to be scared and never take them
The artist was afraid of never having opportunities and not taking advantage of them when they did come.

As guilt (Prepares to strike when he chokes)
The artist feels guilt and pressure when he struggles to achieve his goals.

A scent of failure's set to fly into his nostril holes
The artist feels a sense of impending failure and struggle.

Stuck with a choice of either staying or escaping his past
The artist has to decide whether to stay in his current situation or try to move on from his past.

That included comfort in his zone that always helped him relax
The artist finds comfort in his familiar environment.

If an example came to re-define the curse that was him
The artist wishes someone would come along and break the negative patterns in his life.

It would of proved that he was innocent from all the sin
A positive change in the artist's life would prove that he was not responsible for all the negativity he faced.

But once again he had to suffer thru what could be eternal
However, the artist continues to struggle with the same issues with little hope of change.

He wants to die so badly that he drew his life into a circle
The artist is dealing with suicidal thoughts and feels stuck in a cycle of pain and suffering.

His final (Debt) would trigger up the hint to his death
The artist's final financial burden would push him closer to suicide.

And found suicide (Repeating) out the threats that he left (It said)
The threat of suicide looms large in the artist's life and thoughts.

My life
The song's chorus emphasizes that the artist is telling his own life story.

My life
The chorus repeats to emphasize the focus on the artist's life.

My life
The chorus emphasizes the artist's ownership of his life story.