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k.flay Lyrics

Maybe I've been slipping back, heading south, carsick on a Tuesday
I'm feeling lost and directionless, like I'm regressing and moving further from where I want to be in life.

Missing cash, blacking out, heartless in a few ways
I've been self-destructive and careless lately, and it's taking a toll on my emotional wellbeing.

Shit for luck, elbows shredded, I held things steady like too late
I've had a string of bad luck and difficult experiences, but I've still managed to keep going and maintain some semblance of stability.

Please calm the fuck down, I'll do whatever you say
I'm feeling overwhelmed and in need of guidance, and I'm willing to follow someone else's lead for a while.

I get it, I get it, I'm living too hard and it's time that I stop it
I recognize that my behaviors are unhealthy and I need to make changes to improve my life.

But rising on up and then tumbling down well it's part of the process
I understand that there will be ups and downs in life, and I need to accept that as part of the journey.

Bar tabs on a hot night in a cold basement
I'm engaging in reckless behavior and ignoring my problems rather than confronting them.

You say I'm crazy but I feel amazing
Others may judge me for my choices, but in the moment I feel invigorated and alive.

I can't sleep, I hope I stay awake
My mind is racing and I don't want to lose any time to sleep when there's so much going on.

'Cause I've been running, running, running all day
I've been non-stop busy and active, possibly trying to avoid dealing with my problems by staying distracted.

Long nights, no peace, I feel like everybody's eyes on me
I'm anxious and self-conscious, feeling like I'm being constantly watched and judged by others.

Maybe I've been freaking out, moving quick, burning the wick at both ends
I'm pushing myself to my limits and beyond, stressing out and putting myself in danger.

Screaming loud, stupid shit, scaring all of my old friends
I'm acting out and behaving erratically, alienating those who used to know me well.

Fell down on Bedford, hope that it's not broken
I've taken a physical tumble, perhaps as a result of my carelessness and recklessness.

Safe to say I might have had too much of some of these potions
I've been using substances to help me cope with my problems, but it's starting to backfire and create new issues.

I love you so much, I'm staying here all night
I've found someone who provides me with comfort and stability, and I don't want to leave their side.

Don't want to get up, I don't want to stop, I don't want to close my eyes
I'm afraid to face reality and would rather stay in this moment forever, even if it's not sustainable.

I'd rather not give a fuck and end up with some scars
I'm adopting a reckless attitude towards life, not caring about the consequences and willing to take risks that may harm me in the long run.

The night's just long enough for me to build it all and let it fall apart
I'm seeking temporary pleasures and thrills in the moment, even if they will ultimately lead to my downfall.

My mother told me that the world has got it's plans
My mother has tried to teach me that there is a larger force at work in the world that I cannot control or understand.

I wanna hold 'em 'til they burn right through my hands
I want to take control of my life and the plans that the world has for me, even if it means facing pain and struggle.

Don't ask me questions cause I'm tired of confessing
I'm tired of having to explain my actions and just want to be left alone with my own thoughts.

And I know that it's not much to say but I swear that I'd like to change
I recognize that I need to make changes in my life and that simply acknowledging that fact is not enough.