Bittersweet Poetry
kanye west Lyrics

Bittersweet
The conflicting emotions and feelings that come with love and relationships

You're gonna be the death of me
This relationship is causing so much pain that it feels like it could be deadly

I don't want you, but I need you
Despite not wanting to be in this relationship, there is still an intense emotional need to be with this person

I love you and hate you at the very same time
There is a deep and complicated mix of emotions, both positive and negative, towards this person

See what I want so much, shit never hurt this bad
The intense desire for this relationship is causing immense pain and heartache

Never did this before, that's what the virgin says
This is a new experience and it's difficult to navigate

We've been generally warned, that's what the surgeon says
Others have warned about the risks and dangers of this relationship

God talk to me now, this is an emergency
Praying for guidance and help during a difficult time

And she claim she only with me for the currency
There are doubts about the other person's motivations and intentions in the relationship

You cut me deep bitch, cut me like surgery
The words and actions of the other person are causing deep emotional wounds

And I was too proud to admit that it was hurting me
Feeling ashamed and unable to express the pain caused by the relationship

I'd never do that to you, at least purposely
Still trying to maintain some level of respect and integrity in the relationship

We breaking up again, we making up again
The relationship is tumultuous and constantly on the verge of ending

But we don't love no more, I guess we fucking then
Despite the lack of love, there is still a physical and emotional connection

Have you ever felt you ever want to kill her?
Expressing the intense anger and frustration that can come with relationship troubles

And you mix them emotions with tequila
Alcohol and emotional turmoil create a volatile combination

And you mix that with a little bad advice
Bad decisions in the midst of emotional chaos

On one of those bad nights, ya'll have a bad fight
Frequently having intense arguments and fights

And you talking 'bout her family, her aunts and shit
Bringing up sensitive topics and hurting the other person

And she say "Motherfucker, yo momma's a bitch!"
Responding with equally hurtful and disrespectful comments

You know, domestic drama and shit, all that attitude
The complicated and painful dynamics of a dysfunctional relationship

I'll never hit a girl, but I'll shake the shit outta you!
Not resorting to physical violence, but still feeling the intensity of the situation

But I'mma be the bigger man, Big Pimpin' like Jiggaman
Trying to rise above the drama and be the better person

Oh I guess I figure it's
Realizing that despite the pain, the relationship is still worth fighting for

And my nigga said I shouldn't let it worry me
Seeking advice and guidance from friends

I need to focus on the girls we getting currently
Trying to distract from the problems in the relationship by pursuing other women

But I been thinking and it got me back to sinking and
Despite the distractions, the problems in the relationship continue to weigh heavy

This relationship it even got me back to drinking all this
Turning to alcohol to cope with the pain and stress of the relationship

Hennessy
Specifically, a type of cognac, but also represents the numbing effects of alcohol

And I always thought that you having our child was our destiny
Believing that starting a family together was the ultimate goal

But I can't even vibe with you sexually
The emotional and relationship problems have even affected the physical intimacy between them

'Cause every time I would try, you would question me
Feeling judged and unable to truly connect during intimate moments

Saying "You fucking them girls, disrespecting me?
Accusing the other person of cheating and being unfaithful

You don't see how ya lies is affecting me
Feeling betrayed and hurt by lies and deception from the other person

You don't see how our life was supposed to be
Feeling like the relationship has deviated from the path and plan they had envisioned

And I never let a nigga get that close to me
Revealing vulnerability and emotional attachment that is uncommon

And you ain't cracked up to what you was supposed to be
Feeling disappointed and let down by the other person's actions and behaviors

You always gone, you'll always be where them hoes'll be"
Accusing the other person of cheating and being unfaithful

And this the first time she ever spilled her soul to me
Despite the difficulties, there are moments of emotional honesty and connection