BULLDOG
laundry day Lyrics

Stuck in the middle of selfless and selfish
I am struggling to balance being there for you and taking care of my own needs

Dammit, I cannot help it that I cannot help you
I feel frustrated that I can't fix your problems or make you happy

But I wanna help you
Despite my own limitations, I still want to support and assist you

I cannot muster up courage to tell you
I am afraid to express my true feelings to you

That you should see light at the end of the tunnel
I believe that there is hope and a positive outcome for your situation

But you only smile if you don't feel happy
I can tell that you are only putting on a happy face to please others, even when you're not actually happy

Truth is I'd rather see your face again and save the planet
Being with you means more to me than any grand accomplishments or saving the world

I'd rather hold your hand and make a statement
Expressing our love and commitment to each other is more important to me than making any other kind of statement

Make a name for being that I created
I am driven to achieve something significant, not just for myself, but for the both of us

Made a plan and ruled the nation
I want to be in control and successful in order to provide a better life for us

But if you decide to stay then I'll just have stay, aw nah
If you choose to remain in the current situation, I'll have to do the same, even if it's not what I truly want

'Cause I'd rather not wait for ya
I don't want to waste any time in being with you and building our relationship

I'd rather get straight to it
I want to dive right into our relationship without any delays or distractions

I'd hate to put the brakes on it
I don't want anything to stop or slow down our relationship

Remember when you got your braces off, yeah
I have fond memories of milestones in our relationship that represent our history together

And that shit went on and changed the story
Small events, like getting braces off, can have a big impact on our relationship and its trajectory

All these boys came fighting for it
Other people have seen the value in our relationship and have tried to come between us

I knew you were always special
I have always recognized and appreciated your unique qualities and how they make you stand out to me

I guess I believe in love, but fuck it
Although I believe in love, sometimes it's frustrating and difficult to navigate

You're not my husband you're something other than my girlfriend
Our relationship doesn't fit neatly into traditional labels or roles

Reside in my double bed that's trapped
Our relationship is confined to a small space, and there may be obstacles or challenges we have to face

In the back corner of my bedroom it's plain
Our relationship is not flashy or showy, but it still holds great value and importance

I love a poster of your body plastered over white paint
I appreciate and cherish everything about you, even something as small as a poster on my wall

To scratches from the time I punched the wall like a crackhead
I've expressed my frustration or anger in ways that aren't healthy or productive

After I thought someone was coming
I have felt under attack or in danger in my own space, which has affected my behavior and emotions

It'll all change when I'm 21 (-ming)
I have hopes and expectations that things will improve or be resolved when I reach a certain age or milestone

And I'm out the house and my friends are gone
Once I am independent and on my own, I hope to have more control and freedom in my life

And I won't have to keep keeping secrets
Once I have more independence and control, I hope to be able to be more open and honest about my feelings and actions

Passport in my Louis Vuitton
I have aspirations to travel and explore the world with you

Talking won't be such a burden
I hope to be able to communicate more easily and freely once I have achieved independence and control

I'll have figured it out by then
I have hopes and expectations that I will have a better understanding of myself and my situation once I am more independent and in control

I'll have you all to myself, like I wish I did
I hope to have a more exclusive and committed relationship with you once I am more independent and in control

And yellow shorts back when I was just a little bit younger
I have nostalgic memories of our past and how they have shaped our current relationship

I was just a little more nervous
I was more unsure and anxious about expressing my feelings and pursuing our relationship in the past

And you were sat 'round here, but my eyes kept being averted
Even when you were physically present, I was too nervous or unsure to fully engage with you

And this a long road 'til the finish
Our relationship is a journey with many ups and downs, and there is still a long way to go

Just a long road 'til we make it
Despite the challenges and obstacles, I believe we can make it through and have a successful relationship

And little speed bumps won't shake it
I believe that small, temporary setbacks won't derail our relationship in the long run

Look into my shades, you're the greatest
I see you as the most important and valuable person in my life, and I want you to know that

Took me down into the bucket
I have felt defeated or overwhelmed by the challenges in our relationship

It's a little hard not to see it parting
I am aware of the possibility of our relationship ending, and it worries me

I'd be lying if I lied and said it started that 17th
Our relationship has a complex history, and it didn't necessarily start on a specific date or event

If you could relive it now, then you wouldn't leave me now
If we could go back in time and change things, perhaps our relationship would be stronger and more successful now

Oh, I'd hate to save it for a rainy day
I don't want to put our relationship on hold or delay our happiness for any reason

I'd hate to save it for a rainy day, oh
I am emphasizing my desire to focus on our relationship and not worry about the future or potential challenges