Even After Everything
lily rose Lyrics
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That wrap-around ain't ever heard before
You dragged my name through the dirt
Kissed my friend 'cause you knew it'd hurt
You should be my enemy
And I should make you dead to me
But even after everything
We've done to each other
I still pick it up if I saw your number
Forget you put me through the place
You told me to go
I swear to God I can't tell you no
Even after all the he said, she said
I don't, you did
Truth is I still want you more than anything
Even after everything
Even after everything
I'd drop the act if you said, "Drop by"
Tried to hate you once and I just loved you twice
As much as I ever did
My heart ain't listening
Even after everything
We've done to each other
I'd still pick it up if I saw your number
Forget you put me through the place
You told me to go
I swear to God I can't tell you no
Even after all the he said, she said
I don't, you did
Truth is, I still want you more than anythingEven after everything
Even after everything
I tried, I tried, I tried, I tried
Moving on
I lied, I lied, I lied, I lied
To myself for way too damn long
'Cause even after everything
We've done to each other
I'd still pick it up if I saw your number
Forget you put me through the place
You told me to go
I swear to God I can't tell you no
Even after all the he said, she said
I don't, you did
Truth is I still want you more than anything
Even after everything
Even after everything
In "Even After Everything," Lily Rose captures the emotional turmoil that arises from a complicated and often painful relationship. The opening lines introduce the setting—an intimate conversation on a porch—where raw and previously unspoken feelings come to light. This moment is reflective of a deep connection that exists despite the hurt. The lyrics quickly delve into themes of betrayal and heartbreak, particularly when the singer describes how their partner has hurt them, such as dragging their name through the dirt and kissing someone who is close to them. This sense of betrayal amplifies the feelings of confusion and pain, suggesting that betrayal can come from those we trust most. Through this depiction, the song delves into the darker aspects of love and the emotional scars left in the wake of chaos.
The chorus serves as a poignant declaration of the paradox of love and hurt, highlighting the internal struggle of the singer. Even after experiencing pain and betrayal, there remains an overwhelming desire for reconnection—a pull that feels insatiable. Lines like "I still pick it up if I saw your number" reflect the complexity of the emotions involved, where love persists despite the transgressions. The desire to forget the past and the hurt caused by their partner adds layers to the narrative, as the singer grapples with the realization that they still want the relationship to continue, regardless of the tumultuous journey they've shared. This conflict between head and heart captivates the listener, illustrating how love can often transcend reason.
As the song progresses, the singer expresses an intense longing and a willingness to let go of their facade. The phrase "I'd drop the act if you said, 'Drop by'" indicates a readiness to forgive and reconnect, highlighting the depth of their feelings. This moment signifies vulnerability, revealing how love's grip can make it challenging to move on, even when one recognizes the need to do so. The lines indicate a struggle with the idea of pretending to have moved on when the singer's heart remains firmly rooted in love for the other person. The persistence of these feelings, even amidst the pain and chaos, illustrates that love is not easily dismissed, which many listeners can relate to in their own experiences.
The concluding feelings presented in the song encapsulate a sense of defeat against the inevitable pull of love. The repetition of "I tried, I tried, I tried" and the admission of lying to oneself highlight the emotional exhaustion that comes from wrestling with one's desires in the face of pain. It's a poignant reminder of the difficulty of moving forward—perhaps because old wounds continue to hold emotional weight. Ultimately, this song paints a visceral picture of how love persists in the face of adversity, demonstrating that even when everything feels broken and irreparable, a deep-seated connection can endure. The refrain, "Even after everything," serves as a powerful declaration of resilience, showing that love, in its many forms, can remain actionable and alive, no matter the history shared.
Line by Line Meaning
We said some things out on the porch
We shared intimate and perhaps painful conversations in a private setting.
That wrap-around ain't ever heard before
The depth of our discussion revealed thoughts and feelings that were unfamiliar to us.
You dragged my name through the dirt
You smeared my reputation and hurt me by speaking negatively about me.
Kissed my friend 'cause you knew it'd hurt
You intentionally hurt me by pursuing a romantic gesture with someone I care about.
You should be my enemy
Given the pain you've caused, we should be adversaries.
And I should make you dead to me
I ought to completely erase you from my life and my thoughts.
But even after everything
Despite all the complications and pain in our past,
We've done to each other
the hurtful actions we both inflicted upon one another,
I still pick it up if I saw your number
I would still answer your calls, despite the history between us.
Forget you put me through the place
I try to overlook the difficult situations and emotional turmoil you caused.
You told me to go
You instructed me to leave or end our relationship.
I swear to God I can't tell you no
I find it impossible to refuse you or ignore my feelings for you.
Even after all the he said, she said
Regardless of all the gossip or rumors about our relationship,
I don't, you did
I didn't initiate these issues; you were responsible for them.
Truth is I still want you more than anything
The reality is, my desire for you surpasses all the pain and conflict.
Even after everything
Despite all the chaos that has transpired,
Even after everything
the persistent emotions I have for you remain.
I'd drop the act if you said, 'Drop by'
I would abandon my pretense of indifference if you reached out to me.
Tried to hate you once and I just loved you twice
I attempted to cultivate hatred towards you, but my affection only grew stronger.
As much as I ever did
I find myself loving you even more than before.
My heart ain't listening
Despite my rational thoughts, my emotions are not aligned.
Even after everything
In spite of all that has happened between us,
We've done to each other
the conflicts and misunderstandings we both endured,
I'd still pick it up if I saw your number
I would still welcome your calls without hesitation.
Forget you put me through the place
I strive to ignore the emotional struggles you caused me.
You told me to go
You were the one who suggested we part ways.
I swear to God I can't tell you no
I firmly believe I cannot reject you or my feelings.
Even after all the he said, she said
Regardless of the rumors and gossip we've faced,
I don't, you did
I was not the instigator; you were the one who caused the issues.
Truth is, I still want you more than anything
The reality is that my longing for you is greater than any other desire I have.
Even after everything
Despite the tumultuous journey we've been on,
Even after everything
my feelings for you endure.
I tried, I tried, I tried, I tried
I made numerous attempts to move on from you.
Moving on
I was focused on getting past our relationship.
I lied, I lied, I lied, I lied
I repeatedly deceived myself about my feelings.
To myself for way too damn long
For an extended period, I convinced myself of falsehoods.
Cause even after everything
Because despite all that we've faced,
We've done to each other
the mutual struggles and pains we inflicted,
I'd still pick it up if I saw your number
I would still respond positively if you contacted me.
Forget you put me through the place
I try to overlook the dark moments you led me to.
You told me to go
You were the one who encouraged our separation.
I swear to God I can't tell you no
I truly believe I cannot deny you or my feelings for you.
Even after all the he said, she said
No matter the rumors or opinions expressed by others,
I don't, you did
I'm not the one who created these problems; you are.
Truth is I still want you more than anything
The undeniable truth is that my desire for you remains stronger than anything else.
Even after everything
Despite all that has transpired between us,
Even after everything
my feelings for you persist.
Lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, CONCORD MUSIC PUBLISHING LLC
Written by: Paul Charles Digiovanni, Seth William Ennis, Andrew Paul Albert, Lily Rose Williamson
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