Heavy Heart
mothica Lyrics


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I thought colour didn't suit me, so I didn't try,
Pitch black, but they still pursue me,
Guess I wasn't right,
Maybe if I try to make them like me,
Smile little wider, seeming bright,
They won't ask to see the darkness I've been hiding,
I'm not hiding cause...
Heavy hearts fall faster,
Every hurt last longer,
Every fall hits harder,
And I won't apologise for who I am,
And I am,
And I am,
And I am,
Not for who I am,
Am,
Am,
Heavy hearted,

You thought I was overtaking, but you didn't see,
I know myself and I'm not so weak,
Maybe if you try to understand it,
Open up your heart and dont be scared,
Of what I've been feeling my whole life,
I'm not hiding cause...

Heavy hearts fall faster,
Every hurt last longer,
Every fall hits harder,
And I won't apologise,

Heavy hearts fall faster,
Every hurt last longer,
Every fall hits harder,
And I won't apologise,
And I am,
And I am,
And I am,
Not for who I am,
Am,
Am,
Heavy hearted,

So why does it feel like I'm running,
Like you're chasing me,
From myself, but I wont any longer,
Just let me be,

Heavy hearts fall faster,
Every hurt last longer,
Every fall hits harder,
And I won't apologise,

Heavy hearts fall faster,
Every hurt last longer,
Every fall hits harder,




And I won't apologise,
For who I am.

Overall Meaning

"Mothica's song "Heavy Heart" is a powerful declaration of self-acceptance and self-love, despite the pressures of societal norms and the need to conform. The first verse reveals that the singer has felt insecure about her identity and has tried to change herself to please others. She admits that she has been hiding a darkness within her, but now she refuses to apologize for who she is. The repeated refrain of "heavy hearts fall faster" emphasizes the weight that comes with not conforming and how it can lead to pain and hurt, but the singer stands firm in her decision to embrace her true self.


In the second verse, the singer challenges those who have judged her and attempts to explain her perspective. She points out that she knows herself better than anyone and that she's not as weak as they may assume. She urges them to try to understand her, to open their hearts, and not be afraid of the emotions she's been experiencing. Again, the repetition of "heavy hearts fall faster" reinforces the message that being true to oneself can be difficult but it's worth it.


In the final lines, the singer declares that she will no longer run from herself or allow others to chase her away from who she really is. She asserts her right to be herself and refuses to apologize for it. Overall, the message of the song is one of strength, resilience, and self-acceptance in the face of adversity and societal pressure."


Line by Line Meaning

I thought colour didn't suit me, so I didn't try,
I believed that exploring new things would not make me happy and I was afraid to try something new.


Pitch black, but they still pursue me,
I thought staying in the dark would help me hide and escape people, but they still come after me.


Guess I wasn't right,
I realized that my belief was incorrect and it didn't save me from people's interest in me.


Maybe if I try to make them like me,
I thought I could make people like me if I change and conform to their idea of what is good and acceptable.


Smile little wider, seeming bright,
I would try to act happy and conceal my true emotions by pretending that I'm fine.


They won't ask to see the darkness I've been hiding,
If I seem fine, people won't bother to ask me about my hidden dark feelings and thoughts.


I'm not hiding cause...
I'm not concealing my feelings because...


Heavy hearts fall faster,
When someone has a heavy heart, they fall faster and struggle more in life.


Every hurt last longer,
The pain that we experience when we have a heavy heart stays longer and is more difficult to recover from.


Every fall hits harder,
The difficulties and problems that come our way become harder to confront when we have a heavy heart.


And I won't apologise for who I am,
I won't say sorry for my feelings, thoughts, and who I am as a person because it is a part of me.


And I am,
My existence and being are valuable and should not be dismissed.


Not for who I am,
I don't exist as a person because of people's perception of me but because of my own.


Am,
I still am who I and won't change just to please people.


Heavy hearted,
I have a heavy heart and those feelings won't go away.


You thought I was overtaking, but you didn't see,
People assume that I am happy or doing well, but they don't see what's really going on inside.


I know myself and I'm not so weak,
I am aware of my strengths and perseverance even though I may have a heavy heart.


Maybe if you try to understand it,
If people try to understand me and my feelings, it would make a difference.


Open up your heart and dont be scared,
People should be more empathetic and willing to connect with others without fear of judgment or rejection.


Of what I've been feeling my whole life,
I've been feeling these emotions for a long time and it's not easy to explain or express them to others.


So why does it feel like I'm running,
I feel like I'm avoiding something or someone and constantly on the move.


Like you're chasing me,
I feel like people are pursuing me even though I just want to be left alone.


From myself, but I wont any longer,
I want to stop running from myself and confront my feelings.


Just let me be,
Please stop pursuing me and allow me to be myself.


And I won't apologise,
I won't say sorry for trying to take care of myself and my needs.


For who I am.
I won't apologise for being me, with a heavy heart, dark feelings but still unapologetically me.




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DeionZo

I've recently found Mothica and I can honestly say I love all her songs.

Tabitha

Same here.

jacob hoyle

Same

Dr. Dank

Ditto

Scarlet_yuki

Same

Sage Lord

I'm so proud of how far she's come over the last year

riserecords

HEAVY HEART ❤️❤️❤️

Aiselyn Anaya Hall

No shade at all super proud! But how is a record label indepednent under another label? Are they two separate entities since it's just licensing?

Ujjal Buragohain

🕊️❤️🙏

Jacob Elton

@Aiselyn Anaya Hallforlll
On h.k

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