Mothica is the audio/visual project of McKenzie Ellis. Like a moth, nocturn… Read Full Bio ↴Mothica is the audio/visual project of McKenzie Ellis. Like a moth, nocturnal yet drawn to the light, her lyrics balance clever wordplay doting on intimate and often dark life experiences.

Growing up in the suburbs of Oklahoma McKenzie was a part of a classical guitar ensemble at an arts-focused public high school. At home, she would write original songs over arpeggios she learned in guitar class and uploaded her original songs and covers on YouTube. She was determined to trade the great plains for a more populated skyline. After receiving a scholarship to Pratt Institute for visual web programming, McKenzie moved to Brooklyn, New York in 2013.

Between classes, McKenzie wrote music as a form of catharsis from rigid school assignments. During the second semester, she showed a classmate some of the songs she had been making and her classmate introduced her to several electronic music producers on Soundcloud, lent her a midi keyboard, and encouraged her to buy a real microphone. Her first released on Soundcloud, ‘Starchild’ (prod. by melodrama) received 100,000 plays in 24 hours.

Mothica is an alter ego that isn’t afraid of honesty even if it means showing weakness. Her distinct raspy yet honey-soaked voice is not one of vocal training, but of heartfelt emotion. Her storytelling writing style and unexpected melodies have set her apart in an music scene that is overrun with sameness. She lends her voice to many genres via collaborations, bringing electronic elements to life with the emotions she shares.

McKenzie desired the skill to produce her own instrumentals, so she learned Ableton and released an entirely self-produced EP called Mythic in 2013. Her somber song about self-empowerment, “No One” reached No. 6 on the US Viral Spotify Charts. The collaboration and record label requests came pouring in but she carefully hand selected her music partners and released the smash "Clear" with Canadian producer Pusher. The song currently sits at 12 million plays on Spotify put her on the radar for everyone from Spotify execs to VSCO to Teen Vogue.

Turning down every record label offer, Mothica remained independent and began performing around New York. She performed her first show solo, and it was completely sold out. She finished up a second solo EP called Heavy Heart about her experience with depression. She continues to grow into her writing style while collaborating with the likes of Tennyson, Crywolf, Said The Sky, and Electric Mantis.

Like her music, Mothica's live show continues to evolve. Playing from coast to coast with several headlining shows, 2017 saw the first iteration of a live music experience for Mothica with three additional band members interpreting lively versions of the songs her fans know best.

She started out 2018 with one million monthly Spotify listeners anticipating the upcoming release of two EP's throughout the calendar year. On Valentine’s Day, she will release her next single, Lovetalk, accompanied by a music video and is planning a late April US tour.

everything at once
mothica Lyrics

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Hate when you ask how I’m doing
I know that you’re just assuming
I’m better now, not bleeding out

Get outa bed on a good day
Lately that’s all I can do, hey
I go through hell, to hide myself

I think about new ways to hurt me
But don’t want my mother to see
It’s not that I feel undeserving
Just blame it on the chemistry

That’s why

I can’t cry
Im too anxious
Restless mind
I can’t shake this
Said I’m fine
but we both know I’m faking
I’m not feeling numb,
I’m just feeling everything at once

Whatever I do I can’t slow down
Please don’t leave me alone now
Cuz when I stop, my demons talk

I’m coming off apathetic
I play it off like it’s an aesthetic
Clearly I care too much, but I’m fooling everyone

I think about new ways to hurt me
But don’t want my mother to see
It’s not that I feel undeserving
Just blame it on the chemistry

That’s why

I can’t cry
Im too anxious
Restless mind
I can’t shake this
Said I’m fine
but we both know I’m faking

I’m not feeling numb,
I’m just feeling everything at once

Overall Meaning

In Mothica's song "Everything at Once," the lyrics explore the struggles of dealing with overwhelming emotions and the pressure to put on a mask of happiness and strength. The singer expresses a frustration with being asked how they're doing because they know it's merely an assumption and they feel the need to pretend they are better and not "bleeding out."

The song portrays a daily struggle to get out of bed and the constant battle to hide their true emotions. The lyrics hint at a self-destructive tendency, as they think about new ways to hurt themselves but don't want their mother to witness it. The singer explains that it's not about feeling undeserving, but rather blames their emotional state on "chemistry," suggesting a reference to mental health issues.

The chorus of the song emphasizes the internal conflict and emotional turbulence the singer experiences. They feel too anxious to cry and have a restless mind that they can't shake. They acknowledge that they are faking being fine, but deep down they are not numb; in fact, they feel everything intensely all at once.

In the second verse, the singer highlights their inclination to play off their apathy as an aesthetic, fooling everyone around them into thinking they don't care too much. This reveals the struggle of internalizing their emotions while trying to maintain a facade of detachment. Again, they mention thinking about new ways to hurt themselves but not wanting their mother to witness it.

Overall, "Everything at Once" delves into the complex emotions and challenges of dealing with mental health issues. It highlights the pressure to conceal true feelings, the daily battle to function, and the overwhelming experience of feeling everything intensely.

Line by Line Meaning

Hate when you ask how I’m doing
I dislike it when you inquire about my well-being

I know that you’re just assuming
I am aware that you are making assumptions

I’m better now, not bleeding out
I am currently in a better state, not visibly suffering

Get outa bed on a good day
On fortunate occasions, I manage to get out of bed

Lately that’s all I can do, hey
Recently, that is the extent of my accomplishments

I go through hell, to hide myself
I endure hardships just to conceal my true emotions

I think about new ways to hurt me
I contemplate different methods to inflict pain upon myself

But don’t want my mother to see
However, I do not wish for my mother to witness my struggles

It’s not that I feel undeserving
It is not that I believe I am unworthy

Just blame it on the chemistry
I attribute it solely to the workings of my brain

That’s why
That is the reason

I can’t cry
I am incapable of shedding tears

Im too anxious
I experience excessive anxiety

Restless mind
My mind is constantly unsettled

I can’t shake this
I am unable to overcome these feelings

Said I’m fine
I claim to be okay

but we both know I’m faking
Yet, both of us are aware that it is a facade

I’m not feeling numb,
Contrary to popular belief, I am not emotionally numb

I’m just feeling everything at once
Rather, I am experiencing an overwhelming flood of emotions

Whatever I do I can’t slow down
No matter what I do, I cannot reduce my pace

Please don’t leave me alone now
I implore you not to abandon me in solitude

Cuz when I stop, my demons talk
Because when I pause, my inner demons torment me with their voices

I’m coming off apathetic
I may appear indifferent

I play it off like it’s an aesthetic
However, I pretend that it is merely a stylistic choice

Clearly I care too much, but I’m fooling everyone
Evidently, I possess deep concern, yet I successfully deceive everyone

I think about new ways to hurt me
I contemplate different methods to inflict pain upon myself

But don’t want my mother to see
However, I do not wish for my mother to witness my struggles

It’s not that I feel undeserving
It is not that I believe I am unworthy

Just blame it on the chemistry
I attribute it solely to the workings of my brain

That’s why
That is the reason

I can’t cry
I am incapable of shedding tears

Im too anxious
I experience excessive anxiety

Restless mind
My mind is constantly unsettled

I can’t shake this
I am unable to overcome these feelings

Said I’m fine
I claim to be okay

but we both know I’m faking
Yet, both of us are aware that it is a facade

I’m not feeling numb,
Contrary to popular belief, I am not emotionally numb

I’m just feeling everything at once
Rather, I am experiencing an overwhelming flood of emotions

Lyrics © Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Warner Chappell Music, Inc.
Written by: ELLEN MURPHY, MCKENZIE ELLIS, MICHAEL MACALLISTER, ZOE MOSS

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@sarahmccoy7096

4y↑125

Lyrics
I can't cry, I'm too anxious
Restless mind, I can't shake this
Said I'm fine, but we both know I'm fakin'
I'm not feeling numb
I'm just feeling everything at once
Hate when you ask how I'm doin'
I know that you're just assumin'
I'm better now, not bleeding out
Get outta bed on a good day
Lately that's all I can do, hey
I go through hell to hide myself
I think about new ways to hurt me
But don't want my mother to see
It's not that I feel undeserving
Just blame it on the chemistry
That's why
I can't cry, I'm too anxious
Restless mind, I can't shake this
Said I'm fine, but we both know I'm fakin'
I'm not feeling numb
I'm just feeling everything at once
Oh-oh, oh-oh
I'm just feeling everything at once
Oh-oh, oh-oh
I'm just feeling everything
Whatever I do, I can't slow down
Please, don't leave me alone now
'Cause when I stop, my demons talk
I'm comin' off apathetic
I play it off like it's anesthetic
Clearly I care too much, but I'm foolin' everyone
Oh, I think about new ways to hurt me
But don't want my mother to see
It's not that I feel undeserving
Just blame it on the chemistry
That's why
I can't cry, I'm too anxious
Restless mind, I can't shake this
Said I'm fine, but we both know I'm faking
I'm not feeling numb
I'm just feeling everything at once (Once)
Oh-oh, oh-oh
I'm just feeling everything at once
Oh-oh, oh-oh
I'm just feeling everything at once
Oh-oh, oh-oh
I'm just feeling everything at once
Oh-oh, oh-oh
I'm just feeling everything at once

@anjenigilliam-salman5844

4y↑19

I love this!!!! The song is so catchy and well written. But it also has all the insinuations and meaning of how people live through so much....a lot of that being something versus another.

I love the duality of the video and that was portrayed perfectly!!!

I just found you as an artist recently and I’m so, so glad I did!!! You are such a huge inspiration!!!

Cannot wait to see what the future has for you!!!

Forever a part of the “swarm” (if that is the fan base name 😉).....but also forever a fan!!!

Love it!! Amazing! 💙💙💙

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@mirandamyers4055

4y↑1000

I feel like this describes how it feels to have “good” days mentally vs “bad” days mentally so well. No matter if you have a “good” or “bad” day you still feel depressed/numb/everything at once. It’s wild how accurate this is.

@fatema2466

3y↑3

totally agree

@PsychoticQueen

3y↑3

You couldnt have said this better!

@fable_enthusiast

3y↑4

I feel like that's the result you get from not treating major depression properly...

@MysticalGalaxy23

I was just thinking the same thing.

@Ashley-jz2fi

Agreed

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@iamsmol9054

4y↑297

Most songs talk about how people are numb when depressed, they feel dead inside. But when I’m having an episode I don’t feel numb I feel overwhelmed with anxiety and the hopelessness of my depression. I always pretend to be fine but honestly, I’m not, and I’m not breaking down because I’m legitimately too anxious to cry. Thank you for this song, it really helped me understand myself a bit better

@deadsoon

3y↑4

This is gonna sound a bit outta pocket but anxious depression is often a sign it might be actually mixed bipolar episodes.

@tenyaiida9581

3y↑1

I hate when they say it's an aesthetic I have attempted and I felt alot don't tell aizawa sensei

@thatperson278

3y↑1

I remember one time I was having a really rough day, started having thoughts of suicide. My grandmother happened to text and asked if I wanted to call. Normally I would say I'm fine but I guess the joke of everyone feeling like they can tell her everything is true. It was a short call, but after we hung up I cried harder than I have in a long time.

@Cherrymilktea2003

4y↑251

"Said I'm fine but we both know I'm fakin' " I felt that a lot

@wiltedxflower4981

4y↑405

This whole YEAR got me feeling everything at once

@JrockProject1

4y↑1

@fable_enthusiast

3y↑1

This whole life got me feeling anything at once

@aleksandrawyrobek9466

Yeah 😔

@j9vlikz683

Yep

@justgelwithit

4y↑420

This literally portrayed my mania vs depression and I’m actually crying this spoke to me on such a personal level. You are so incredibly talented!

@yoohoodrinker566

4y↑7

Yep Bipolar stuff right here.
Also cool tattoos

@angybean13

4y↑5

@@yoohoodrinker566 Yesssss. Having Borderline, this is basically my new anthem?

@mereduthgrubb3648

Mine too.

@missmaryfabela98

Facts

@17517319

4y↑97

“I’m coming off apathetic I play it off as an aesthetic , clearly I care to much” same

@sarahmccoy7096

4y↑125

@annabanana3855

4y↑69

this song is still something i listen to on repeat. i was just sitting here, hiding away in the quietest, darkest room of my house. you cant escape from the feelings no matter what you do. i dont want to sit on my phone scrolling through the same things every day. i wish i could do more than the same 2 things. i wish showers made me feel better like they used to. i wish hanging out with people helped. i wish exercise and healthy food fixed it all. everything is draining and theres no knowing who you are anymore. thank you for expressing this through music. you finally got me to cry while my body has refused to all day

@txshxnny9313

4y↑7

This is exactly how I feel, nothing works anymore. I try to do things I love but it does not feel the same anymore. I try to be better and do more but still can’t feel enough. Now I just stay in bed all day, can’t even cry anymore. I feel too much all at once, which seems like I’m numb cause it’s all locked inside me. I can’t express my emotions right now. I just stay quiet and in my head. Can’t even fake a smile. I don’t know how to feel better. Lost my appetite, lost my interest, lost hope, I feel helpless. I’m not always like this. I usually see the best things in life but now I feel like I live a lie.

@nandozzy2.055

Drug free therapy and meditation

@nandozzy2.055

Helped me

@jess_dreamer6714

4y↑159

I love this. You captured exactly how I feel vs. what everyone thinks you should do. Definitely a repeat song for me. Thank you Mothica

@StarryUmbra

4y↑108

If there's a video to ever describe how I constantly feel thanks to my mental illnesses, it's THIS.
Getting up and doing everyday things like the side on the left but mentally feeling like the side on the left, as if I'm not actually up and doing things but I'm just still in bed doing nothing.

@bluesphere247

4y↑121

Coincidence: this song came out in 2020 where we feeling everything at once 25 HOURS TO WAIT WTF

@kyla6464

3y↑13

Mothica is the only artist that has made songs that actually say everything i feel. Like other singers talk about things i feel but usually its a song towards a boy that hurt them but a boy has never broken my heart because my heart was never whole to begin with...

@abc.estlavie

3y↑24

You’re the first singer I have ever felt in my entire life “these songs are written for me”

@hmmnothanks5038

Oh this is beautiful

@NOCLUEinvalid

4y↑24

“I thought you already got over this. You chose to be unhappy.” - my parents to me

@T3RRY_T3RR0R

4y↑50

Can't wait! Premiere is 2am my time. Sleep is overated anyways.

@briannk3720

Ghana

@annieyu72

4y↑43

I wonder what people’s bad days were like without the wide use of technology...

I know that when I am in a mentally bad place, I waste my whole day on my phone/laptop.

@snarkytiger1553

3y↑1

I often get lost in a book with a captivating story and a happy ending so that I forget this world exisits.

@breannagartin3235

4y↑10

Ive felt like this so much in my life. Everyone has their moments with their depression and anxiety. I was so anxious yesterday and now I'm crashing lol. It happens to the best of us! Do some selfcare, eat and relax ❤️

@dommyaesthetics7424

4y↑28

I just want to say thank you. Your music saved my life.

@tabitha8250

2y↑5

I feel everything at once and nothing at all at the same time, it is hard to explain but this song really spoke to me just like loads of others in the comments but what makes me appreciate this so much is the fact that you can see the emotion put into her songs and videos and she is helping a lot of people see that they are not alone and never will be <3

@westmezzanine4321

3y↑7

I don’t think I’ve ever felt so understood before. This song literally gift wraps my feelings on a daily basis into a neat little digestible package for my ears. So thank you. You’re amazing, as are many of your songs

@Tinaaa_936

4y↑6

Just found this song and it made me break down in tears. Ive never related to a song so much. Im doing really bad right now with my mental health after literal years of clawing to the surface. Quarantine has made me do a 180. I use to go to the gym, eat healthy, visit my therapist every week and was managing my anxiety so well for the first time in my life.

Now my therapist suddenly took a new position so i cant even talk to her through email, i have only left my house twice since march and feel like im the only one struggling right now because my anxiety has made me agoraphobic and.. idk this song just makes me feel so seen.

I know im just a stranger on the internet but from deep down in my heart thank you so much! i cant wait for blue hour to drop💕

@Mothica

4y↑4

Tina i’m so sorry you’re having a hard time right now :-( you are definitely not alone! We will get through this. 💙 don’t give up

@Tinaaa_936

@@Mothica thank you so much, you replying honestly means so much to me❤

@emilyclaire3418

4y↑7

Cried while watching this.. thank you for speaking out about something that’s so real yet people push it under the rug. Mental health needs more awareness.

@mimmikyute

2y↑3

I was diagnosed with Borderline last week. I've been trying to figure out how it's affected my life and what it feels like to have this when this song popped in my life. Everything at once. This song's taken on a new meaning for me, thank you <3

@karalynncantwell5422

4y↑1

I’m literally tearing up because the way this portrays high functioning individuals is so accurate because even tho she seems better she is literally just as hurt and is struggling just as much as the other girl. You’re music is so impactful and I can’t wait to see everything that you’re gonna do.

@kennyjohnston9272

4y↑9

I don’t know what you do but this song is exactly how I feel day in and day out and seeing it on video and how you portrayed it hit me with immense emotion. Thank you 💚

@annasaggese8103

4y↑11

This song really speaks to me on a personal level. Thank you for making music that others can relate to and find comfort in💖💕

@summer21171

19w↑1

I love the portrayal of the scale and the candies during “I think of new ways to hurt me.” Because the truth is that even when you’re “okay”, if you struggle with yourself, such as an eating disorder or weight or anxiety or just physical thoughts, that scale’s number can be harmful. So the “healthy” side of this video shows a bit of unhealthy too.

@Ramen7810

4y↑3

I love this. I feel like one side is about her good days and the other is the bad ones. I can certainly relate I have more bad days then good these days. I love how she shows the medication which is so stigmatized and my doc now wants me on meds and I feel bad for taking them. It just shows depression and her songs always stick with me and make me feel heard. Her songs are like reaching out and saying I understand you're not alone. Been listening to her for years she's sooooo fire. Love you mothica ❤️

@JoaoPedro-vc3no

4y↑9

Soooooo ready! You’re amazing ❤️

@jo_st0n1e3

2y↑2

Im glad I found a artist who really knows how I feel

@jo_st0n1e3

Sometimes I feel like I'm faking my deppression and anxiety bc I'm fine one day and it's horrible the next

@jo_st0n1e3

Yes I have been diagnosed with both from a doctor I have medicine for it,

@clairissacarter1384

4y↑5

I struggle pretty bad with depression spurts and then a burst of energy to clean then I crash back into my dark depressing place. I try hard to get over the bump but it never seems to end.

@maddiecat9574

I’m still sober thanks to Mothmom. I’m still alive thanks to Mothmom.
I’m out and love myself thanks to Mothmom.

If you can’t do it for yourself right now, find any (healthy) reason to keep going. It gets better, it’s worth it.

@GuyDudeSir

"Feeling everything at once" helped me understand myself just a little bit more

@elliepfannenstiel171

4y↑1

I never thought a song could capture my childhood and teenage emotions.

@Jessikahupp

This song reminds me of how mental health really is and what everyone deals with

@mylesfoxx1383

3y↑3

Me during a sensory overload is literally this whole song

@fable_enthusiast

3y↑2

On the daily I don't feel anything except anger and frustration...but I've been listening to this song a lot in the previous months.
No matter how much you feel good temporarily, depression is always there, two days or a week are a pretty good achievement...but you're not at the finish line.
Thanks for portraying so many feelings in a way everyone can understand. I hope your talent, songs and passion will reach more people in the future.

(I know that you probably won't read this, but it means a lot to leave a comment under this video anyways)

@annabanana3855

4y↑12

IM SO EXCITED IVE BEEN WAITING SINCE I SAW THE TIKTOK ABOUT YOU WORKING ON IT AAAHHHHHHH

@xzucu7104

Me too Xd

@TorMango

4y↑5

Such a great video, this had me in my feels. (Also, I can't not say anything about how cute that Pom was)

@lydiacolvin4192

4y↑1

This is beautiful. So glad your music was recommended to me. Your music is so pretty and nice to listen to, but you aren't afraid to get into dark and gritty topics. Thank you for being so open and creating this song and video. Hope to see you go far!

@pinkcanary5559

2y↑1

The fact that she has a drawer of mini snickers and that’s like my favorite chocolate. I can become obsessed with eating them. I literally have been forcing myself to feel better about myself and do the left instead of the right for the sake my health and my kids. I didn’t even realize this was the video when I used this for my Tik tok about rebirthing your mind to switch from thoughts of depression and thoughts of self love and worthiness.

@rogerowo

I love the way she says "numb" 😩🖤

@holabueno4567

When your feeling down people often tell you to shut up and calm your self down when really you should just let it all out and music is a great way to do that

@tobykramer268

My daughter loves your music (well, the songs she can listen to, she's only 6). Thanks for making such good songs, and in 6 years when puberty depression hits, I plan to use this song to help her understand what she's facing.

@sterlinglgraves

4y↑2

This video is a great representation of the struggle a lot of us are going through. I love what you did with it

@PKr_0

People talk about being numb when they are feeling at their worst. I feel numb when I'm feeling "stable".

@habituallytiredsloth2287

The depression hoodie really is a mood

@SomeoneSpecialMusic

On repeat daily, blessings ! Lost my BF over NYE... Rip Matt Burt <3 aka Indigo Matiko !!!

@ItsRachelxo

My NEW favorite artist omg thank you for being so real.

@samanthazayas94

All I can say is thank you for staying alive

@lauravgo

one of my favorite songs for sure

@T3RRY_T3RR0R

As always, Thankyou!

@anjenigilliam-salman5844

4y↑19

@forrestfriesen2384

4y↑1

This actually took my breath away. Thank you for making something so powerful.

@jstruensee

4y↑2

Your amazing and I respect your courage to put shit out there others are afraid to lyrically. Totally relate

@Aquatwin22

i like how both sides are still feeling these feelings, because certainly its good to have these things incorporated in your life, it does not erase the fact that you are dealing with a mental illness. amazing work once again!

@juliannabates5090

This is exactly how I feel with my anxiety and with whatever else is going on. This is just, spot on.

@Inflake

4y↑1

So much meaning in one video. I love this so much! Good job McKenzie💙

@StatusNull

4y↑2

this is seriously stuck in my head randomly. Good job :D

@perfectlyimperfect2150

4y↑2

This song gives me chills every time I listen to it 🥺

@nobaliekloster286

this is my favorite on the album

@shannac4179

The video for this fit this song perfectly. It really fits the mentality of everything hitting at once and the two sides of it. There was no glamorizing it, it was just so simplistic and well done. I love it.

@aubreeyost6904

Your music is painfully relatable.

@JL-wd2kg

This song just hits me hard. I love it. It honestly describes how I feel and is kind of like how most of the time I do let my depression get to me and I push everything down and then those times suddenly I’m feeling everything that I’ve tucked away.

@ellaaudia9777

The scale next to the box of candy was so accurate, on good days I'll get on the scale, and on bad days I'll eat a lot of candy. Not only the video but the lyrics were so fitting. everything about this song helps me feel better on my good days and helps me understand myself more on my bad days. Thank you Mothica/Mckenzie!

@ashleyperez4035

4y↑1

Love it! Really spoke to me. Thank you

@daniellerenee8607

This song fucks me up and heals me at the same time.

@LozanoVideography

Most... Underrated...Artist....Ever.

@hdawn2708

1:20 with ‘Forever Fifteen’ blocked out on the left felt really powerful

@konuka_ame

These songs hit different now after watching the video of your life story

@spencerb9827

When was the moment you realized Mothica was THE artist? For me it was this music video. The duality, the mirror scene, the hands reaching for the sky, the way it perfectly encapsulates how it feel. Art

@irelandmccormick8650

BEST MUSIV VIDEO EVER. Also best song ever. Thank you so much for making this...it’s jus. It’s so wonderful and pretty. Thank you for making it. Thank you for writing the song. It’s my next favorite song that I will listen on repeat

@tanyab78

Yes! Love love love!!

@1111sm..

3y↑1

Such a cool concept...💛

@zoehansen4690

i love your music i find that i relate to it a lot. thank you

@chastideakaelea4530

4y↑15

Premieres on my birthday?!?! Omfg yaaaaasssssss!!! Thank you for giving me something to look forward to. ♡♡

@jaydenemcgregor5862

4y↑1

Same here lol birthday twins!!!!!!

@VioletVexx

@@jaydenemcgregor5862 happy birthday then ^.^

@VioletVexx

happy birthday :D lol

@nyct0phile

happy birthday

@chastideakaelea4530

Thank you, cuties!!

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@macbuff81

This song shows exactly what depression feels like

@jackelynzamora6315

Im literally the side with the hoodie today and I needed this. This is my depression versus my mania.

@nodoubtmisa

youtube just recommended this to me and I have to say, it rarely happens that it recommends something so good to me, I can relate so much to this and it actually brings me to tears, thanks for this masterpiece <3

@andeessential2939

Wow. This video describes me completely in ways I am not able to portray. I feel this so deeply.

@plastic-dia

4y↑4

"I go though hell to hide myself" I felt that lyric a little too much

@Gwenificationful

Love all the music I’ve heard so far! You’re a great artist, I connect so deeply with this song.

@charlieketchem266

2y↑1

Perfectly beautiful. This is one of my new favs. ☺️

@DramaticallyCreative

This song describes me but yet I still cry.

@mayaflici374

4y↑1

Such a queen, honestly love this video
Also, Bless Momica, I appreciate her so much

@darthragnarok1489

This video is an artistically brilliant depiction of the simultaneous conflicting desire to do nothing at the same time as wanting to get to a healthier place.

@alexarainey1705

Thank you for making your art. It brings me so much comfort to know I'm not alone.

@salonisiag6527

that was amazing. thanks <3

@michellekiddhalbert68

22w

I feel this so much right now.

@phoenixburns9896

This song really hits because it perfectly describes how I feel with my BPD

@ButterflyFeels

Love the song and visual!

@Futurebound_jpg

I LOVE EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS

@nampham1539

Wow these are actually good songs. Keep it up

@emilymiller7157

I feel like this all the time. 🔥

@marajohnson6018

this song is so powerful

@kmdx316

I love this song so much. It’s probably my favorite of yours. I had a good week but the two weeks prior were SO rough. I just rewatched this video and can’t help but cry 😣